The Silver King

✖️✖️(IG:@Chrome.bunny)✖️✖️

[masumiogawa]

[so1987-deactivated20230102]

if someone liked me back i would kill them

[chromebunny]

Month and a half of recovery

I reached above my head easily for the first time today. I had to grab something at work on a shelf far above my five foot stature and I was too embarrassed to ask the guy next to me to grab it for me. I gritted my teeth and just stood on my tiptoes, stretched my arms farther than I have for a month leaning forward and...grabbed it. No pain, my scars didn’t scream...I just grabbed it. I excitedly looked at my coworker and he just seemed confused but something like that after a month and some change was GREAT.

I am already walking lots without my surgical binder, jogging lightly, stretching even. I already can’t imagine the life I had before this. All the discomfort of recovery is slowly slipping behind me, my comfort is bringing my personality back and I’m beginning to feel...normal.

As for my specific surgical results I’m incredibly pleased, my scars are fairly small which is surprising as I pushed myself often and thought I did too much initially. I’m a little confused why there’s random fat pockets under where my boobs used to be (see pic I guess) They weren’t there before surgery and are honestly really awkward especially when I’m standing, sometimes it looks like little fatty boobs under where my boobs used to be but I’m honestly chalking it up to me being dangerously obese so I’m assuming aesthetics will be a little wonky for me.

I really wanna get rid of them though (I should be losing weight so I’m not in the danger zone anyways) I find myself feeling like they’re their own boobies and getting dysphoric randomly but thankfully I wear waist trainers so I can usually pull it over them and it’s fine but still obviously I don’t want them they suck.

These are all tiny complaints though, this life is a billion times better than the one I was living, I honestly don’t know how I had the strength to keep going. I’m so glad I kept going.

[mangafascination]

[chromebunny]

Day five of recovery

I’m so incredibly uncomfortable, I’m still not allowed to take my T so it’s now been 4 weeks with no T. Coupled with the sudden loss of so much weight on my chest and loss of the hormones they produced I feel absolutely insane and empty and scared. The binder Dr Jenq is having me wear is cutting so deeply into my pit fat lipo spots 😭I seriously can’t do much but float from room to room hoping I’ll get tired again so I can sleep another few hours away. I’m supposed to be able to do basic tasks at this point but I can’t? My whole torso feels tingly and I know some of it is psychological but I’m so anxious like my skin is made of worms. I sneezed and it like hurts...INSIDE my chest? I’ve just been rewatching the same Drew Gooden, Cody ko, and Danny Gonzales videos over and over to try and feel normal.

My appetite sucks. I really wanted to feel hungry so I was stupid and ordered $15 pasta on DoorDash but only ate a few bites. It sits in my fridge mocking me.

I keep drifting past mirrors and beginning to cry. I’m wearing a loose shirt I often wore comfortably around the house when I had tits and now it sits so beautifully flat on me in a way Ive never even seen or been able to simulate with multiple binders or punching my chest with my fists. I’ve just never seen this on me.

I want this recovery to be over I don’t regret the surgery but jfc I feel like I’m not cut out for taking it easy or just waiting. My ADHD anxious ass can’t take this much longer. Maybe I’ll sleep again.

[chromebunny]

I’m so excited to start living life the way I’ve always wanted

[chromebunny]

Super swollen and uncomfortable under the surgical binder as I just had the big chop yesterday so the idea that I’ll get even flatter is CRAZY to me (I was around a hefty G cup, doc estimates they took off around 4 pounds maybe I’ll post before and after pics once I’m healed up)

So happy I can’t even fathom I’m looking at myself yet but also I’m excited to lay comfortably after this heals 😭😭😭😭

Dr. Jenq in Oregon opts for no drains and tbh I’m so thankful for that

[satyriconmp3]

actually being out in public is like i am normal i am off-putting everyone is in love with me i am invisible i am going to die alone wow we are a community peace and love on planet earth i am going to get mugged etc.

[sa-dnesss]

[oceanchemgirl]

A thousand million Trillian times over

[starei]

*drinking a gigantic cup of iced coffee on an empty stomach* i wonder if anyone's ever yearned for me

[chromebunny]

Bad acne 😭😭😭

[chromebunny]

I’ve been wearing a binder my whole life, so why is it now the thought of wearing it every day makes me want to end it all.

My top surgery is scheduled for July 8th, I think I can make it until then. I’m just now breaking down and showing how much this has been hurting me. My ribs are bending. It’s hard to breathe. So dumb lmao.

But I’m so hopeful for the future, I’m so incredibly excited to be physically comfortable ✨✨✨✨✨✨

[butterflypeaflowertea]

i am a serene and lovely person. yes absolutely everything bothers me & i go through life in a state of constant aggravation and annoyance & have to physically restrain myself from breaking down in tears over how utterly irritated i am sometimes. but i am serene and lovely nonetheless

[chromebunny]

🖤I could be pretty some day✨

[chromebunny]

[chromebunny]

🤍🤎💝Take a sip💝🤎🤍

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Man, Corrine is so much taller than I am poor thing had to squat so low.

[chromebunny]

💝🤍🤎💝