dreams like oceans.

30 year old who still uses tumblr to quote songs and books. goodreads.com/anaisnoa

[lionfloss]

Svetlana Balyn

[chillinwithmytrauma]

But I knew you'd linger like a tattoo kiss

I knew you'd haunt all of my what-ifs

The smell of smoke would hang around this long

'Cause I knew everything when I was young

[chillinwithmytrauma]

It's still not quite the way it was

But you promised me this is love, so stay

[chillinwithmytrauma]

One night he wakes

Strange look on his face

Pauses, then says

You're my best friend

And you knew what it was

He is in love

[chillinwithmytrauma]

You play stupid games, you win stupid prizes

[chillinwithmytrauma]

Heaven forbid! - That would be the greatest misfortune of all! To find a man agreeable one is determined to hate! - Do not wish me such an evil.

[chillinwithmytrauma]

It's been very rare to have known you, very strange and wonderful.

[chillinwithmytrauma]

Everything matters so much and so little; it is disgusting.

[chillinwithmytrauma]

People think that intimacy is about sex. But

intimacy is about truth. When you realize you

can tell someone your truth, when you can

show yourself to them, when you stand in

front of them bare and their response is

'you're safe with me'- that's intimacy.

[chillinwithmytrauma]

Never let anyone make you feel ordinary.

[chillinwithmytrauma]

I can make everybody hate you almost as much as you hate yourself. But I won’t, ‘cause I know one day it’ll come around, so fuck you for now.

[chillinwithmytrauma]

Does she smile?

Or does she mouth, "Fuck you” forever?

[chillinwithmytrauma]

I'm stuck on a line cause I know what rhymes with blue

[chillinwithmytrauma]

Spending all night and all day trying to say something new

But it's no use

I'm still writing songs about you

[chillinwithmytrauma]

I want auroras and sad prose

I want to watch wisteria grow right over my bare feet

'Cause I haven't moved in years

And I want you right here

[chillinwithmytrauma]

Is it romantic how all my elegies eulogize me?

[chillinwithmytrauma]

When the words of a sister come back in whispers that prove she was not in fact what she seemed, not a twin from your dreams, she's a crook who was caught