slowly getting it together

Chess | 27 | they/them | just a beacon of chaos trying my best

[chess-mix]

A New Year

I got the call last night that I got the position from RHA. I'm finally getting out of the state. I'm finally getting out of this toxic ass work environment. I'm still shaking and in shock. But I'm so excited and grateful for what's to come.

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I started service dog training Tadpole to identify my panic attacks and he picked up on it faster than any other training I've done with him and I'm so proud. He's my best buddy-pal and I couldn't have gotten any luckier with my little menace 💕

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January 1, 2023

This is officially the most vulnerable picture I've posted of myself on the internet. But I figure if I can be open and vulnerable with a billion strangers, I can be more open and vulnerable with those I love.

Here I stand, just under a week into my first microdose of T at 230 lbs. I was 219 just a few short weeks ago but fell off the wagon with stress and went back to carbs and hit the sweets unusually hard for me.

I've already been working on getting my health (not my weight) under control and I really want to document what a year of commitment can look like - both due to eating better/exercising/starting T.

I'm tired of the migraines, I'm tired of being uncomfortable in my own skin, and I want to make and stick to the habits I've slacked on and those I know I can form.

Wish me luck <3

[chess-mix]

About Me

just a little get to know me/starting point entry

Chess | 27 | April 7 | Non-Binary (AFAB/Trans-Masc)

Government worker - hoping to find new employment soon

Agnostic - not necessarily spiritual but I believe strongly in karma

I've been with my partner J for nearly 4 years and he is the love of my life and the reason I'm here today. We have a small zoo of animals including my service dog (in-training), our cat, a snake, an axolotl, a leopard gecko, a dwarf rabbit, and a tank of water frogs/a betta

I self-admitted to the hospital for my mental health in Dec 2020 and I've been stable on the meds they prescribed ever since. I am very happy, lucky, grateful, and privileged to have found the healthcare team I've assembled. They are all wonderful people who I owe everything to.

My workplace is stressful and not in the way most people would assume - but those are stories for another day.

Overall, I am so incredibly happy and thankful for the life I have. I'm looking forward to 2023.

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Intro

hi there

my name's chess and I wanted to use this blog as a place to track my physical and mental health throughout 2023. I'm also going to use it as a journal just to vent so if you're nosey then feel free to pop in