this blog is my emotional dumping ground

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sometimes it feels like im back home and its scary. sometimes when i crash out i happen to be listening to loud ass music.

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incredibly telling that i saw nothing but praise for the amazing digital circus until the audience got tricked into caring about a trans woman.

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sometimes it feels like im back home and its scary. sometimes when i crash out i happen to be listening to loud ass music.

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"this new palworld 1.0 pal-" i dont!! give a shit!!! about palworld!!! agggh!!!!

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incredibly telling that i saw nothing but praise for the amazing digital circus until the audience got tricked into caring about a trans woman.

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argggh matey what if I KILLED you

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So

Im curious

How are you disabled?

Im colorblind and have the tism,which is technically a disability.

physically? i have POTS, which is why I walk with a crutch. i probably also have a number of other things.

mentally? a whole ton of reasons tbh. first ones that come to mind are being autistic and dyslexic. the dyslexia really kicked my ass in my GED program and I only found out I was dyslexic long after I passed it.

[rabbitkinglune777]

hey since my Kofi is back up, I need some help since I paid some pretty big bills and groceries, I need to save up to help support me and my sisters while also getting small stuff for myself (which is done after bills are paid)

thank you, sorry I ask so much 😭😭😭 living is so hard these days

[rabbitkinglune777]

if you like my art here's my link to support me! meow ^⁠_⁠^

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sometimes it feels like im back home and its scary. sometimes when i crash out i happen to be listening to loud ass music.

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called an "it" for being trans and queer, called an "it" for being disabled. no matter what we do, we'll always be creepy and scary and gross to people who lack any form of decency or kindness.

and you know what? good. they SHOULD be afraid. part of my intent behind using it/its for myself IS reclamation. people who would call us "it" out of anger or fear deserve to have that (and all) power over us stripped away.

its not just the pronouns for me either, it's the imagery. they want to think of me as something to be feared? ok, i'll fuckin be one! whatever i like halloween bullshit anyway. this just gives me an excuse to indulge in a creepy aesthetic more.

additionally, YOUR comfort does not dictate what pronouns OTHER PEOPLE can use. I've been called he and they in derogatory ways, but you sure as shit don't see me telling others they can't use those pronouns. it/it's isn't any different.

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265 shows and 739 movies and nothin on. unlimited games but no games.

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i dont know who i am some days

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i tried REALLY fucking hard with this one.

im pretty proud of it.

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haha funny relatable comic about my voice slipping

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bit late with this years pride month post but i still did it.

this isnt a joke about the fact im a system.

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at the time of drawing this comic, its one day after i saw the digital circus movie in theaters. (not pictured is my family who saw it with me)

and like. summin about something so culturally recognizable, something with a sea of merchandise and a restaurant and a fan base of all ages and backgrounds, something so loved by so many, not only is it indie, but made by a trans woman and with such blatant and real trans feminine representation IN MOVIE THEATERS AS A CULTURAL PHENOMENON in a time where trans people are public enemy #1.

a trans woman who posts her art on tumblr got here. im also a trans woman who posts her art on tumblr. maybe i could get there too. and knowing how many kids were in the audience, i hope and pray the trans kids who dont know it or are scared see themselves represented too, and i hope this movie helps them realize its ok to be you, its ok to be trans.

additionally, i like dressin up a lil when i go out with my family to a movie. i dressed with a pomni inspired look. and before i got my crutch, i didnt think anything of it. but walking into the theater with my crutch, i worried people would be like "i dont get it, are you disabled pomni?", but then pomni had to use a crutch in the movie. not only seeing myself represented behind the scenes for this film, but seeing myself represented in the film itself in a number of ways.

TL;DR it all just made me really happy. and i think this once in a lifetime movie event is incredibly historically important not just for indie animation as a whole, but for the transgender representation it showcases in a number of ways.

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this was supposed to be a small, low effort funny gag but im actually pretty proud of it.