I need god Not like “invisible man in the sky” God Not like “sitting for hours being told how to think” God Not like “stand in line like the rest” God I need “sitting in the park staring at birds” god like “isn’t this life a trip” god like “this moment right here” god like “chocolate and laughter and orgasm and ocean waves and moments of connection” god Like “billions of years this rock floated in space and here I am” god Like “standing in Rite Aid and this baby looked right at me and just smiled” god Like “look how we survive all the pain and still we heal” god And y'all need to find god If you tear people down If you think I’m going to hell for accepting and loving all the queer butch femme that I am For wanting balance for knowing that restricting myself To fit into a black and white world is no way to live, really live You need to find god if you condemn me For not needing to be commanded to love my neighbor Not like “love the sinner hate the sin” love I love you Like “you have infinite complexity within you” love Like “I hope you find peace of mind” love But you need to find god if you think you’re above anyone Just because your colonized mind tries to manifest destiny into my space Just because you have a story where I came from a man’s rib in a magic garden one day I know a story too where We were once born from primordial waters We were once migrating from the Sahara We were once charting the stars Before the lie that is borders and fences and ownership and greed Before the lie than any one man held the truth, some divine secret As if all that power was for us and not actually to own our devotion Like you’d be rewarded after life if you put up with suffering under their feet instead of questioning that power My problem is not with god, but with man Have your faith if you choose Let me find truth, that’s all I need I get closer to it every day, I search for it breath it in when I can That’s all the god I need
Finding God, Christina O. (via mypoetreeoflife)
