[cinoman]

[cinoman]

my unorganized pins recently

[cinoman]

chess is somewhat erotic

[cinoman]

i can't believe i've cared about so many losers in the past lol i'm very weak hearted

[cinoman]

hunter x hunter is interesting because i just got into it and i didnt know chrollo was from this franchise. the dude doesn’t really do anything substantial (except retroactively agaisnt kurapika’s clan) but he’s one of the most talked about if you’re outside of the fandom. thirst beats all 💦

[cinoman]

i believe i’ve lost my passion for writing

[cinoman]

i feel incredibly lonely nowdays and no matter how many spurts of joy i get i am reminded that life's monotony will never go away. it's always going to be the same shit, everyday.

[cinoman]

for how much technology has completely transformed society i’m suprised so many people think divine machinery is a stupid concept

i recently went to a company site visit for a company who manufactures medical equipment (mostly for dealing with blood). im a CS major so i mostly went for the SWE intern positions being offered, but part of the visit was walking around and looking at workers do their jobs with the machines created and it made me think about how these people’s 9-5s are dedicated to creating/maintaining devices to help people’s livelihoods

there’s something oddly divine about our relationship with technology, we live in a time where people have pace makers programmed in C. technological failures can lead to death. life itself is being determined by technology. to a degree, i think knowing more about technology brings you closer to god

because god is all-knowing, and technology provides innovations to know more beyond the scope of our universe. think about how much engineers and computer scientists work to get the first man to space. technological advancement is a holy pursuit, we’re finding out more about the universe created for us

we’re seeing things like organoid intelligence start to make big strides in directions we never could have imagined—brain powered computers. it’s fucking wacky, but at the same time, you feel reverent.

growing up i was always taught that god wasnt human, he was god. thats why allah is never drawn as a man, but (usually) a light. of course the things most divine on earth would never be human

[cinoman]

insane lines on the portfolio website of a postdoc under my professor for an HCI course

[cinoman]

i’m very disconnected from my body, im realizing this now

[cinoman]

life is starting to feel like i’m a dog in a hot car but i just won’t die

[cinoman]

realizing now that my future oriented thinking is just anxiety spirals

[cinoman]

one of the most attractive things to me is someone who can see straight through me

i grow really infatuated with people who can do that, i think it’s endearing and shows their attention to detail but also their investment in me, also an analytical mind that i want to keep dumping info into so i can see what else it churns out

lol

[cinoman]

it's annoying when your mental has decided someone isn't worth talking to anymore but your heart knows theres still juice to be juiced there

[cinoman]

my reflection on this year is it’s been the worst thing of my entire life

[cinoman]

i have so much going on that my mind is effectively quiet unless it’s churning out suggestions on how to kill myself

lovely

[rozieramati]

[cinoman]

they say your moles are kisses from a past life lover