Gnawing The Nib

Until the ink flows out

[secretlysweetmonsters]

what if i rubbed my face on you like a cat because I love you? huh? what then?

[ioannisasmanis-deactivated20220]

you can have my heart and my hoodie

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

current mood: wanting to fall asleep wrapped up in her arms

[rosewater1997]

Love all my sensitive girls who make the most mundane things seem vastly more intimate and romantic

[chewedpen]

The insecurity is not getting better....and yet.

It’s so hard to stop looking for the ways in which I could potentially be hurt. The ways I might misstep and ruin everything and make her hate me the way I hate myself.

Because I love her so much and I want everything for her. I want the best for her and I want to give her everything. I’m worried I’m. Not good enough. It’s hard for me to believe that I can be because...I don’t feel that it’s fundamentally possible.

[chewedpen]

I think I might be in love. And I had no idea I would feel this scared. I had no idea this would come with so much bunched up insecurity, and yet...

Something in me also refuses to step away. But I feel desperate, like I’m trying to tread water in midair, like I feel that I should know already the nature of the drink I’m in without ever having drunk it before. I want so desperately to express this love but I just as desperately believe that I don’t know how. Not in the way I imagine, or the way I want. I’m worried that amongst this she will see the dullest parts of me, or the worst parts, or worse of all, she will see the true parts and want nothing to do with them.

[honeysuggestion]

i’d wish on a shooting star, but my wish already came true by having you in my life.

[ilovewinningbabyiwantitall-deac]

[contentmlm]

the gay yearning to make your partner coffee just the way they like it on a quiet sunday morning before heading to brunch among the fall colors hand in hand

[chewedpen]

I can’t stop thinking about her.

About kissing her. So softly

Holding her, warm together in my arms

I want to know the contents of her feelings today.

To know if she’s doing ok

And to hear her voice

[6thlovelanguage-deactivated2020]

sincerity is genuinely really hard like…….. if i have ever told you anything heartfelt out loud i have had to battle like 7 layers of embarrassment & repression to do that

[chewedpen]

I spent all afternoon with C and it felt like a blink. When we got up to leave I was so sad to have to go; and even worse, I felt like I couldn’t touch her. I don’t know where things stand when we’re technically in public.

It was getting so chilly though and I just wanted to put my arm around her so we could warm up 💕

I have never met anyone so unhesitatingly kind. And unflinchingly generous.

[seduloustudy]

Spread for 2nd week of September 🌀

I feel like this week has been so crazy! It’s finally sinking in to me that school has started and I need to haul ass with all the work.

I’ve also seen people from before that I never thought I’d hear from again and it’s all made me realize that it’s perfectly alright to drop people you’ve outgrown out of your life. It’s therapeutic af and I 100% recommend.

[the-girlygeek]

So long, August. 👋🏼 You were kinda crazy, but I loved ya anyway.