I can't stop

thinking about you.

[chilly-anchor-shot]

I've learned a lot from my past and I found the person who loves me not because I have a nice course that is full of knowledge that focus on the brain and mind but loves me because I am me no matter what career I might take. Right now, I'm having a hard time to choose between a master's degree or medicine in the future. I know it's quite early for that but I want to prepare that's just it. Sara, my partner, always reminds me the I should trust any process and one thing that made me believe in love again is that she stayed and keep staying unconditionally. No what ifs nor any double thoughts, she's always sure that she's here to stay because she loves me and that's it. No matter what I've become, she's just here and that's better. Way better. Having her doesn't give me any pressure and doubts with the future 'cause she sure does want to build it with me. I love you so much mi tol bean blow kisser. Cheers for five months to us last 14th ❤️ do well in your art fair internship 😘

[florallpeach]

7/7-7/8

[strange-haze]

[lava-bomb]

[wazte]

[chilly-anchor-shot]

Sara

Meet the girl who made me feel better when I was falling apart from reality. She took care of me while with no hesitation, she loved me before we became a thing, she loves me when we finally started dating and she still loves me better and more than before. She may be stubborn at some time but she taught me how to be patient with her progress of her trying.

She's a genuine person that I finally deserved and now, I don't want to take my progress very slow because I know she deserves me wholeheartedly. She loves me so much. It took me time to progress how she breakdown my walls of insecurities willingly. I wasn't even asking for any help yet she was there holding my hand tightly even I hurt her plenty of time.

Sara,

Thank you for continuing to take care of me. I owe you a lot for helping my progress and holding on to me despite from what I am dealing right now. Thank you for understanding even things get irrational from our fights. Thank you for loving me genuinely and wholeheartedly. Thank you for accepting me.

Thank you for letting me know that I still deserved a person like to love me despite I am fucked up.

Thank you for still seeing the good in me.

Thank you.

I love you so much

I won't let go.

[arquerio]

[vethox]

[moorfields-deactivated20201122]

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[deaddolin]

[daily-rage-comics]

thomas what has happened to u

[30-minute-memes]

Bro love

[naranjamechanica]

[20aliens-deactivated20200625]

Habitats by Wang Yuanling

[vxtacy]

[ d e s i g n ]

[chilly-anchor-shot]

Will it be great if I just take up my own life?

I'm so tired being a mess and a burden to everybody.

[chilly-anchor-shot]

I feel heavy for 4 years

Though every since September it finally tone down little by little.

Do I deserved to be happy? That's the best question I could ever ask to myself every single day. The paper cutter is so near to my bed, i tend to look at it every morning because that's when my depression hits me way too hard.

I wanted to feel pain again

I wanted to let blood drip from my wrist

But

It's pointless to end my life now

when somebody is already trying to be there for you and finally accepted who you were and right now.

I looked at my cutter again and there's less pain now.

[fate]

[dankmemesreasonforliving]

[chilly-anchor-shot]

I'm so sad to the point I want to hurt myself to remove the pain. Why am I so consistent with this? Feels like I don't deserved happiness anymore.