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[cinderlacuna]

it’s a shame when you actually feel okay but still really want to cvt. Finally home with my friends so life isn’t as horrible but still really want to do it? addiction sucks

[lilithhhm]

i hope one day i’ll finally have the courage to kill myself

[somewherepastokay]

[cinderlacuna]

hate not being home

can’t wait to go home and sl!t my skin open

[cinderlacuna]

Cvt my hip because I need something that won’t show in a bathing suit. It’s so much easier to go d33p. I can’t believe I never tried this before.

I’m on vacation though so it would he really bad if I did too much. Can’t wait to get home and cvt with my good tools.

[itwears-meout]

The urge to slice my fucking neck open.

[riotd]

do you ever get the irresistible urge to bash your head against a brick wall

[cinderlacuna]

this might be dramatic but I’m thinking of checking myself into a mental hospital when I get home from vacation. Idk, I just can’t do this anymore but then again still have some will to live

[cinderlacuna]

on vacation so I ripped apart a shaving r@zor because I just couldn’t take it anymore. I hate my brain so much. I can’t even enjoy life on vacation because I have this intense feeling of dread. Cvting did help a bit though so that’s something. However they look different from how they usually do and it’s worrying me but it’s probably fine 🤷‍♀️

[cinderlacuna]

I don’t think I’m capable of feeling joy anymore. I hate feeling this hopeless. I have this horrible weight on my chest and it’s not going away anytime soon. I hate it. I just want to cvt and can’t even do that right now

[cinderlacuna]

have you ever done something intimate with someone with fresh cvts and they don’t even notice? Oh yeah me neither…

I mean I didn’t want them to ask but also how the fuck did you not notice? And if they did notice but just didn’t say anything why? Do they just not care enough. What the fuck

[cinderlacuna]

shtwt and edtwt

In middle school I was an avid sh and ed twt user. (Pre X) rip twt :(. Anyways, never posted because I didn’t want to get banned but looking back on pics I would’ve been so popular. I actually thought I was so fat and that none of my cvts were d33p enough. But looking back at it I wish I could be more like that now. Went to tumblr because that side of twt doesn’t really exist anymore unfortunately :(

[cinderlacuna]

I think that I’m never going to feel better.

This feeling will never go away. I’ll always have a black hole slowing closing in on me. There will always be a dark haze following me. I will never be able to rid myself of all the things I hate. I will never like who I am. Can’t c^t it out, can’t st@rve it out, can’t cry it out. I will forever be this creature I hate. Infecting everything and everyone with my poison. I must either except this fact or finally work up the courage to ki|| myself

[cinderlacuna]

It’s calling me

“I’m at the edge and I look down. It’s far. It’s calling me” ~Tori Spring

[cinderlacuna]

tori spring again

”I screwed it all up again,

Classic Tori.”

I kin tori so hard

[cinderlacuna]

Tori is me I am Tori

”I haven’t ever known what I wanted out of life.

Until now..

I sort of want to be dead.”

~Tori spring

[cinderlacuna]

Why am I so difficult to love?

“why do you have to be so difficult “ -mom