inkblots and scribbles

"Have something to say, and say it as clearly as you can. That is the only secret." - Matthew Arnold

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IF NOT NOW, WHY?

Ever since he was young, our main character has always been fascinated with literature. One day he finally decided to write a book.  He started for an hour, had written a couple of paragraphs but then got tired and so said to himself that it could wait until tomorrow.  The next day, he thought of gathering some ideas for the book so he went tothe library but got distracted by the glossy car magazines. It had been very hectic at the office as it was the last week of the month so the man decided to leave the writing until that weekend.  By Friday, the man was so tired that he had forgotten that him and his wife had booked to go on a 3-week holiday.  When the trip was over, it was time to get back to reality.  

Paperwork had piled, a new nasty boss and a baby in the way had put his mind off the book.  There were times when he decided to start with his book again but then he always had a reason not to. Seasons changed.  The children came. Yet the book had remained unfinished.  

The book.  

An idea.  

Nothing more.

Everyone has this plan or goal they had to start on but end up not doing.  It might be because there was something else more important that had to be done.  However, almost always, most people find themselves within the “there’s always tomorrow” dogma.

So what is it really with this “tomorrow” that most people would prefer doing what they were supposed to do then than now? Do they expect:

a.)More aids could come the very next day (maybe in the form of human or financial resources)which could then have a connection with the next expectation which is

b.) A better result if it was done a day (or weeks, months, years) later? or

c.)that things would magically fall into place overnight?

If you had answered YES to any of the above, well and good.  A bonus, too, if they really did happen.   However, to the majority of us who do not have that much spare luck stashed in our back pockets, we fall prey to a state of idle-ness or worse, arrogance.

Ok, relax those raised eyebrows now.  I know idle-ness (a euphemism for being lazy), you might just nod your heads, but arrogance? Arrogance sounds too far-fetched.  Yet think about it.  Why the constant putting off?  We are so arrogant to think that we know the future.  We have been blinded into believing that we are totally in control of what lies ahead.  But who among us is a hundred percent, honest to God, bet-all-your-assets-to-it sure what tomorrow holds let alone there will even be one?  What if this is all the chance we got? What if this is really it? Would you take the shot?

I don’t mean to send an apocalyptic context across.  It is just so frustrating that most of us are so sure about having another day ever available at our beck and call that we fail to get the best out of the NOW.   While the previous list showed the more “positivist” reasoning, some people choose to do what can be done right in the moment for a later time because they just CANNOT.  Orat least they think they do.  These people become so overpowered with the task that they fail to acknowledge the potential they are so full of.   The will is there but the negative mind set had always gotten the best of most of us.  

Give yourself a reason why you CAN’T and the universe will do everything in its power to come up with a thousand ways to make you steadfast on your belief.Never ever let a single doubt cloud your determination.  Martin Luther King could not have put it more beautifully when he said, ““If you can't fly then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.”Whatever you do, never let hesitation stop you from doing what you were supposed to do.  

Never let insecurities dictate you on who you should be.  So before you put off to some other time what you can do right now, ask yourself why.  And don’t you ever dare say that there’s always tomorrow or that you can’t.  

You deserve a far better excuse than that

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Princess Chibon. Protector of the Nerds

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#naturelover (Taken with Instagram)

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:)

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It's Oamaru's Victorian Week.

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Woman vs. Wind

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the first step towards getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are

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jai guru deva ohm.

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Size matters. Yes?

The earth would seem like a joke in comparison to the sun when it comes to size.  NASA puts it in the perspective that if the radius of the earth would be the width of a paperclip, the sun’s would probably be about the height of the desk.

And somewhere on that tiny planet, on the night of the 20th of August 2013, on an area in the southern hemisphere with a high frequency of clear skied nights, someone had peered into the great unknown. It was the first time that I was able to look out into the vast black distance and witness what my naked eye had not allowed me to see before.

With the astrophysicists from Mount John University Observatory as our guides, I was able to understand and learn more about heavenly bodies.  They have also talked about the implications of constellations to different people: navigators, scientists, artists and clairvoyants.

I was at awe of the beauty; however borrowed its light is, of the moon.

Seeing Saturn for the first time with the aid of the MOA (Microlensing Observations in Astrophysics) telescope reinforced its factuality (not that I’m a non-believer). 

We were also able to view the tarantula nebula and had a glimpse of our closest, just next-door, galaxy neighbour.

Yet, of all the amazing things I got to see, it was the star Antares who managed to get all my attention.  It is known as “the heart” of the constellation Scorpius owing to its reddish-orangey glow and could fit billions of our sun in it in terms of size.  For visual comprehension, if Anatares were a basketball, our own sun would be as small as a grain of sand.  When I did further readings, I’ve found out that not only was Antares not the largest star in the universe, it also just comes 5th to VY Canis Majoris!

The red super giant star in the Milky Way got me thinking long and hard and had all of my mental facilities worked up, even up until now that I’m writing this blog. 

VY Canis Majoris > Antares > Sun > Earth

And then

VY Canis Majoris > Antares > Sun > Earth > me

It had me contemplating on its enormity.

But more importantly, it had me examining, realizing, my smallness—to the point closely verging in onto nothingness. 

My sense of diminutiveness had been greatly magnified by the mere fact that I (taken as a single unit) consider Earth (which is as a matter of fact just a tiny speck of dust in this big arena of celestial-body-forming clouds) HOME.

Do I still matter?

Do I really matter?

A faint voice inside me says yes.

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“Can you remember how you stroked me all over and seemed to tighten every bud before it opened itself? How you enjoyed plucking me! How you nourished yourself on my juices! And then you went away and sold me for the sake of your soul’s salvation. What infidelity, Aurel, what guilt! No, I don’t believe in a God who demands human sacrifices. I don’t believe in a God who lays waste a woman’s life to save a man’s soul.”

Vita Brevis by Jostein Gaarder

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Oh just a random conversation with one of my patients.

A lady patient (we'll call her Molly) in the facility I am working in is an artist and a photographer.  I am in love with everything that comes out of her mouth.  On one random conversation we had this morning, she said:

"Men are too afraid to fall down, wound their knees, that they always walk looking down at their toes.  I want to tell all of them, 'Look up! Look up! Look at the sky.  It's for free.  Start counting the stars, they are all for you! Falling down should be the least of our priorities when we have, in front of us, the universe in all of its beauty waiting to be appreciated."

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The stalks of these flowers are already dried up, but their blossoms are preserved and kept fresh by the medical infusion bags. The life-span of every living creature is limited. The infusion bags stand for the progress in medicine and the prolongation of human life. They somehow carry an ambivalent message as they refer to both death and life the same time. To preserve the beauty of the flowers artifically with the help of the infusion bags points out man’s inclination to repress the fact that he has to die and to postpone death.

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Ah yes.

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Don't say. Do. And when you do, don't just do. Be.

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we all have our struggles. what's the point of this life if all we need is served in a silver platter?

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We all are entitled to our own philosophies. I mean, that's what constitutes our being's very fiber. We all got to have something we truly believe in.

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It is because of our fixation on what is already laid out in front of us that we fail to notice the smaller details. We fail to see what makes up the entirety of the reality we are living.

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