CHUNSA CREATION

[mynameis-gloria]

Scultura di Andrea Salvatori

[luthienne]

Danusha Laméris, Bonfire Opera: Poems

[chunsacreation]

Dieses Jahr wollte ich mich mehr auf mich fokussieren und lernen mich wieder mehr zu lieben. Ich habe mich verloren gefühlt und war nicht mehr ich selbst. Aber ich hätte nicht gedacht, dass sich so viel verändern wird. Ich habe mich von vielen Menschen entfernt. Ich habe viel Zeit alleine verbracht und manchmal fühlt es sich immer noch etwas befremdlich an. Ich bin immernoch Lost und weiß nicht wohin mit mir. Aber das ist okay. Ich habe gelernt, dass ich einfach selbst akzeptieren muss. Dass ich genug bin. Das ist nicht immer begründen muss und meine Gefühle gerechtfertigt sind. Ich bin noch am heilen .. manchmal fühlt es sich an als wäre ich über den Berg und manchmal befinde ich mich wieder in diesen tiefen dunklen Loch. Doch es wird vorüber gehen. Das weis ich nämlich auch.

Sei nicht so hart zu dir.

[chunsacreation]

It's been over 3 months now. 3 months full of tears, anxieties, deep thoughts, wine, joy .. a rollercoaster of emotions.

You hurt me... a lot... to a point that I got immediately a anxiety attack as soon as I saw your number on my phone. You've been by my side since almost 10 years as a friend and 6 years as my first love. You didn't just broke my heart, you completely broke me. I'm broken inside. Trying to keep up a strong facade. Trying to be okay. Trying to keep on living... But as soon I see your number on the phone, everything just falls apart.

I loved you, I truly did. I tried everything. I build us a home but in the end I wasn't enough. We weren't enough. You didn't even tried and blamed me for everything. I know that we were toxic for each other but I thought that we can go though this. But you showed me your true colours and I needed to leave.

I tried to cut everything from our past. I deleted all the pictures. I just want to forget the last 6 years and everything that is related to you. But still I can't processes in my head... Have everything been a lie?

I'm so lost and I don't know how to deal with everything. I just need more time...

[xyoung-lonelyx]

[emilydb]

[prehistoricmancunt]

no offense but i hate myself and hope i die in my sleep 

[depresseddisneyprincess]

how do you tell someone you want to kill yourself without making them worry

[ojibwa]

impulsive thoughts // 7.5.2019

[outcastsuggestion]

it’s easier to say “im tired” than “im so sad and lonely i feel like there’s a weight in my chest and my body is so heavy i have no energy emotionally, physically or mentally to even move from my bed”

[abitofdarkness]

the thing about depression is that you dont feel sad, you feel sick.

sick of life, sick of yourself and sick of everyone and everything around you.

depression, makes you hate everything, it makes you angry. its like being trapped in a place full of drunk people and youre just too sober. its that feeling of being so lost, its heaviness in your chest, its numbness in your heart. and its confusing for your mind.

[dying-human]

oh boy if I accidentally died it would be so cool

[depression-healthy-carrier]

Tell me what I did to deserve this hurt when all I ever did was put everybody first

[depression-healthy-carrier]

I’ve spent most of my life holding my breath and hoping that when people get close enough they won’t leave, and fearing that it’s a matter of time before they figure me out and go.

[depression-healthy-carrier]

I don't think people really understand just how stressful it is to explain what's on your mind, when you don't even understand it yourself

[oaluz]

long term effects of emotional abuse:

a distrust in your perceptions 

a tendency to be fearful or on guard

self-consciousness or fear of how you are coming across

an inability to be spontaneous

a distrust of people and in future relationships

anger that bursts out unexpectedly

sensitivity to anyone trying to control you

[depression-healthy-carrier]

I desperately want to talk to someone about everything but I really don't want to talk to anyone about anything