Alyssa & co.

Blog dedicated to our DID system :)

[threedollarsdotcom]

are you more doomed than a fifth grader

[gothextramiles]

Playing a really fun game called "is it a fictive or did I subconsciously just think this character would be a silly voice to think in right now?"

I am ignoring the fact that I can continue to hear him talking behind me right now. La la la I can't hear you. I was just being silly haha. 🫪🫪🫪

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[chronicallydisordered]

Yeah being a system is generally pretty awful and miserable so why do I find comfort in it :')

[chronicallydisordered]

Sometimes we have to remind ourselves we are an officially diagnosed DID system because we have fought for years to get a real diagnosis and to not only be like unofficially recognized as a DID system yknow??

Like. It is so nice to finally have that. I dont even know how to explain it because I dont even have the words to explain why it was so important to us in the first place

[chronicallydisordered]

Have any bigger systems played the new tomodachi game and put their alters in it yet

[irl-mothmanxp]

Things you DONT need to worry about with a system friend:

Super evil alter

Things you DO need to worry about:

The alter that’s stays up till 4am

The alter that has to deal with it in the morning

The alter that won’t eat anything

[chronicallydisordered]

System who just got diagnosed with a brain tumor theres a joke in there somewhere

[erraticanchorforest]

Can we please reclaim the term plural? I need to call myself what I am. It isn't right that I am discouraged against calling myself exactly what I am because a group of ableists decided they were more important than disabled people.

[chronicallydisordered]

Pretty soon afyer syscovery I (host) drew our therapist a picture of what our heafspace looked like (to my knowledge) and now (~3 years later) I redrew it for her and its fascinating to see

It hasnt really changed but its exlanded So Much

[p2wcomputa]

not only is the evil alter trope stupid and bad but it also just doesn't come close to capturing the true horrific realities of being a system, such as one of your headmates being a swiftie

[chronicallydisordered]

I know official diagnosis isnt the end all be all that makes you a system but it always makes us SO happy when our therapist reaffirms our diagnosis :') like yeah! You see us! We DO exist!!

[irreverent-sword]

Physical sensations should be spoken about more in CDD systems. For me, whenever someone co-fronts, I get this pressure in my forehead. I can tell someone is there, I feel it physically. It makes my head crowded.. and it is hell.

There's also the headaches and dizziness that sometimes come with switching, the feeling like you're slowly being dragged away as more hours pass, it makes me want to take a nap right then and there.

[chronicallydisordered]

We experience headaches that are specific in one area depending on the alter! This is usually when co-con or from some sort of strong passive influence is coming from them. With this usually comes some frequent dizzy spells too :/

When our gatekweper yoinks me out of front it also sonetimes feels like a mii character being moved around and we physically feel like we are floating for a while.

[space-yaps]

Hey, to my big scary protectors out there

Crying doesn't make you weak

Showing emotion doesn't make you weak

Allowing yourself to rely on others doesn't make you weak

[chronicallydisordered]

How do you guys know when youve split after recent stress/trauma??? I think we have, but I have no memory of this ever happening before so I don't actually know how to be sure 🙃

[the-eternal-system]

I be catching strays from my therapist these days. Man calling my ass out for our unhealthy behavior left and right. We can't simply exist anymore. Man is gonna make sure we get therapised.

[thearcanon]

sys culture is thinking about The Great Memory Gap a little too much and connecting a few too many dots and feeling The Presence staring at you like theyve been sent to repossess your car (front)

[chronicallydisordered]

Have any other systems gone through a new trauma (after system discovery) and it feels like your brain is trying to make you unaware of your system again?? Is that actually a thing?

Like we have worked really hard over the last few years to build a stable sense of communication between all of us and thats kind of just.... gone at the moment. I can not communicate with anyone and our switches are definitely more frequent because we have significantly more memory gaps than usual but I also can not tell really At All when we have switched despite usually having Some idea of that happening??

Our switches were usually pretty smooth transitions (I mean this in the sense of I switch in and have enough memory of the immediate couple moments before to continue what we were doing/saying) but now we are full pausing and forgetting again.

It feels like years of work are just gone now.