I'm not malevolent, but I often find myself thinking about how easy humans can die.
It would be so easy for me to kill a whole bunch of them before they could stop me...
And I can't help but think that before I didn't have to measure. I brought death to those I was told. But I was an angel.
There was nothing conveniently angelic about the actions I did, the death I brought.
But it had to be done... Right?
She wanted us to be good, do right, to obey, but to obey meant to do horrendous evils upon those She chose...
I dont remember my fall. Maybe I didn't even fall, maybe I simply left, unable to cope with what I had done...
How have the other angels felt, having to go against their morals because they had to obey g-d. Have they fallen, their souls tainted? Did they disobey Her so She threw them out?
Or did they obey, and feel righteous, still believing that what they did was right, that the firstborns were marked for death by their fathers, that all innocent had to die for the sinners to perish in the flood...
-We didn't all rebel, we simply were repulsed by g-ds cruelty.
-We didn't all fall, we fled heaven and hid on earth, scorned by our siblings
-We aren't all demons, we are fallen angels, only, because we have fallen from g-ds grace for not obeyeing Her every order.