Another whine.
Tired is staying up too late last night and now you’re not feeling tip top.
I am not just tired.
What I feel is constant. It doesn’t matter how much sleep I do or do not get. I would still fall asleep every lecture (thanks to those who would be on guard and wake my ass up). I still can fall asleep pretty much anywhere as long as I has some semblance of comfort. I’ve caught ten minute naps on benches, study rooms, and computer labs on my university. I have fallen asleep within moment of walking into my apartment and then laying on the floor. My roommate eventually woke me up so I could relocate. I don’t know what to do anymore.
Dietary changes haven’t helped much. Intense exercise does not work. I go on walks and hikes, but if I overdo myself, I pay for it the next couple days with post exertional malaise and pain.
Caffeine does not work. Provigil does not work. Ritalin does not work. Adderall does not work. Adderall ER does not work. I am exhausted. All the time.
Maybe the Kennedy Krieger Institute will have some answers for me. But honestly I don’t know. What can they tell me that I don’t already know?
Whether they switch my diagnossi from CFS to mitochondial disease, what will that change for me? Honestly, nothing.
I’m still exhausted. I am still in pain. My dad is still dead of mysterious reasons.
Honestly this blog has turned purely into a complaint blog, and I don’t care. Its an outlet.












