[chronically-steph]

I feel so disgusting. I wore myself super thin these past few days. Time to curl into a ball and hibernate for days.

[yikesabbee]

life with a chronic illness:

[chronically-steph]

Today really took a lot out of me; But on that note, it was 10000000000% worth it. I haven't left the house in about a week and was starting to go stir crazy lol. It was nice to spend the day with my love, just the two of us. Today was painful, but good.

[chronically-steph]

This past week or so I've been so out of it. Like things just haven't been right. Can only go up from here at least.

[chronically-steph]

I was doing good with the pain for a few days, it really seemed to be dying down. But then yesterday it came back, and today seems to be like another bad day for the pain. I just gotta get through till 3:30. 3:30 and then I can go home.

[chronically-steph]

I hate that I'm still awake and I have to go to work in 2 hours. Meh. Just tomorrow and then I'm off for two days. Simple enough.

[chronically-steph]

Blah. I feel so crappy this morning, but I gotta get back into that work life. I can pull through this, I just wish it didn't mean getting up at 4am every morning.

[chronically-steph]

So I’ve lost close to 25 pounds in the last three months, which I should be celebrating- except I haven’t been treating my body right. I don’t eat as much as I used to, but I eat like complete shit. And I don’t work out. And this actually kind of scares me because I’m nervous it might be a health concern.

[chronically-steph]

ER adventures

So for the last week and a half I’ve been dealing with these pelvic pains/cramps. I am no stranger to these pains, but usually I can handle them with a bit of tea, Advil, and sleep. This was soooooo much different this time around. 

At like day eight of the pain, it got to the point where I was limping from the pain and after a day out with friends (hey, I know most prefer to stay in bed and might judge me for going out while feeling so crappy, but being out in public forces me to look like I have my shit together lol); when I got home though I ended up collapsing from the pain.

Long story short, ended up in ER for six hours, got some anti-inflammatory med, Gravol, and Morphine through IV. Also got an ultrasound done that showed that there’s basically nothing wrong with me. Fun.

My family doctor thinks it might be Endometriosis and is in the process of referring me to a specialist to be diagnosed and treated. Who knows how long that’ll take.