I cannot scream loud enough about how much I completely sick of feeling like shit all the time! My body aches so bad right now that I can barely get up, I’m having to prop my feet up on 2 pillows because they are so swollen it feels like I’m being poked with needles a million times. I have a horrible headache, my joints ache, I’m so tired I keep falling asleep while watching YouTube, I just hurt and I’m only 36yrs old, but I feel like I’m 95yrs old. Oh!you tiny butterfly fly shaped demon, why must you destroy my mind, body, and spirit??? It really sucks when no one you know understands what you are going through, I hate it! I can’t bare to think how my loved ones perceive me at this time in my life, I’m a former shell of the vibrant, outgoing, optimistic, determined, energetic, happy person I was before August of 2014, when these symptoms crept up on me out of no where and seriously hit me like a mac truck. I was in dental assisting school, excited about my future in this field, and I was determined to make awesome grades and pass those classes with ease. Everything was going great until the day we were learning about dental imaging, we were told that we were gonna X-ray each other and learn about their machine, it was a very high tech panoramic imaging machine, so a couple of group were ahead of mine and I was watching intensely so I made sure I did everything right, so the girl I was paired with did my X-ray first then I did hers. So after that there were a couple more girls that had to do it, and I was just standing there watching when all of the sudden a sick feeling hit me out of no where. I felt sick to my stomach, dizzy, and just felt weird, and one of the technicians noticed me, and said “are you ok? ”, you look pale as a ghost, I answered no I don’t feel right, so she told me to go into one of the rooms that were not used and lay in the chair in the dark until I felt better, well I didn’t recover, so she was like “ You might need to just go home and relax.” ,and that’s what I did. I felt ok when I got home, so the next day I was suppose to sit opposite the dentist and practice two-handed dentistry with him, I was extremely nervous about this too, so I headed back the next day, and felt fine. When I got there I felt very nervous but not at all like I did the day before. It came time for me to stand over the dentist and assistant and watch what they were doing. They had a 2 hr procedure to do, so I was just standing observing and a hour goes by when all of the sudden boom the sick feeling starts again, and this time the assistant notices because she grabs me as I was tipping over. They tell me to go sit down and chill for a minute, and it doesn’t go away, so they tell me to go home, and redo it later, so I go home, as soon as I’m home I’m fine again. I only had a couple more classes and I wAs done, but every time I would have to stand up there for an amount of time I would start feeling that way again, but I pulled through and finished with an A, so I was thrilled and couldn’t wait to find a job and begin my career. I didn’t have that problem again. So life goes on I get out there almost daily putting resumes at every dental office I could in my rural area. I put out at least 12 resumes and I only got one call back, and at the time I thought I had nailed the interview and so had that job, but unfortunately they never called nor would they answer my repeated calls. So times goes on, and I start feeling not like myself, I was really tired, irritable, felt run down no matter how much I slept but that was it. I have Add as well and I found a specialist that could retest me and make sure I still had Add so I would have proof to get back on my meds. I of course still suffer from Add and it wAs clarified again, so I see a psychiatrist, and I tell him what’s been going on with me, and he says,“ Has anyone tested your thyroid before”. No, never had that tested, I do blood work, go home, and they call me the next day to say, “You have Hypothyroidism.” What is that I ask? She says,“ Your TSH levels where high meaning you’re Hypo. I have never really heard of that, she tells me to make an appointment with a doctor soon to get it handled. So I’m ok quick fix see the doctor get on meds and get on with my life, BOY WAS I WRONG!!! Doctor number one, female, mid 50’s, very nice, explains to me what it means to be Hypo, and that she was going to start me on 50mcg of Synthyroid and it will take a bit but I should feel like myself in no time. She did say that get your levels stable again was like throwing a needle down a big hallway trying to hit a target, so that wasn’t too comforting. I go home and next morning start my lil thyroid pill, at this time symptoms are tiredness, cranky, and didn’t quite feel right in my body but that was it. I believe 6weeks go by, I start gaining new symptoms, my hair started coming out more than usual, I had aches and pains, and my Add symptoms seemed worse even though I was taking Adderall. I don’t feel like the Synthyroid is working at all and by this time have done tons of research on Hypothyroidism and I’m like maybe I should see a specialist to be on the safe side because she was a primary car doctor and my naive self thought a endocrinologist will certainly know how to help me, if I knew then what I know now, I would have laughed at that decision. More to come later.
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