"youre not complaining because you must get used to the pain"
i get used to the feeling of getting stabbed, the very second i open my eyes
i get used the nights where i dont sleep due to pain and the days where i cant even shower or move because i have literally no energy left, cause i wasted it all fighting pain
i get used to taking pills just to function, and being disgusted with food because the pain makes me lose my appetite
i get used to people not believing me, calling me lazy, comparing themselves to me, using me as some form of life lesson or worse, someone they can look at with pity or be able to say “at least i am not them”.
i get used to people saying how strong i must be since i never complain or talk about my pain, but they dont know why i dont complain about it.
i am strong, not because i dont complain about my pain, but because ive learn to stop crying over the life i could’ve had and smile at the life i do have.
i have learned that complaining only helps so much, ive learned to make a bright side to things even if there isnt much to work with.
but i wish, instead of people asking me if im used to it, they asked me how i got used to it, how i learned to stop crying over what i have unfairly lost.
i wish, instead of people just telling me i am strong, they would ask me how i got so strong.
i wish people could see everything i have to put up with, every second of everyday,
because i want them to see that and say “they shouldnt have to get used to this.”
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