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[cherryzens]

Wanting...

Part 2

You take in a deep breath, and muster up the courage to stand up, walking away from the dirty bench

away from the men who had just started a fight 

away from the stupid men who had woken you up.

You convince yourself they did you a favor, 

but you know you would have given anything to stay a little longer in that dream of yours 

... that stupid dream of yours. 

You step in the bus, wishing there was a seat for you.

It seems you’ve come to terms with disappointment

You figure, maybe its better this way.

Convincing yourself otherwise is too tiring and has become repetitive, so you let it be, and pray for the bus to soon arrive at your stop. 

So you saw him again huh?

Your friends judgmental tone made you raise your eyes away from your canteen food. 

Ever since you had stopped seeing Jaehyun she had labelled him as the “local asshole who deserves nothing but to eat horse shit” or something of the sort 

You explain to her the coincidence of the meeting,

a very awkward situation in which you would prefer not finding yourself in anytime soon 

She lets it go, 

thank god,

and goes on about a new type of chocolate cake recipe she’s sold to our uni-bakery

You tell her you’re excited to try it, and that you should definitely meet soon again to relish its deliciousness together

She seems pleased with your comments and gives you a quick hug before leaving you alone to your food. 

You sigh to the sight of your unfinished plate

bite your lip out of habit 

gather all your hair to tie it in a messy ponytail 

and finally decide to leave the almost empty canteen.

Staying for too long in this place has become a bad habit, but you had nothing better to do during lunch break, so reading or pondering on life had become just as good as any pass-time. 

Just as you were preparing to leave, the chair beside yours moves

slowly someone’s pulling it

scraping it,

and you don’t dare look up to see who it is. 

Jaehyun sits down on the chair beside yours. 

????

You look up

stare intensely in his eyes,

defiantly.

You wanted him to know you could stand your ground     

...even though his mere presence was already making your legs weak

wth, he shouldn’t be in control of you this way. 

Fuck him you thought, just to make you believe you weren’t in complete admiration of his whole being. 

He fiddles around with his fingers

takes a deep breath

looks up to meet your gaze 

and asks Hi...How have you been?

shitty you think 

Pretty well you answer, a smile playing on your lips

you then realize you’re smiling and stop immediately  

I was uhmm, I mean after yesterday I thought...

He was mumbling now, looking pretty awkward 

You thought he looked pretty cute though

...

wait what?

The point is I came to think of you and thought maybe you’d want to hang out with me one of these days?

you really didn’t mean to gape 

but you did

making you look like a hesitating turtle, opening and closing your mouth dumbly. 

You smile, because you know all you really want to be doing is spending time with him

you can’t resist 

and you hate yourself for it. 

[cherryzens]

Hi! So I found your Jaehyun fic, and it's good! It makes me curious about what happened between the reader and Jaehyun, can't wait for the next chapter!

YAY this makes me happy! I’ll try my best for the chapters to come :)))

[cherryzens]

Wanting...

PART 1

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Your face was resting against your palm

Your palm was sweating

Your hand was slipping

Your eyes….

…you tried your best to keep them open but alas

…..closing them was so tempting…..

…u had to..

“MISS IN THE BACK!”

The shrieking voice of your philosophy professor startles you, and you straighten your whole body to mimic the position of attentive students. You readjust your glasses, out of habit, and mumble an apology. You were too tired to come up with an excuse, too tired to take into account the hundreds of students looking at you, judging you. Or maybe looking at you just out of interest. His classes were so boring that any pathetic happening could muster the attention of the entire auditorium. They needed a distraction. 

….

You pack your bag, make sure to take all your books and pens, and run out of class, your face still red from the mark your hand had left. You knew your eyes were bloodshot and your hair disheveled, but caring about your appearance was the last of your issues. 

You were dead tired. 

Studying?? fuck it 

Socializing?? fuck it

You quicken your pace, pass students, push them ever so slightly to hint them of your wanting to come out as fast as possible. 

The first step out from the uni building, and the fresh air you breathe in feels like a blessing. You walk down the steps, away from uni, and towards the bus stop. 

You walk

You run

You run into someone. 

It had to be fucking Jaehyun.

Obviously.

You knew he was clumsy, this wasn’t even your first time running into him. You’ve had to convince yourself that those times hadn’t happened on purpose. Coincidences.

Always a coincidence with Jaehyun.

You look up at him

You stare for a minute

Because with Jaehyun thats all you could ever do

stare.

He pushes away his fringe awkwardly, and you gape at his fingers. just because. never had you known anyone with fingers as delicate as his. How was that possible??

He picks up his yellow backpack, you pick up your black one.                        

bees.

bees?

the awkward smile happens. u try to ignore it but can’t. He then continues going toward the entrance of the uni, and you rush to the bus stop.

why.

Exhaustion was taking over your body, and your senses refused to work properly. However one feeling had now been awoken, and you damned it.

Butterflies. those stupid butterflies in your stomach again.

Or maybe they were bees.

Your brain now began working in overdrive, recalling memories you’d wish to forget.

there you were, sitting at the bus stop at 7pm, looking like an asparagus zoning out,

but you were a wreck inside.

Your eyes had closed again, without you even noticing, and any buss concern  seemed to have been long forgotten.

Your senses light up in your whole body, you feel on fire.

Your lips part open

just a bit

and you exhale shakily.

never had he been this near to you.

Your proximity allows you to study his face in detail, but all you could look at were his eyes.

You could not take your eyes off of his.

You can’t take this anymore, you have to lean closer to the wall, anything to make a little more space between the two of you.

Your body however, although following your brain’s instructions, does not want to distance itself a mere millimeter away from Jaehyun.

The closer the better.

The two of you are alone, and the echoes of your heavy intakes of breath make you go crazy.

How did you end up here again, how did this come to happen again.

you can feel his body heat, you see a drop of sweat rolling down his neck.

fuck

fuck fuck fuck

Jaehyun starts leaning closer and you suddenly feel warmth on your hip.

his grip is unexpectedly strong, as if his yurning for you had him go all kinds of crazy.

his lips part too.

he takes one step forward, one step only to press his body onto yours.

the heat - the longing

you raise your hands and interlace them behind his head, caressing the nape of his neck.

without you knowing , you had made him go crazy

He presses his lips to yours, tasting you.

Your mouth opens up immediately, needing more of him. You press your body to his, hoping it were possible to get even closer to him.

You quicken the pace of the kiss, because without even noticing you had taken control of it.

You explore his mouth,

you find his tongue,

you suck his tongue,

and he moans into your mouth.

His hands are everywhere, touching you, caressing you, exploring you.

He feels like a drug, and you just couldn’t get enough.

His hands start wondering down… and grip your ass steadily. Nothing could have prepared you for the sensation this made you feel,

a loud moan escapes your mouth, taking you by surprise.

you can feel Jaehyun’s lips smiling against yours,

feel his satisfaction, loving the effects he has on you.

He lifts up your left leg, pressing you to him, wanting you nearer.

the kiss has gotten wild, out of control, and heat starts pouring between your legs.

You can feel the ache slowly taking over you, making you go crazy for him, his lips, his dimples, his neck, his gaze, his kisses…

how would you ever get enough of him

you need more…

..you need…

YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!?!!

In a split second your eyes snap open, and you start looking around frantically to get a grip, an understanding of where you were.

at the bus stop.

still-

you start to feel your lungs burn, your head turn, your eyes glossing over

no

no no no

you had promised yourself Jaehyun was in the past

you had promised yourself to stop recalling such memories

you had promised yourself to forget him.