surreptitious

dead end.

[clandestinefeline]

07 JUL '18

01.07. cant sleep. i need warmth. i need to hug and listen to someone's heartbeat to fall asleep. i feel so helpless. i've never felt so lost.

[clandestinefeline]

i hope you'd just cut the crap and tell me that you dont like me. it'll make my work much more easier. trying to decipher your expressions is a pain in the ass.

[clandestinefeline]

i want to shut down my life. you stopped me i stopped myself. dont you fucking dare take the credit.

[clandestinefeline]

"i've had enough of your bullshit. your facial expression said i have too childish of a personality. we should end this here. goodbye"

- i didnt have the courage to say so

[clandestinefeline]

06 JULY '18

20.59. saying goodbye sure is easy. especially when you dont have to face them upfront. sorry but i had to run away from my problems.

[clandestinefeline]

someone, please save me

[clandestinefeline]

05 JUL '18

16.32. what am i holding on to?

[clandestinefeline]

4 FEB '18

00.02. still unable to sleep.

[clandestinefeline]

1 FEB '18

14.05. my stomach churns and the rapidity of my heartbeat is unusual. what is this ill feeling.

[clandestinefeline]

31 JAN '18

19.00. whenever im in a tight spot i'll unconsciously hold my breath. i almost died today.

[clandestinefeline]

dull. the color of my breathe is just dull.

[clandestinefeline]

30 JAN '18

23.32. still cant sleep and im gonna end up waking up late again tomorrow. restless.

[clandestinefeline]

"i need space."

-said the girl who'd die from loneliness.

[clandestinefeline]

29 JAN '18

23.00, cant sleep. today is still the same as the other day. i wish i can do better tomorrow.