novacane

[choisaems]

hi everyone! i'm mars (he/they), and this is one out of two of my muses that i've brought to itaewonsthq. i'm so excited for the opening and to plot with you all!!! i have a discord available upon request, otherwise please like this and i'll send you a message so we can get started plotting. under the cut will be more info about saem otherwise you can read his stats/bio here.

saem is 26 and lives in apartment 1011

he's a dad but he hasn't seen his daughter in probably three years

he was born in new york city and lived in japan for a few years before coming to korea to become an idol

tw anorexia / sad fact is he never became an idol though because he developed a pretty bad ed and panic disorder and was unable to continue his training (even though he was really close to debut) / tw end

not only was it crushing to have all his hard work seemingly wasted but the main reason he really joined an entertainment company was to get away from his parents

so when he quit he had to fly back to america to live with them which kind of sent him into a deeper spiral of messy emotions

this is when he was nagged to go to school so he went to brown and studied literature for about a year and a half before he dropped out which is when he met his daughter's mother

they were in a pretty bad relationship for awhile so they decided it would be best to split up and things were on relatively good terms until she started keeping their daughter away from him (ie. making excuses as to why she couldn't visit him, etc)

eventually he kind of gave up, not because he doesn't love his daughter but because he felt that she'd be better off without him in some way and would have felt really guilty for putting her in a custody battle

he ended up moving back to korea about two years ago and started working on his own music and producing/songwriting

he now works mainly as a producer for underground artists around itaewon and has made a pretty good name and reputation in the area

saem is a really loyal and hard working person but he puts a lot of pressure on himself to be what he considers a good person so he tends to shut himself away when he thinks he needs to because he tends to feel like a burden a lot

he's pretty friendly otherwise, just a bit shy and awkward !!!

smokes like a chimney, spends a lot of time inside

has cats to cope with his depression

writes a lot of sad music

sometimes gets out to go to a dance studio and practice or to shows to meet his friends

[choisaems]

be it influence from his father, saem has always loved film. especially foreign and independent films, so when the film festival makes its annual return, he's more than excited to go. he pulls bom with him because he needs a friend in order to not feel like an absolute loner in the theater. plus bom is nice and friendly enough to share his burden of enthusiasm, not make him feel silly because of it.

"thanks for coming with me," he says. "i know this is kind of the like... less appreciated part of pride but i really enjoy it." saem holds on to the movie tickets, his face in a small smile. "maybe we can get dinner afterward or something. or... whatever you want to do," he says with a hint of saem awkwardness.

"it's nice to know my dad's movies will never be shown here. he's independent but he's... well let's just say he's pretty conservative," saem laughs. "anyways i don't have to worry about seeing his name in a preview or something."

@bomsfm

[choisaems]

saem can't deny it's been a long time since he's been in this position, with the same girl he was with the night before. after awhile it became faceless individuals, strings of numbers in the garbage, empty bedsheets still somewhat warm. but here, suyeon stays, warming by the sun like a cat and it's different this time because they're somewhat friends and this has become somewhat of a habit, a dangerous one.

he brushes a strand of hair from her face after leaning up on his elbow to look at her for a few moments. she truly is beautiful and it's truly a discomforting feeling. saem pulls his hand away but he smiles when he sees she's finally awake. "do you want to go get breakfast?" he wonders. "my treat of course. we can go to this place nearby, they have the best american style breakfast foods, if you want."

"only if you want though," he says softly, reluctantly, hoping to sound reassuring.

@laluncs

[choisaems]

saem finds comfort in routines. there's beauty in creating order in chaos, which is what it feels like when he meets madison in a cafe. here he not only finds sameness in their time together but understanding on a different level. she's become something like a little sister, or what he assumes to be like a brother sister relationship, since he has nothing to compare it too.

he takes a sip of whatever fruit drink he's ordered, an attempt to kick caffeine somewhat from his afternoons. "how do you think you'd be different if you never were a trainee?" he wonders, looking a little dramatically out the window as he thinks for a few seconds. "sometimes i think i'd be a little less socially awkward." he means to say he might be able eat in public but he doesn't go there yet.

"anyways, how are you?" he wonders. "what have you been up to these days?"

@mvisonn

[choisaems]

i'm getting to starters and replies today, but like this if you'd like something from saem!

[choisaems]

hi everyone! i'm mars (he/they), and this is one out of two of my muses that i've brought to itaewonsthq. i'm so excited for the opening and to plot with you all!!! i have a discord available upon request, otherwise please like this and i'll send you a message so we can get started plotting. under the cut will be more info about saem otherwise you can read his stats/bio here.

saem is 26 and lives in apartment 1011

he's a dad but he hasn't seen his daughter in probably three years

he was born in new york city and lived in japan for a few years before coming to korea to become an idol

tw anorexia / sad fact is he never became an idol though because he developed a pretty bad ed and panic disorder and was unable to continue his training (even though he was really close to debut) / tw end

not only was it crushing to have all his hard work seemingly wasted but the main reason he really joined an entertainment company was to get away from his parents

so when he quit he had to fly back to america to live with them which kind of sent him into a deeper spiral of messy emotions

this is when he was nagged to go to school so he went to brown and studied literature for about a year and a half before he dropped out which is when he met his daughter's mother

they were in a pretty bad relationship for awhile so they decided it would be best to split up and things were on relatively good terms until she started keeping their daughter away from him (ie. making excuses as to why she couldn't visit him, etc)

eventually he kind of gave up, not because he doesn't love his daughter but because he felt that she'd be better off without him in some way and would have felt really guilty for putting her in a custody battle

he ended up moving back to korea about two years ago and started working on his own music and producing/songwriting

he now works mainly as a producer for underground artists around itaewon and has made a pretty good name and reputation in the area

saem is a really loyal and hard working person but he puts a lot of pressure on himself to be what he considers a good person so he tends to shut himself away when he thinks he needs to because he tends to feel like a burden a lot

he's pretty friendly otherwise, just a bit shy and awkward !!!

smokes like a chimney, spends a lot of time inside

has cats to cope with his depression

writes a lot of sad music

sometimes gets out to go to a dance studio and practice or to shows to meet his friends

[kangyeosaang]

GOT7 DYEARY EP.05