How do you speak your fear when you have always been so inner? It's harder than I thought.
4: I'm scared of living and I'm scared of dying. I'm trapped in this strange paradox. I'm not scared of death per say more of what will happen to little lion? But every day his autism shows more and more and that stings so hard. Your worn out torn up and all the threads that you have held on to are starting to fray and your tired so so tired. You get beaten my wee lion who doesn't understand pain, or empathy and I am scared that when he's bigger and older he will do some serious damage to me. I am scared that I may accidentally hurt him trying to stop him from beating me or biting me with such venom that it makes you bleed and howl in pain and he just is completely oblivious.. we have made some progress lately using Qigong massage therapy for autistic children.. I'm scared to be hopeful, I'm scared.










