joey

quiet little bean. sometimes i write poems if i’m feeling up to it

[chrysanthebug]

Editing your work is like eating alphabet soup. By the end you might be left with a few letters at the bottom of the bowl, but not nearly as many as you started with.

[chrysanthebug]

I miss when i used to draw. I wish I hadn’t stopped but it’s been like 9 years. I also haven’t danced in like 3 years. It’s like all of my creativity has slowly been dying. it’s fucking sad.

[chrysanthebug]

If I think about it too hard, I could be tired of today for the next 72 years.

[imgladyourehereholdme]

a nice morning can be twenty hours long, if you need

[unholyblissafterdark]

Bullshit….twenty four hours long

[kanaaaaaeeee]

Let's make it 48

[chrysanthebug]

5-7 business days

[chrysanthebug]

I feel almost

almost happy

but not quite

almost ready

almost stable

almost satisfied

almost warm

almost healthy

but not quite

almost’s only saving grace is

that when I feel almost miserable

almost desperate for this to end

it’s not quite

just almost.

[chrysanthebug]

why is it that the longer you sit with something you wrote, the more you hate it? There should be a limit to the amount of time you are allowed to read your own work.

really, how does anyone get things published?

[chrysanthebug]

the anger and grief i feel rages

it’s throws vases, flips tables, and lights it all on fire

but it happens in my chest, my lungs

it grips my throat

it is violent

but only to me

[chrysanthebug]

i’ve been chanting

whispering a prayer

someday i’ll shake off the dead weight

since i was 16

18

19

23

for different reasons

at times naively or selfishly

i cried it again today

because someday i will