RANT! Gara2 habis buka2 IG Sebel banget gara2 Sekelompok manusia bermarga Kardashian itu sekarang bibir cewek ngetren banget di blobor2in lipsticknya. Plis girls, gak semua cocok. Kalo salah lu jadi kaya waria habis digangbang. (((Language!))) Just follow your lip line. That's safe & naturally beautiful. Lipstick warna aneh macem ungu, maroon rada coklat, biru rada ungu, merah tapi ungu itu juga. Gak masuk di kebanyakan kulit Indo yang sawo matang (bersyukurlah kalo elu putih, mungkin cocok. Mungkin.) Habis ini yg mau diikutin apa lagi? Suntik bibir? Foto telenji? Zzz risih --" ā Read on Path.
I know many of us are struggling to fit into our society. Many of us tried so hard which then kill our true habit, personality, and even identity, or we can keep our weirdness and being bullied.
Yes, what the hell is going on with people and our society?
There was a really sad experience. When I was a kid, my mom and I went to her friendās house and there was boy namedā¦. letās call him Anwar who went to the same school with me. My mom asked me, āso you know Anwar?ā I said, āYea we go to the same school, but different class.ā Then my mom asked Anwar, āDo you guys get along and play together?ā Then Anwar answered, āNo. Iām not playing with him. Heās weirdā and then, there was a few seconds of awkward silence.
Yeahā¦ā¦
Back then when was in school, I feel like I couldnāt totally fit in with my friends. I used to have asthma, which really limit my physical ability. I couldnāt play soccer, run, or any sports which require me to run and get sweaty. Once I force myself to do that, I started to get cough which then leads to asthma.
When we were a kid, of course my friend would not care. They will just call me weak, and useless (to play the game, because most of boysā game require you to RUN).
Years pass, on junior high school during my senior year there was a sport exam for all students. You had to pass it to graduate. At That time, one of the sport being examined was swimming, and I could not swim AT ALL. Knowing that, I had swimming lesson almost every day for approximately a month. Surprisingly, I really like swimming and I managed to master all the 4 stiles (free style, frog style, butterfly (?) style, swimming backwards) and other silly style such as swimming like a dog.
After a month intensive swimming lesson, it really opened many opportunity. I never have asthma since then, I could run really fast, and I end up number 1 for sprint and relay race. But friends are still mocking me because I donāt know, was it so wrong that I suddenly could ran fast?
Senior high school was quite stressful, especially on senior year. My friends are really competing to get good mark so we can go to good public university. Meanwhile I was kind of guy who, āok letās study but you guys need to chill, enjoy your life, we will pass final exam anyway.ā
Thatās right, since the beginning of senior year, I had a thinking that I have to go to Jakarta to continue my study in university, I have to go abroad to continue my study. That lead me to apply in Binus University International (which is really expensive btw, what was Iām thinking? Lol). So, I applied, I got accepted on May which is WAY before my final exam & graduation. Knowing this my friends was quite pissed. Sometimes there were one or two friends who didnāt want to share the cheat shit. JUST BECAUSE, āyou have already accepted, why should I pass the sheet to you.ā
But.. What? Why? Unbelievable.
Going to Binus. Was a really mind blowing experience. I was like, āHOLY SHIT THIS IS MY PLACE!ā Throwing myself into an international environment really open my eyes. People are diverse, from ethnicity, background, their habits, hobby, interest, and anything.
There was anime lovers (considered weird in Solo) ā NOT ANYMORE
There was Korean lovers (considered weird in Solo) ā NOT ANYMORE
There were emo guys who silently hurting themself during lunch break (doesnāt exist in Solo) ā NICE TO MEET YOU!
Chinese, Korean, Indian, Russian, German people ā NICE TO MEET YOU ALL!
It was when I realize. When you get into a place full of diversity and weirdness. Suddenly you are not weird anymore. I was able to be myself, enjoy my interest, I could present myself and my ability to the public, I was suddenly feeling smart. Yes, I could understand whatever the Lecturer taught me easily. I was able to meet amazing (and weird) people, and be a part of many cool events.
Life is suddenly awesome.
Now I wonder, what I would be if I stayed in Solo, or at least stuck with my old friends. Not saying that they are bad people, we are still friends and hangout together. Somehow, I believe I will not not be in this point if I did not push myself to the limit, to get out from my comfort zone in Solo.
"Hush, don't speak. When you spit your venom, keep it shut I hate it. When you hiss and preach about your new Messiah 'cause your theories catch fire. I can't find your silver lining, I don't mean to judge. But when you tell your speech, it's tiring. Enough is enough" š¶šµš¼ ā View on Path.
Sharbat Gula - an iraqi girl, once famous to become one of National Geographic Cover. Usually I am not interested in drawing woman with veil/hijab b'cos... Err... I like woman's hair. But in this picture I have a message with recent Paris Terrorism issue. For those who are blaming moslem for the terrorism, know that... I don't believe those terrorist know & understand the deep meaning of Quran. My religion, Islam, never teach to harm/kill innocent people. Even some Moslems are living the fear of terror, right now, on the other part of the world. "And do not kill a soul that Allah has forbidden (to be killed) except by (legal) right" - Al-An'Am:151
Kaguya hime amazed by blooming cherry blossom. KEMUDIAN GUENYA PINGSAN CAPEK INI UKURAN KERTAS A3 -____- (watercolor, color pencil, & *short of* copic) ā View on Path.
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