GAH THE TOUCHY!READER W DEX IS SOOOO CUTE got me giggling and kicking my feet in public. it makes me think + taking it a step further how CLINGY dex gets after the established relationship like that man is touch starved to Hell. lowkey i think as long as weāre around heād need to have some part of his body attached to ours. cooking? you know heās behind you. brushing teeth? his chin is on your shoulder. in public? no idea actually. i need to know your thoughts!!!!!! such a big fan of ur work <33
Hiiiii!!! Omg screaming I love this idea and this whole dynamic, and thankyou my honeybun!!! Like hello ily!!!!
I think the touch starvation is integral to his character, and honestly a part of Dex that I think a lot of people sometimes forget is probably HEAVILY prominent in his life. Especially after heās found you? Itās like a gnawing animal, always there inside of him, that intense need.
And youād be correct. Distance is torture for him, proximity is what lets him know things are okay. His world that heās created isnāt crashing and burning and he can tell the mulling thoughts they have no place to stay. Cause he can shut everything off when heās around you.
You knew very early on that this was going to be the case.
You knew it when youād take a bath and heād ask to come with you. And youād say yes, going through all of the emotions at the idea of doing something so intimate despite the fact that heād been inside of you ten minutes ago.
Except Dex didnāt get in the bath, and when you turned to look at him while you stripped as he sat himself on the floor with his back to the tub - he just batted his blonde lashes like nothing was abnormal about it.
āYou didnāt wanna get in?ā Youād ask as he checks the temperature of the water, turns it off when the tub threatens to overflow. He hates the potential mess it might make, but you like the water high.
You pretend not to watch how his biceps flex under the fabric of his shirt.
āI already took a shower. Just gonna sit here with you.ā
And heād do exactly that, except your hand is out of the tub and heās been tracing circles over your wrist and palm while you talk about you day with a calloused thumb.
And that one hand hasnāt touched the water once since you got in because he knew it would be occupied by his the whole time.
In public, itās hard for Dex not to over do it.
Luckily, youāre also really keen on touching, but he does tend to manhandle you.
Heāll walk you through a parking lot with an arm looped around you and pull you close to his side anytime someone walks too close or a car doesnāt slow down enough - sometimes it gets really stressful for him. Because itās not a conscious thing most of the time, itās built into him and his hyper vigilance can be intense for everyone involved.
Heās a big fan of holding onto your belt loop, not only does it keep you close but it also doesnāt limit your mobility as much as it would with his arm around you while youāre trying to grab items off of shelves.
(Of course he grabs top shelf items)
By the time you two get home, heās already feeling the weight of not being able to be a freak weirdo who wants to melt into his partners flesh.
And the thing is, he doesnāt have to pretend with you. He understood that a long time ago, and you made sure to create a space that made him feel like itās okay to ask for what he needs. That sometimes he doesnāt have to ask at all.
I think heād be the type to come up behind you, in an effectively knee buckling embrace with his mouth nuzzled in the crook of your neck and his entire front pressed to the back of you. Biceps curled around your frame and thick forearms around the softness over your ribs.
And it would be random, maybe youāre cooking or doing the dishes or perhaps just changing the channel on the television in the living room.
He nuzzles you, scruff against your cheek and then your neck and shoulder, his tongue peeks out just a little whenever he feels skin. Otherwise itās like heās scenting you, just feeling you against him. Sensory wise itās a very enjoyable experience.
And yes I think Dex is a freak but thatās also why sometimes heāll touch you like this and itās completely non sexual. Itās always an even toss up, because more than likely if it goes on and you keep sighing all pretty lie that then yeah his dick is gonna get hard.
But itās like his body and mind wants to make up for lost time. For all the years, decades heād searched and you never found eachother.
And now he has you? Youāre his? Sometimes he just doesnāt know what to do with all of it, the adoration and aching want and desperation. And he wants a physical reminder, the scent of you in him and your skin against his fingers and the weight of you in his shirt.
Youād reach around to scratch at his scalp, surrender to his embrace and let yourself relax into it. Heāll never know how truly safe it feels to be held by him. You often wonder if your touch compares.
(It does, hello? Heās in shambles)
āNeedy.ā Is all you say, light and amused and content. And now heās sort of just rocking you both in place, almost imperceptibly so.
And you know heās tired because he has no smart ass retort, no grunt of disapproval at your calling him out. No uncharacteristic shyness about the words and their truth. When you turn around and throw your arms around his neck and get so close he can feel every curve and divot of your frame - he could really perish that moment and be okay with it.
Itās always like this. Intense emotions and heat stricken dizziness. He canāt ever find the balance, without you and heās nothing and with you he has everything good and healing and sanctifying.
Itās one of the only things that can choke him up.
And so that night, you hold him like something sweet and innocent. This is familiar, routine and even if he canāt fall asleep heāll lie there on top of you holding your body with your around his shoulders snd his head tucked underneath your neck and itās perfect. His favorite part of the day.
Dex would literally let you hold him like a baby snd loooove it. Big bad bullseye like okay bye