Reclaiming My Life from the Borderline

I am a 30something-year-old writer, mom of 5, and diagnosed with BPD. Here is my way of facing my fears and bringing awareness to this life-stealing disease. Here is my space to share my thoughts, to make sense of my world, to share what I learn as I go... with the hope that it can help in some small way to put a human face to "crazy" and stop the negative stigma attached to those who suffer from mental health issues.

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I am quite obsessed with sunsets and sunrises.. A beautiful way to remember all of the amazing features of life.

Here’s a few of my photographs from home, from travels recently to the west coast and from the air .

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Every time I come back from hiking and being somewhere deep in the woods I always feel this sort of renewal like I can start my life over again; fresh and new.

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Something will grow from all you are going through. And it will be you.

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this gives me hope

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I love this

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Where have you been?? You are missed by your tumblr crowd!

Hey there! 2014 was a year of trials for my family. Everything is good.. I am keenly aware of the peaks and valleys in life and right now the light is shining on our way back up! It is in the times of stress that I have gained the most wisdom and perspective. I've just been busy processing it a little more privately. I still check in from time to time. Hope all is well with you!

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"...celebration never need depend on outside circumstances. We need not wait for a special holiday or a formal occasion, nor a sunny and cloudless day. True celebration arises from a joy that is first experienced deep within, and spills over into an overflow of song and dance and laughter, and yes, even tears of gratitude." Osho Zen

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Winter wonderland... I love how snow can make everything look magical..

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So happy I found you again! Do you still have a YouTube channel?

Hi :) I haven't posted on YouTube in a while.. Maybe I will again soon. How are you?

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October 10th is World Mental Health Day.

For one day, let go of your assumptions that someone should just • Smile more • Try harder • Stop attention seeking • Stop drug seeking • Take more pills • Appreciate life more

• Stop faking it • Think about all the good things in their life • Lighten up • Talk more • Talk less • Snap out of it For one day, instead of promoting stigmas, stereotypes, and ignorance—instead of making the problem worse—take a few minutes to educate yourself.

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Sometimes it’s a little better to travel than to arrive

 Robert M. Pirsig (via purplebuddhaproject)

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Thank you for caring. It helps a lot. I just feel helpless at times.

Of course! And we ALL have times like this.. Feeling helpless. It's important to have a support network to remind us of how life is not a steady course. But a constant opportunity for growth.

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Compliment yourself when you look in the mirror, massage yourself, eat food that makes your body happy, talk nothing but positive about yourself, treat yourself as if you’re the most important thing in your life. Because you are.

Selflove isn’t selfish. (via travel-as-a-happy-hippie) runningwithissues

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I almost cut today. I can't stop the frustration in my mind. I have to do something

Sweetie.. I'm so so sorry that you are struggling right now. I wish I could tell you the exact thing that will help you break through. All I can say is that YOU are worth recovery. You are worth it. You are worthy of love and care and grace and forgiveness and hope and compassion and dreams. This world is for YOU! All of the beauty in the sky and under the sky is for YOU! There is nothing to do but rejoice that you are alive... You are special and it is of the highest importance to take care of yourself. Your skin is alive and needs your care.. Go get some lotion and take care to apply it gently.. Covering all of the places you want to harm. Instead show it love and mercy. I'm here if you need me :)

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The un-harvesting of a soul

You whispered "look" I knew what you wanted me to see It was there Yet  I was already looking beyond it But for you I saw it As if for the first time And I carried the  Full Force  Of the vision Plain on my face Soft  And astonished  And I looked back upon  You As if  I needed saving As if  I was incomplete As if  I would be more than me With you And now I perform  An annual undoing A molting Of self Stripping down to The barrenness  Of one Who keeps their eyes Fixed  On a point And carries an empty Urn Ashes already spread Sweetening  A field Being tilled by  Someone else http://fragmentarygirlwritings.blogspot.com/?m=1

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I played a lot tonight.. Music is my therapy.