[contechristino]

All the Cameos in “FEELS LIKE SUMMER” Music Video by Childish Gambino.

[mullsteiger-deactivated20180112]

[realdreamers]

[wavyier]

follow sensei-zay x

[rubyandmoon-blog]

[contrast]

[chinkylisaa]

I’m back and I’m better

[kissjaycouture]

[wavyier]

follow sensei-zay x

[spanking-me]

[wavyier]

follow sensei-zay x

[slightlydrunkalwaysawkward]

I miss him the most when the days are too warm. Where crickets sing me to sleep and I remember how it felt to hear him laugh. Tonight is one of those nights. He tasted like milk and honey with caramel skin stretched over bones, and muscles, and love. I wanted to tell him I hated him that night, but he smiled and all the darkness that seeped its way into my brain evaporated. I hope he’s happy, actually; I know he’s happy. And I think that makes the ache in my chest throb a little tighter.

[coral]

“Loneliness is a sign you are in desperate need of yourself.”

—

Rupi Kaur

(via ignorance)

[danger]

[trefoiled-deactivated20260516]

[flunkerlux]

[chinkylisaa]

I’m finally home.

It feels weird.

Usually I would be out rn hanging out with you because we just missed each other oh so much. But maybe that was just me and me forcing this thing to work out. I can not stop thinking about it. I want to distract myself with Riverdale but I can’t even do that. I really wish we could go back to the way thing were, but I can’t force your feelings to change and you don’t want it so why even bother.

You don’t care. You don’t care. You don’t care. You honestly could careless about my life. Care about my well being. You don’t. And I need to remember that. Cause you are honestly living your best life without me.

Help. I’m honestly dying.

[chinkylisaa]

Anymore

I have been feeling empty, like something has been missing in my body, and I don’t know why. 

Maybe it’s the anxious deal that I have to go back and you’re gonna be there. There’s a chance that I’ll see you at work, but remember I’m suppose to look at this summer as a different outlet. Outlet full of adventures and fulfilling me. 

You finally unfollowed my sinsta. You’re gone. Out of my life. But yet guess who still watches my stories? You. And guess now started using Instagram as their story? You. An outlet to find new people huh? It’s pretty obvious you’re ready to look for someone new. Needing new attention so you use instagram making you life looking cool af. I hope you know you losing all elastics on that story. 

He’s moving on Alissa, he don’t want you in your life. He’s not coming back stop hoping and wishing something is gonna come out of it. And if he does come back we can’t. We really can’t. We can’t risk what has been done already twice. You already gave them their chance. You don’t need to get into this cycle of loving in the summer then coming back to school crying. You are already going crazy with your grades right now. This break up is crushing you and you don’t need someone’s fake love to drag you on like this. 

As much as you love and care for this person it’s not working out. Remember nobody gets with their first love. He was yours, but who knows what he thinks of you. But who cares? It shouldn’t matter anyway. You did his damage and we don’t need more. I hate the fact that I can’t hate you. You were my everything. My eyes are being damaged because of this bullshit. I got baggy ass bags. UGH. And of course you posting how great your life is, is just a show. A show that shouldn’t bother me but it does. 

When will this moment in time go away. I know I have priorities. The things I think are moving on. But here I am still missing you. And I even looked at your following again and of course I see women with great bodies and models that you probably jack off to. I remember I saw it on your instagram and you slide up real quick. I literally have no words. You would even get mad at me for “going” through your phone. Were you hiding something from the start? 

[chinkylisaa]

Why did I lose myself in you?

I was cleaning up my bag full of receipts that I took out of my wallet and I found $359 gone. Gone and onto your wrist that I hope you wear for a while. I wonder if it makes you think of me or not even until someone actually asks you about it but I doubt it. 

I remember I worked my ass off to save money that season. To make all your wishes comes true. I did spoil myself slightly. I spent $200 on myself then ended returning everything back. And the one thing I couldn’t return was your watch. It was done it was bought a material that cost so much to us when really money is an idea that we created with worth. 

Everyone keeps telling me to take it back but I can’t. I really can’t. It’s not that I don’t have the guts to ask you for it back but it doesn’t even feel right to take it back. What am I going to do? Put it on my wrist? It would feel too wrong for me to do that. Maybe I’m just too nice? But a gift is a gift. 

At that very moment in time, I worked my booty off to save money and made the fullest experience giving you that gift. It felt so good to see how happy and excited you were. And you didn’t even want to take it off. You take it with you every where and I remember you would show it off to me and you even told me yourself “I haven’t take it off ever since.” Isn’t it so sad how materials can mean so much to us or maybe that’s just me. 

That watch has a lot of meaning and I am pretty sure with your cautious ass you wouldn’t ruin it. It’s the one item I gave that I hope you never take away from yourself. I lost myself buying you it but even when I think of taking it back it hurts even more. Sometimes I do wonder what you’ve done with all the shit I gave you. But maybe it was a good thing I have majority of the stuff and you only have a few selective. 

Everything that I have of yours is kept in a box because I couldn’t look at it myself. Isn’t it crazy I kept all those shirts, cards, pictures, and everything yet you just have an apple watch, my picture globe, and the $50 you owe me. And I have that sweater you always wanted back. And even if I were to send it back I don’t even know if it was right to give it back. 

There’s so many questions and methods with no true answer so why not just be neutral and keep it where it is. 

[woahdudenode]