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[chemlabin]

💥INTRO POST💥

BASIC INFO ABOUT ME:

Name: Aeron (not real name) or chief running bird cause you racist degenerates seem to love it

Age: 14 (practically 15 atp)

gender: boy (afab)

Where I’m from: The United States

Racial makeup: European, native (Cherokee?? I’m not 100% on that), and African

what I identify as: white

religion: Agnostic

Democrat or Republican?: neither I’m more or less what one would call an “anarcho-communist”

NOT TCECE I just like t crime and effed up shit (idc if y’all follow me tbh)

music: I listen to lots of different music styles, my music tastes mostly consist of as of right now industrial music, goth rock, punk, indie pop, some aggrotech, metal, and more

favorite movies: z day 2003, we need to talk about Kevin, dtchsm, dance me outside, evil bong, dazed and confused, heathers, bang bang your dead, the blaire witch project, the last unicorn, my friend dahmer, sala samobójców (svcide room) children of the corn, the Texas chainsaw massacre, my cousin vinny, bowling for C0lumbin3, the craft, the crow, the virgin suicides, saw, and a lot more

favorite books: a mothers reckoning, girl in pieces, the catcher in the rye, perks of being a wallflower, my friend dahmer, hate list, the book thief, and more

other things: I’m neurodivergent, I’ve had a pretty shit time growing up so far of which has caused me to have a really hard time with the feelings of empathy, remorse, and guilt, so I may come across as an asshole since I have a hard time feeling those emotions, but I’m a chill person, if I like talking to you you’ll definitely know since I’m very different around people I like interacting with and people I don’t, but don’t be afraid to talk me me I don’t bite. I like dead things and weird things, I also like cats cause in a way they’re like me. Im very passionate on music and politics, my favorite bands are my chemical romance and KMFDM.

honorable mentions of people that are cool: @cedar-slaughter , @zeromilk1 , @pandacornprincesssappho , @creep1999-2 ,

I have no DNI, but I will say if you’re in the tc and you claim you have a “plan” or you’re just fucking weird and overly sexualize perps or the victims, I’m gonna have to block you that just makes me really uncomfortable :)

MY TAGS BELOW 👇

[chemlabin]

I’m so tired of grieving for something I never had lmao

[chemlabin]

”who tf even listens to switchblade symphony”

me. I do. My mommy does 🥲🥲🥲

Bet you’ve never heard of the band strawberry switchblade tho no one listens to them

[anticosmicgnosis]

I’m curious to learn more about anticosmic Gnosticism or just Gnosticism in general (im trying to just learn more about different religions and that sort of thing) what are some good books or just anything in particular about this?

I'm sure there are a lot of solid texts I'm missing here, but these are the most important and insightful books I could think of that I've personally read! Note that some of these books are incredibly difficult to find physically, but are generally all available as PDFs online: Current 218 (Anti-Cosmic Satanism/MLO/TOTBL)

Liber Azerate by Magister Templi Frater Nemidia The original public text outlining this current. Only available in European languages outside of some fairly bad unofficial English translations online.

The Book of Sitra Achra by N.A-A.218 The successor to Liber Azerate. It's a full grimoire of the Sitra Achra and cosmology of Anticosmic Satanism.

Liber Falxifer 1-3 by N.A-A.218 Cover the necrosophic current of 218 focusing on the Cult of Qayin.

Panparadox by Ekortu Explores Chaos Gnosticism through the god Pan.

TOTBL 218 A compilation document of the articles and teachings from the Temple of the Black Light's website prior to it going offline. Can still be found online as a PDF under the name TOTBL 218.

Þursatrú/Thursatru (Nordic Form of Chaos Gnosticism)

Þursakyngi I The Essence of Thursian Sorcery by Ekortu An introduction and overview of the Thursian tradition

Þursakyngi II Loki by Ekortu Explores Loki within the Thursian tradition

Þursakyngi III Gullveigarbók by Ekortu While the third of the current grimoire series, it's actually Ekortu's first book on Thursatru and the one I would recommend diving into the most. It explores Gullveig, but also includes a very solid explanation of the Thursian current as a whole.

Myrkþursablót: Nightside of the Old Norse Mythology by Hrímhjarta While not technically Thursatru, it is a fantastic text on a very similar current.

General Texts

Black Flame by Tau To Naas A very solid overview of Chaos Gnosticism/Anticosmic Satanism as an overarching concept, though fairly short.

General Gnosticism

The Nag Hammadi Scriptures The best source for ancient Gnostic theology, as it's pretty much all we have left from that era. You'll find texts from various gnostic viewpoints within it.

Brotherhood of the Serpent by Tau To Naas A solid text covering Ophite Gnosticism and the Ophite Diagram.

[baphomets-favorite-mortal]

things to do when you cant sleep but are too tired to do anything:

mindlessly doomscroll tumblr for an hour, then feel bad about yourself

remember something you said 2 years ago and get scared

hear a baby crying through your cardboard walls, try to block it out, then remember you cant

oh man what if everyone i know actually hates me and are only pretending to like me

think about that event for half an hour and try to come up with a scenario to “fix it”

see things that arent there

stare at the ceiling and think about how you cant sleep

Don’t Listen To Music Even Though It Helps You

overheat

plan out a conversation that will never happen

The Nefarious Hour Long Skin Picking Session

”huh i wonder what that song was called”

yeah no they hate me

[dogpuppy]

[chemlabin]

I label myself as agnostic but i feel like my personal beliefs align a bit with Gnosticism (not really I don’t know enough about it and I criticize some parts of it but this is from my own thoughts and thinking) as in I think that whatever “god” is is not necessarily a higher being because if there is a “god” or some sort of thing or concept out there that’s beyond our knowledge or understanding, than this deity isn’t perfect or capable of creating a perfect universe and initially we are here to suffer and face hardships because that’s the reality of life in of its own.

I don’t think any deity though is capable of controlling how we as humans interact with each other I think the word is a shit place because of us and because of our decisions, yet that in a way seems to be common nature for us humans. Our understanding of good and bad comes from a concept that we have made, in nature these invisible laws don’t exist, in nature you live on instincts and nature isn’t a peaceful thing, it’s raw and fucked up just like us.

I don’t have any saying on what I think happens when we die, I don’t believe in heaven or hell, I think in a way we just cease to exist. Might it be peaceful, might it not that’s beyond our understanding and comprehension.

initially though I think life has absolutely no meaning, it’s purely up to you how you go on to live it and how you create one for yourself. At the end of the day we all die.

My personal meaning for my life is to fight this oppressive system we live in. I want to actually do something. I don’t have much of a plan but I have an idea, my beliefs, and my anger and hatred for this world we live in.

[perfectanimal]

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[chemlabin]

”why are all the emotions you feel so negative” *says in a monotone voice* because I’m a negative person and a horrible influence on todays youth.

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the devil comes to me in many forms

[chemlabin]

how to block someone that blocked you

[chemlabin]

”I’m literally god” *blocks me*

what part of understanding did I miss cause uh what

[theydrewbl0od]

The Anatomy of a Fall moodboard

[chemlabin]

apparently dissociation for prolonged periods of time is not normal and having this feeling that you are there but also not at the Same time

a lot of the time it just feels like I am stuck in my head and my body is on autopilot if that makes any sense at all. it started when I was 11 and when I was 11 that was going on and I had like these voices or personalities if that makes sense that would talk to be that never really went anywhere.

I still have something “similar” to that but now it’s mostly really intense repetitive and intrusive thoughts that won’t go away.

Idk it’s weird tbh I don’t know what i could even classify this as I just know it’s not normal.

this though is one the main things that started my journey with actual mental illness not my undiagnosed MDD I had when I was 10 yet that was the very beginning of it and that’s when I started realizing things for how they were.

I don’t know why I was depressed then I really do not remember.

my memories are very foggy due to all my dissociation and me trying to endure all this shit and survive.

[cedar-slaughter]

Has anyone read this book? Is it good? I wanna read it.

[chemlabin]

reblogging this so I’ll remember to Google it later