lee

he/him • i buried my teeth in everything good, and it didn't save me like i thought it would

[claws-in-my-back]

intro post

📍chudville, usa

15 y/o • aroace • trans

currently listening to at the beach in every life by gigi perez

dni: terfs, generative ai users, racists, nazis, homophobes, transphobes, maga, etc

more abt me ↓

my pinterest

academic/study blog (coming soon)

a couple mutuals!!!!

@jamm3rz my friend who i would carry everywhere in my arms ily jam 💚💛🪲

@viansparkles he's so cool and handsome it's not even funny

@smelliza one of my #britishmutuals and she has elite music taste

if i didn't add you and you want to be on here please tell me and i'll add you!!! <333

some things i like:

movies & tv: yellowjackets, bones and all, i saw the tv glow, whip it, how to train your dragon, coraline, the breakfast club music: boygenius & solos, ethel cain, adrianne lenker, searows, the crane wives, florence road, death cab for cutie, sufjan stevens, muna, susannah joffe, gigi perez podcasts: the magnus archives, welcome to nightvale, malevolent, camp here & there misc: roller derby, cryptids, the last of us, legend of zelda (totk & botw), animal crossing new horizons, playing guitar, lumberjanes

my url is based on the julien baker song claws in your back

i love spamming my mutuals but if you don’t want me to do that lmk :)

my writing/long post tag is lee’s words

my asks tag is chudville city council

occasionally i will post about mental health/triggering topics but everything will be tagged with tw/cw and the name of the topic (ex. #tw sh or #cw eating disorder) as well as other related tags

photos from pinterest • whale stamps divider from somebitchprobably-graphicdump • tooth divider from kodaswrld • yellowjackets blinkie from adiresituation • julien baker blinkie by emergingghost • ethel cain blinkie from 666syntareli • i heart the sea blinkie from gr33n33

there is still time

[claws-in-my-back]

you were mad that the whole world you were angry it didn’t stop when you did

[claws-in-my-back]

i should probably go to sleep

[historia-is-a-cool-name]

Eva Stratt for tumblr sexywoman 2027

[claws-in-my-back]

not ready to give herself over to life when it’s wake up in the morning and suffer or die

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tw vent

i hate this fucking body i can’t do this i have to live with this for the rest of my life it’s not fair it’s not fair why do some people have everything they want so easily my friend’s parents changed his legal name in the school system mine would laugh if i wanted to wear a binder i hate it here please get me out i’m sunburned and this all hurts so much it hurts so much i have to pay ridiculous amounts of money to not want to kill myself to live in a body i don’t hate to fix the discomfort i’ve been feeling since elementary school and other people are born perfect it’s not fair my life could have been perfect my family is pretty rich and pretty decent and i could have been a perfect beautiful popular girl but no i had to be trans and not be able to function in social situations and now i’m the family disappointment because i dress masculine and have ugly hair at least my sister looks how she’s supposed to she gets to go to the beach without staring at real men in jealousy because they get to have things she doesn’t im so tired i’m so tired i’m in pain i hate this i hate this i hate this i’m trapped in this body in this family with a dad who hurts everyone around him and a sister who talks shit about me being queer behind my back and then acts like a 6 year old and whines when i don’t hang out with her every second of the fucking day and a mom that would probably be fine if my dad wasn’t so mean all the time i wish i knew i was trans when i was four like that trans girl that gets exploited on the internet by her parents so i could have gone on puberty blockers and i wouldn’t feel sick when i wear a thin shirt i had to wear girl clothes today and it made me feel horrible i can’t do this forever i can’t keep doing this i hate this i’m trapped i’m so so tired of this i hate my body and i hate my dad and i don’t even want to go home because it’s 95 degrees there but i want to be away from this hotel room where i have to share a bed with my sister i want to leave i want to be alone with my mom i miss my friends i wish any of them would reach out to me first but why would they because i’m annoying and i don’t have my shit figured out and i can’t be normal about anything snd i can’t stop touchhing my hair i wish i was born a boy i’m so so tired of rhis body and this life i want to go back to my childhood best friend’s house and sleep on her bed full of pillows and hear the clock ticking in her room and see the glow in the dark stars she put on the ceiling and in the morning i wear her clothes and we make pancakes and brownies together and eat the raw brownie batter because “who cares about salmonella” i want to look through that turquoise dog shaped earring holder and pick out my favorite ones and wear them to school but i can’t do any of that ever again because she changed schools in the sixth grade and now she would never talk to me and i knew her too early i want it back i never want to see anyone i know again i want to go home i hate my body and not in a haha lol i hate drinking water way in a i want to rip the flesh in chunks off of my torso to feel better i want to stop everything i want it to stop make it all stop i don’t want to die but i don’t want to live like this here in this body anymore everything couldul have been perfect and i messed it up forever and i’m sorry snd it hurts it hurts i’m so tired

[pwppiiprincezz]

no cus i get the cutie mark crusaders cuz like

being young and not knowing ur purpose and feeling like ur doing everything you can to find it and nothing is working and everyone around you seems to alr have it figured out and you feel childish and confused on what ur doing wrong

[claws-in-my-back]

it is torturous to be not out as trans but passing as male at the airport because my passport photo is me when i was ten (long hair, very clearly look like a girl) and has my (very feminine) full legal name on it so none of the tsa agents believe that it’s mine. the amount of times i’ve had to say “no, this isn’t my sister’s passport” “yes, this is my passport” “yes, i’m _____” has been INSANE. passing but at what cost 😭😭😭

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about to get on the plane and i am very hungry

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mostly i am a mountains enjoyer but i am very excited to go to the beach it's gonna be so fun im going to take plenty of pictures for you guys!!

[lotsvelvetmood]

shauna shipman’s girlfriends 𑣲.

⟢ melissa hat

⊹˚♪⋆𝄞 bitch ⟢ allie x

⟢ jackie taylor

⊹˚♪⋆𝄞 count the ways ⟢ the last dinner party

⟢ mari ibarra

⊹˚♪⋆𝄞 my kink is karma ⟢ chappell roan

[claws-in-my-back]

😭😭😭😭😭zelda asked link why he doesn't talk and he said he feels like he needs to be stoic and silent because of all the burdens placed on him 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 zelda says she knows how he feels 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 they're like 17 years old oh my god 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 this game is gonna kill me 😭😭😭😭😭

[burialintheabyss]

[deusben]

posters...need more posters...need...need more...poster...need..

[miwinthealps]

thanks megan @phoebebyers for the tag🥳🥳

Rules: Make a poll with 10 of your favorite movies. They can be just 10 movies you loved seeing, or your top 10 movies of all time, then tag people and let them choose.

pick a movie that i like 🤗

the rocky horror picture show

ferris bueller’s day off

almost famous

little women (2019)

but i’m a cheerleader

the princess and the frog

star wars: episode v - the empire strikes back

psycho

bottoms

saved!

Voting ended onJul 9

npt: @whimsywheeelah @wayward-sherlock @qulizalfos @laiisoverparty !!!!!!!!!!

[whimsywheeelah]

thanks for the tag!! this is so fun omg

choose 👀

nacho libre

monty python and the holy grail

tenet

along came polly

how to train your dragon 2

bottoms

gladiator

challengers

pirates of the caribbean

project hail mary

Voting ended onJul 9

np tags: @withdevovotion (ik what you’re gonna put already LMAO) @greycoloredhounds @trojantoast @byleriskillingme

[trojantoast]

hehehe i was hoping someone would tag me in this :):):):):)

(there is a horsegirl theme if you squint. no we’re not talking about it)

🐟 (idk he spoke to me)

the lord of the rings trilogy (extended editions)

spirit: stallion of the cimarron

national treasure

the princess bride

sinners

the man from snowy river

spider-man: into/across the spiderverse

the last unicorn

princess mononoke

pride and prejudice (2005)

Voting ended onJul 11

apologies if you’ve already been tagged! (feel free to ignore) @oliveespineapples @ziggyzoomer @buckleybeat @mikethebravewheeler

[ziggyzoomer]

OOOH so fun thank u for the tag!!!

🎬??

little miss sunshine

amelie

bottoms

the whale

barbie

companion

my neighbor totoro

juno

ponyo

Voting ended onJul 9

yayayaayya i love this! tags: @janiecakes13 @looneyloon @gaysourgummybears @willes-stolensweater @pandorastarr + open cuz im lazy

[pandorastarr]

yippee ty for the tag ivy bethh ily

📽

dead poets society 📜

coraline 🪡

the ballad of songbirds and snakes 🕊

the princess bride 🗡

disney's hercules 🏺

hocus pocus 🔮

harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban 🐾

anastasia 👑

the nightmare before christmas 💀

the breakfast club 📝

Voting ended onJul 10

i felt like putting stupid emojis ok

tagsss: @diannedecomposed @janiecakes13 @stardust-daydreamss @pendragonstarz @looneyloon @lipst1ck-c0nstellations @crunchie-morris

[pendragonstarz]

Ty for the tag!! (and i love the emojis you added <3)

pick a movie!!

pride & prejudice (2005)

coraline

howl's moving castle

10 things I hate about you

spirited away

corpse bride

ponyo

tangled

scott pilgrim vs the world

catching fire

Voting ended onJul 10

(These are mostly my comfort films, I never get tired of watching them 😪)

No pressure tags!! @awfulbells @ab0utellie @sunchildsatoru @sweetcreatureeternal @byler-brainworms @landofeternalsummer @auracobaltblue @autistic-michael-queerler @heyimcelery @flickergatedaughter @oliveespineapples @lycheeeejelly @phineasxox + anyone who wants to join <3

[ab0utellie]

Thank you for the tag!! 💗

pick a movie!! <3

When Marnie was there

Kiki's delivery service

Legally blonde

Ratatouille

Coraline

Spider Man: Across the spiderverse

Princess Diaries (1&2)

Mamma Mia

Sinners

Project Hail Mary

Voting ended onJul 10

@awfulbells @lyl4c-is-confused @clowncatonacloud @crunchie-morris @buckleybeat @starchasers-version @whylee-wheeler

[lyl4c-is-confused]

Thanks for the tag ✨

Pick one 🤍

Mean Girls

Clueless

Ocean’s 11

The Handmaiden

Blade Runner

Perfect Blue

Beauty and the Beast (animated)

Ginger Snaps

Catch Me If You Can

Gone Girl

Voting ended onJul 10

@stargazingthemoooon @afoc717 @gloriouslygone @holliewoodnot @cocowkitty @barium-nitrate + anyone who wants to!

[afoc717]

These are my comfort films lol

Wall Street (1987)

Halloween (1, 2, H20)

Hush

The Game Plan

Frozen 2

Twilight (all 5)

The Count of Monte Crisco (2002)

The Big Short

The Sandlot

Fright Night (1985)

Voting ended onJul 16

@rockinrobin124 @thequeerlerfamily @robinthestrangerrr @fall3n-h3av3ns @twohumansinatrenchcoat @ anyone else who sees this post! 🩷 drop ur 10 favs

[thequeerlerfamily]

ty queen <3

Pick a film :]

call me by your name

bones and all

edge of seventeen

spider man: into the spider-verse

home alone 2

moonlight

Remaining time: 3 hours 51 minutes

that’s all I can think of I don’t watch many movies (or tv shows for that matter 💔)

I do play a lot of games though

@candyroxxstarrs @michellequeerler-irl @ventusvia

[ventusvia]

thanks <3

pick!

dead poets society

mamma mia

pride and prejudice (2005)

cool runnings

the holiday

matrix

princess bride

spaceballs

hitchhiker’s guide to the galaxy

star wars og trilogy

Voting ended onJul 15

@cybrbat @shadybisexualpirate @thehyperfixationistlass @plunkre @sweetcreatureeternal @michaelqueerlerslipstares

[cybrbat]

ty for the tag!!! :p

pick a movie

the perks of being a wallflower

dead poets society

i saw the tv glow

but im a cheerleader

project hail mary

ponyo

howl's moving castle

coraline

call my by your name

spider man: into the spiderverse

Voting ended onJul 15

@dessasink @michellequeerler-irl @kiwistarrrzz @looneyloon @catluvrnerd @fnafsmosh @hazelsky62 @iluvstrawberriessomuch @just-kaitlin @lyssiswillowbyers @vinylfawn @ximenasbrokencd + open

[hazelsky62]

thanks for the tag

pick a movie

gifted

you can live forever

bottoms

ten things i hate about you

turtles all the way down

i wish you all the best

the outsiders

am i ok?

love letters (french film)

girls like girls

Voting ended onJul 15

@eli-eli-lema-sabachthani @gaysourgummybears @jamm3rz @ach1lles-heel @certified-loser-boy @ryleecranee @claws-in-my-back @lynn-is-definitely-sane @human-n0-l0ng3r

[claws-in-my-back]

thanks for the tag!!!!

pick a movie!

how to train your dragon

the breakfast club

whip it

the princess bride

song of the sea

i saw the tv glow

inglourious basterds

get out

jojo rabbit

in bruges

Remaining time: 4 days 5 hours

tags!!! @jamm3rz @smelliza @viansparkles @poet-queen12 @the-silliest--billy + open tags!!!

[claws-in-my-back]

i am officially entering a no wifi zone but i love you and i’ll miss you!!! i’m excited to talk to you again after camp 💛💚🪲

okay bye jam 😿😿😿 i’m gonna miss you too!!! can’t wait to talk to you when you get back!!! 💛💚🪲

[claws-in-my-back]

playing breath of the wild will have you crying saying things like “zelda was just a teenage girl oh my god she was a little older than me”