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self insert blog i guess in this house | i dont rlly care

[citrus-selfinserts]

(f g o jp spoilers incoming)

me when

the love of my life returns from being [redacted] out of the blue last wednesday with no explanation

[citrus-selfinserts]

-throws this at you all and runs away-

treblesal content? in this day and age? yep. more info under cut lol

the joke is since over two years ago in jp game time and even now in the english release sal has been. well now i dont know what people would call it that actually play the game. as a joke (and a jab lol) i always refer to it as "sent to the shadow realm". basically he (and the others) arent dead, but theyre kinda cut off as if they are from the rest of the story. hence the meme (that i make lol). do i like that plot point? heck to the no. not just for oshi reasons. i would not mince language and use much stronger words but -sighs dramatically- what ever. tl dr i dont hecking care abt that plot mostly and it def makes treblesal more bittersweet.

more on that i guess its interesting? yeah it does feel bittersweet. i honestly go back and forth in feelings tbh, sometimes i feel like more jilted-lover flavor, sometimes more "why did i give my heart to you only for it not to mean anything" or "you left me for another". but honestly none of those really stick in meaning. in feeling, yeah a bit, but not in the actual truth of the matter. its way weirder. honestly i cant think of a single other situation that reminds me of what happened. even in my multitude of new interests (coughs several times, shoots a look at the ever growing pile of classic films that are living rent free in my head, most of them uni versal horror)

anyways a very different film took my attention today, that being this year's conan! if anything brings me back its that. conan has always been mine and sal's thing. when i first met sal in game eight years ago, i was watching so much conan. and then when he had that movie event in like 2019 or whenver (i guess it wouldve been 2021 in the english version?) his ending was literally the moonlight sonata episode (or the movie hangover square, which i recent ish ly saw, thanks ricky kreiburg!). and even now. honestly im not much of a ghibli hug person but give me a freakin conan movie one love interest catching the other in their arms from an explosion or something while passionately and caringly screaming their name. maybe it only happened this year and last but i cant get enough of it, yes please.

anyways tl dr. idk if anyone really follows or reads or even has any interest in this ship (tbh i dont blame fate fans if they would want nothing to do with it or my ships lol, i dont like a great amount of f ate stuff or just like. anything in general lol) but if you did read, thank you! idk as reward, feel free to share if ya like abt your self ships and faves. i can always appreciate them faves doin the cute stuff to make your day.

[artsy-y-foxy]

ִֶָ. ..𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ🦇་༘࿐Such a Spooky Night

And last but not least

ARTSY'S VAMPIRE OUTFIT!

I did it! I completed all of the Halloween cards!!! and just before Halloween too!

This really was the hardest of the cards to draw 😔 the patterns and detail where such a pain to draw, the patterns on the main body of the outfit even made it annoying for me to render the purple parts 😭

But its over now, all of them have been draw...

If the JP servers jump scare us with another Halloween event I think I'll scream

Vil's vampire card was actually my first Vil SSR card :D I ended up spending all my savings for it last year q-q

Not really sure what to draw now? I've thought about making the chibi sprites but I'm not sure, I think I've had enough of the Halloween cards 🥲

Also the thought of dealing with the patterns of this outfit again make me want to cry

Maybe next year? or when ever I feel like it

I've also been trying to make Vil/Artsy vampire Au but I keep hitting road blocks 🫠 I'm not very good at linking plot points together

Fun fact I almost forgot to give her eyebrows lol

[headlesshorsemanismyhomeboy]

what? me posting losh content on my losh-themed url blog? lmao what are the odds

anyways was inspired by somethin and ended up drawing this bc friendly reminder i love this movie and everyone in it ;w; i thought ichabod was the cutest thing ever in middle school and still think so. i would fight anyone for everyone in this movie.

kinda wanna add animated dancing music notes somehow? idk i think it might be a cute touch? i guess were dancing? this is approximately the outfit i wore last time i was at disney too

[citrus-selfinserts]

bringing this back bc i finally finished this one from last year! it hopefully looks ok! for context, i was kinda sorta disneybounding even tho the color/style was completely different, it was for the good vibes™ and it was definitely those things!

(kinda want to try again this year. not sure who but just sayin 🌱)

[citrus-selfinserts]

reggie disneyboud 2023! to be completely fair i was super underprepared and this was really last minute but it actually turned out not bad! just think of it like uh…. colorswap reggie. yea.

i have a kind of ridiculously big plan for next year lol. have no idea if itll even be possible but i love my boi so uh. maybe? idk

[citrus-selfinserts]

disneybound 2024! again like w my boy reggie, was kinda off colorwise for megs (but vibes? oh they were there alright)

This years should actually be clooose ish to color scheme? but we'll see~🐎

[rubmybellayyyyy]

Shoutout to selfships/yumeships who did not end up together happily ever after due to the circumstances surrounding them.

[citrus-selfinserts]

crawling out of the sewer to post abt the faves! (not the bae this time but my other two faves got features! or like. one feature!)

look at ricky givin tw st ceremony robes in his outfit!!!!

and vio!!!! she is so cute good for her!!!! the survivor vio!!! the survivor vio is real!!!!!!

for reference this one was antonio a few years ago

[lambselfships]

hi, long time no see! glad to see your notif on my activity~

for the selfship drabble asks, can I ask for no. 10? any ship you'd like! (tho i always have a soft spot for your ship w axel!) have a nice day!

(from citrus-selfinserts)

Selfship Drabble Asks

(from @citrus-selfinserts: omg hii!!!! Thank you for asking, you are so sweet. It's great to be back c:) Number 10: Going to a cafe/restaurant and knowing exactly what the other is going to order.

“You can’t both get the same thing! It’s a waste of Munny.” Donald squawked incredulously while standing on his chair, pointing a fork accusatorially between the two. Nyx shot Axel a surprised glance, her fork halfway up to her mouth. He was smiling, but the corner of his mouth was doing the little twitch she had come to realize was him literally biting back his annoyance.

“Now Donald, let the kids eat what they want.” Goofy grinned behind his cup of coffee as he admonished his partner. The duck let out a series of grumbling quacks and sat back down behind his meal.

The group was…ragtag, to say the least. Nyx didn’t particularly know either of the Kingsguard very well, but since the end of the Keyblade War, the pair had been visiting Twilight Town fairly often. With Sora still missing…She could see them obviously trying to keep themselves busy. Goofy had made it a habit to bring his son Max along to skate with Roxas and Xion, which in turn led to the “adults” of both groups occassionally getting dinner at the bistro.

Nyx finished taking her first bite of her heavily spiced food. It wasn’t her fault that she and Axel had similar tastes. She pointed her fork over at her lover. “If anything, blame him for being stereotypical. A fire wielder that likes spicy food? Come on.” She grinned through her harmless jab. Axel rolled his eyes.

“EXCUSE you, it means that I have a reason to enjoy spicy food. I’m convinced you’re the crazy one for eating it all by yourself.”

While they had a few differences in taste - especially when it came to textures - Axel and Nyx both tended towards the same things. Strong flavors, be it spicy, sweet, salty, bitter. They both loved them all. The couple didn’t mind that this meant having duplicates of leftovers - it just meant more deliciousness for future them.

Goofy let out a well meaning “A-Hyuck” between sips of his coffee while Donald continued to gripe about “kids these days”. Nyx reached over between bites and gave Axel a gentle squeeze to his knee. It was a blessing, really, that these were the “issues” that they now filled their days with.

[citrus-selfinserts]

look at this cute picture of principal~

[citrus-selfinserts]

honestly i am so hyped for more lore on this essence (fingers crossed that its good!!!!!) and i rlly love it aesthetic-wise, but.... ofc i am going to make memes~

warning for crossover and bad puns under cut

ricky gains another shounen jump dad friend

[citrus-selfinserts]

summer h eroes squad!!! appreciate them

[citrus-selfinserts]

spring girls too! gosh i really should write plumie + idunn interactions tbh

[citrus-selfinserts]

negative ish under cut

i think ive actually been affected physically negatively by this stuff in -go. just. like the absolute worst that could happen to one of my faves happened, and happened, and happened. and not to mention a lot of fan reaction is so one sided in support that it just makes me feel like how im feeling is ridiculous.

imean. the game wants you to think that "the a vengers are beyond loving/beyond saving because they are violent and will kill everyone indiscriminately" but like. half the characters in the game are literally a joke, or there bc like "the grail says so idk". and even some of them we see like. moving on with their lives and trying to find stability. lobo wants to do un-wolflike things bc his living life as a wolf has ended (like eating chocolate), not to mention meeting others in similar situations (like enk idu). and dont heckin get me started on sal. yes hes got single minded homicidal tendencies at one guy but its literally only at that one guy, and he constantly denies himself like. any human decency to protect the memory of the person he's a fabrication abt. like if this isnt selfless and kind idk what is.

i think every person is different. everyones brains work in different ways, and hearts too. there is no one who "shouldnt be loved". even someone who was "made to be unloved" can find someone, somewhere someday, who will love them. fuck that shit.

anyways ive been stressed and feeling awful physically for the weekend but sal stayed up in the game (aka the game window didnt close) and honestly that touched me. i dont deserve him but i am grateful for him so much.

[citrus-selfinserts]

me: getting irritated at g o because of stuff

the game:

me:

[citrus-selfinserts]

cumori 2 electric boogaloo!!!✨✨✨✨✨

(ignore the fact ▇▇▇▇ happened)

[vergils-beloved]

shout-out to selfshippers who can't stand seeing their f/os get hurt, even if it's very canon-typical for them. especially when it's canon typical for them!! it's so valid for you to feel bad when you see them in pain and it's totally okay to even feel sad about it. they're your beloved so obviously so you'll want them to be alright

go patch you beloved back up or do anything they need to feel better again!! clean their wounds, wrap them up, kiss their boo-boos, make them something to eat or drink if they need it, just let them rest while you take care of everything else and promise them you'll always be there for them!! they appreciate what you do for them so much and you make them feel so loved and safe :3

[citrus-selfinserts]

angst under cut

f go white day always got me like. going through the stages of grief and this year is worse than ever

its still a little early to say but the new c e is like..... ??? i didnt even think its moz i thought it was someone else bc of the pose??? but that might be (me being optimistic) be an art style thing. idk. it just doesnt imo fit his aesthetic also that the original designer has had for him. maybe its the pose. its so friggin blurry too it might not even be him. and then sal(??) in the back. also super blurry

and like. a mozsal they are hackers or whatever ce would be fine. thatd be brilliant. but why is it always tied to that guy???? literally ruined both their lives, not to mention for everyone else, esp ppl like lobo who is trying actively to rehabilitate. gosh i hate this plot and i actually woke up and cried abt sal for a good amt of time.

its just. im used to so many stories that have a plot abt healing from bad things youve gone through. becoming a better person. maybe you arent born/created perfect, maybe youve got a past thats got bad stuff in it, but you can always try to change. from a christmas carol to no way hecking home they all have that sort of vibe. love yourself, come to terms with your faults and biases, try to be a better person or at least acknowledge what youve become- thats the first step. im not saying every character needs to change. there are those little creatures who we (and by we i mean myself) adore for being unapologetic little gremlins. but if its a matter of health im usually in favor of them not driving themselves into a self-destructive hurricane (or like. at least make it a shakespearian tragedy with the proper decorum and weight and let me write a happy ending in the afterlife for them)

and then on the other hand f go is here, roping in a guy who, besides that one person he feels nothing but bloodlust for (not by his control, mind you, but bc he was created exactly to do that as a slander of a real person) is so giving and selfless to everyone else, and forcing him to follow people who really dont give a rats arse abt him unless they need him for something, believing them to be his peers when they and the whole fandom clearly see the two of them as better than him, and hes not even guilty of most of the "reasons" that they all got like. thanos snapepd to the shadow realm. basically id is like reverse n w h where everything is like. hurting you on a personal level rather than healing your longstanding trauma with catharthic redemption and clumsy but good intentioned love.

and dont get me started on izou being there. i am terrified for him on the same hand as i am slightly excited. but all this is just complicating things. this game is just like a mind heck in game form and no i dont mean that in a good way.

[nelkenbabe-deactivated20211107]

"i would die for you" this, "i'd walk through fire for you that"

what about "i'd live for you" romances? what about "i never thought i'd be worth the work it would take to piece myself together"?

what about "i don't believe i'm worth it, but for you i'll try"

[castorochiaro]

so i just had a really fun oc/canon or selfship challenge i wanna try doing: create a hypothetical episode of the show your oc or s/i is part of that either introduces or features your oc or s/i, to include a titlecard, episode title, summary, and even one or two fake screencaps

[citrus-selfinserts]

went to probably my favorite cafe rn(? its debatable) for treblesalversarry this month! gosh i cant believe itll almost be a year since. you know. happened.

they had a book of stars and honestly it made me tear up to see. stars are just neat and space is neat and both remind me of sal, and the fact you can see the same stars from anywhere in the world it just. gosh.

bonus couple picture bc sal is so cute in his detective jacket and shoebill cape

i was the only customer at the end so i got to take lots of aesthetic pics of sal~

and the rest of the squad! honestly this is so prime draw the squad material

bonus of just hans bc he looks really cute in this (+ his widdle new cape coat thing!)