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Things to remind my closeted self as I spend the holidays with homophobic family
1. Their words are misguided, wrong, and have no bearing on me as a person. Their opinions are their fault, and don't mean I'm not amazing and valid just the way I am 2. I am not weak for not arguing with them. I am not betraying myself and my community by being passive and saying nothing that would indicate I disagree. Keeping quiet keeps me safe, and that is most important 3. I am strong for processing and pushing through this, and nobody can take that strength away from me
to anyone currently going through a hard time, dealing with mental illness or currently grieving, it is okay to still be sad during the holiday season, you are under no obligation to be happy and joyful and should not feel guilty about it xx
remember to take care of yourself <3
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musings on performance and mental health in classical music: how “conquering” my anxiety killed my love for music
i can count myself among those musicians that say, with complete confidence, that stage fright isn’t a problem that they have to deal with in performance situations.
performance anxiety is very obviously a ubiquitous problem in the world of the performance arts, as any practicing musician will happily attest to. and although i can say that i no longer have issues performing on stage–that my hands no longer shake, that i no longer disassociate, that i can exert complete control over my mind and body–i have to qualify that statement with a rejoinder: how i overcame my performance anxiety ruined my relationship with the violin and nearly destroyed my love for music.
i began my musical career as a violinist. i practiced four hours each and every day, loved all of the literature written for the violin, listened to violin music all day long. it was a beautiful relationship, one that i cherished very much. my relationship with the violin was a rather private one: in the confines of a practice room, my home, or in front of my teacher, i was happy to play. however, an introvert to my core, i found performing in public to be a horribly difficult challenge to overcome.
i have to preface this next part by stating that i believe musicians should be competent performers. there is something to be gained from learning how to perform; it has, indeed, been my experience that learning how to perform in public cultivates self-confidence, strengthens the relationship between performer and instrument, and may even foster an unexpected joy for performance.
only, however, if it is done right can such anxieties be healthily overcome.
my violin teacher’s solution to this issue was to force me into the limelight; if, indeed, there was an opportunity for me to perform in front of a crowd, i was pushed into it. i was given attitude, and on one occasion even screamed at, whenever i wanted to back out of these engagements.
this isn’t to say that she was a bad teacher or a horrible person. to the contrary, she was a great pedagogue from whom i learned a great many things. she was, at heart, a very kind and generous human being and, as someone who cared for me, wanted to see me succeed. she knew i had the potential to be great and she ruthlessly exposed me to my fears so that i could gain the courage to conquer them. and while i certainly understand this approach, i cannot in good conscious say that i respect it.
this is an approach that works. it worked for me, certainly. but at what cost? if nothing else, i know myself to be a stubborn, strong-willed piece of shit, whatever my introvertedness or social anxiety may say. this method broke me. it broke my love for the violin and it very nearly made me quit music. after my last (forced) public engagement playing a concerto in public, one that i point-blank refused to play but was forced to anyway, i stopped playing for three years.
i suffer from horrible anxiety attacks whenever i try and practice the violin. i can’t even think about performing in public anymore. and while i’ve slowly resumed lessons and have even joined a small orchestra this summer, the joy that i had playing this instrument has long since withered away. i think that, following the conclusion of rehearsals in august, i won’t be playing again anytime soon.
it wasn’t until i started therapy that i realized how toxic this do-or-die approach was for me. the relationship between a therapist and their patient is a very forgiving relationship. problems are discussed, conclusions are formed, and, through time, patience, and trial-and-error, these issues are overcome.
anxiety is your mind telling you that something is wrong. it is a part of you giving voice to its concerns. you do not conquer your anxiety, you acknowledge it. you respect it. you dialogue with it. you don’t go through life screaming at people and ignoring their concerns: why on earth would you treat yourself in such a brusque and cold-hearted manner?
i abused that part of myself that alerted me to its discomforts and anxieties rather than dialoguing with it. you reap what you sow and with the way that my anxieties were handled, the subsequent results are really not at all that surprising.
let this be a lesson to music teachers everywhere: anxiety is a very real problem with very real consequences when mishandled (however good your intentions may be or have been). dialogue with your students, set small and manageable performance goals, love, cherish, and respect their anxieties. your students are putting their mental health in your hands when they voice these concerns and issues: do not let them down.
Reblogging because I have musical followers and everyone should read this.
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never ever tell anyone with anxiety to “get over it” b/c that’s just more harmful in the long run.
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Here’s to the LGBTQ individuals spending the holidays with homophobic and transphobic family members.
There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. Don’t listen to them. Stay safe.
how do i tell someone i feel worthless without them feeling like im trying 2 guilt them into treating me special
I don’t know if this is a genuine or rhetorical question, but if you’re serious, I have actual advice about how to tell someone you’re struggling with severe self-worth problems without making them feel pressured & overwhelmed by your reaching out for help.
- respect their need to prioritize themselves first and give them space when they need it; if they need to sleep or go to work, that’s a bad time to bring up needing help if your needing help is chronic and ongoing rather than urgent and sudden
- thank them for their help more often than you apologize to them for needing it. If you thank them they’ll feel good and appreciated, but if you apologize for needing help constantly that will become just one more thing they’ll feel responsible for comforting you over
- do your best to spread out the burden. Figure out self-care plans, hotlines to call, 7 cups of tea, other friends to talk to. You can’t rely on a single person for your self worth, but having a network of support will allow you to get the help you need without depending on someone
honestly this is the best thing ever thank you sooooo much
okay if you suffer from anxiety, or depression, or even insomnia, or you just feel shitty all the time, listen up you little shit because what i’m about to say might just help you like nobody’s business
you see these motherfuckers right here? these crayons are like little sticks of wax joy that will never fail to help you in your time of need. these are your buddies right here. You don’t meed a million crayons like me, I just happened to buy these the other day for another project and then loved them so much. any crayons will do.
{colored pencils work too, but you want some crayons because that’s what works the best. don’t ask me why, but you feel 3000% better coloring with crayons than you do with colored pencils or even markers. IT BRINGS BACK THE CHILDHOOD INNOCENCE OR SOME SHIT LIKE THAT}
tl;dr just get some crayons i don’t even care what brand if you want to be a disgusting little shit go ahead and buy RoseArt you just need crayons.
okay, so it’s really simple. you just color. if you have a coloring book, awesome. if you don’t, look up some stuff on google and print it. get stuff that makes you happy, like your favorite disney princess or cartoon character. just type in something like “little mermaid coloring pages" and you’re good to go
now, here’s the best part. grab a crayon and just fucking go for it. don’t even think about anything else, just focus on coloring the picture however you want it to be and don’t stop until you’re completely satisfied with it. when you’re done with that one, color another one.
i promise, by the time you’ve finished coloring to your heart’s content, you’ll feel so much better. i have no idea why it happens, but coloring with crayons just lifts your stress away, even for a little bit. keep some blank coloring pages on hand and your box of crayons close to you for easy access should you really need it one day.
pro tip: when coloring, spill your crayons out
just take your time and spill all of them out from the box and then like run your hands over them and kinda mess the pile up because that shit is the most orgasmic feeling in the world i don’t know why but it just is
okay, i hope this helps. and if anyone looks at you funny or says that you’re too old to color with crayons, don’t get angry just pity them because they think that there’s an age limit to happiness and they obviously don’t remember how awesome it is to color so just offer them a crayon and if they don’t take it, well, sucks to suck
bringing this back because it’s the only thing that’s gotten me through this summer
to anyone having a bad day im so sorry also here are some pictures of baby elephants
feel better friend
i mean it’s not REALLY progress if white woman jones gets paid a LOT more than her nonwhite male co-stars (especially diego who is like. the other hero of the movie) but whatevs Yay Feminism i guess
White feminist
It was the same damn problem for TFA.
John made considerably less than Daisy despite him being a lead, having the amount of screen time that she does, not to mention the fact that he had considerably more experience under his belt than she did.
I threw up a lil in my mouth. How is Felicity Jones getting paid more than critically acclaimed and award winning actor Forest Whiticker or action film super star Donnie Yen.
What did she do in her career that quantifiably equates to thier experience and expertise that she would get paid more than them? How is it progressive that her salary is higher than theirs?
Well, lets hope than Kelly Marie Tran actually gets paid for her work at this rate…
Morning On The Seine Near Giverny 02 (1897) - Claude Monet
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Aro/Ace people deserve happiness and not the discourse bullshit that aphobes put them through.
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