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[clemaxident]

Still Yours (Even If I Hate It)

Two months after a bitter breakup, Y/N and Seungmin are trapped in a toxic cycle of anger, jealousy, and unresolved feelings. What begins as another attempt to make each other jealous at a crowded house party quickly spirals into a heated confrontation behind closed doors. Beneath the resentment, sharp words, and constant power struggle lies a connection neither of them has truly been able to sever. But when the night ends differently than all the others, Y/N finally admits the truth she’s been trying to ignore: she doesn’t just miss the relationship—she misses him. Faced with genuine vulnerability for the first time since their breakup, Seungmin must decide whether there’s anything left to save or if some love stories are too broken to fix.

pairing: nonidolau!seungmin x blkfem!reader

genre: toxic exes

rating: smut, slight angst, profanity, mature 18+

warnings: p in v, no protection(don't do this), oral sex, (both receiving), degradation, “slut” is used a lot, reader is a brat, seungmin is lowkey mean here, hate sex, dom seungmin, (let me know if i missed anything pls!)

1893k words

୨୧ heyyy! i know it’s been a minute i had to find motivation to write again😭 i didn’t proofread this and i wrote it at 1am so pls bare with me💔 anyways pls enjoy and feel free to comment 🫶🏾

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you and seungmin broke up broke up 2 months ago. it was a pretty messy breakup that ended in a big argument. 2 weeks later, seungmin was back in your apartment, fucking you into your mattress. “this pussy missed me so fucking much, huh?” his hips were snapping into yours at a fast and sharp pace. he had your legs pushed on both sides of your head, hitting your spot deeper than ever. “mmgh f-fuck you.” you manage to choke out. he laughed, “already am s-slut.” eventually you both would finish and he’d leave without saying a word. this had been the usual routine for the past 2 months.

how you and your ex ended up at the same house party is anyone’s guess. you’re sitting on the couch with some guy whose name you don’t even care to remember. less than 10 feet away is seungmin… talking to some girl about who knows what. he catches your eyeline and sends you a sly smirk. he leans down to “hear” the girl better. you know he’s full of shit. you know he’s trying to make you jealous. but you refuse to let him win. you look back at the guy you’re with and abruptly straddle him, making the little dress you’re wearing ride up your thighs. giving seungmin an a1 shot of your ass. his fists clench and his body gets hot. you look back at him and slowly move your hips and throw your head back. he had never been more pissed off. sure since you guys broke up you’d stop at NOTHING to try and make each other jealous, but this is as far as you had taken it.

he moves quick and swift. his feet hitting against the grown hard and heavy. he reaches the couch and you turn around. “oh hi minnie!” you say sarcastically, “do you wanna meet my friend? he’s really ni-“ you’re cut off by him grabbing your arm and basically dragging you off the guys lap. he drags you all the way down the hallway until you reach a bedroom.

he opens the door the pushes you inside until your back meets the cold wall. his arms cage you in on both sides. “i hate you so fucking much. you know that? right?” “you come here in, wearing that short ass dress, straddling some losers lap, begging for my attention.” you laugh. “well let’s not act like you’re fucking innocent either.” “whispering in that girls ear. you practically had your lips on her neck!” “and plus, we aren’t even together so why do you care so much?” oh this?…this made him the maddest he’s ever been. he grabs you by the fabric of your dress and leans in closer..”you wanna say that again?” your heart is jumping out of your chest… but you love the trill. “i said… we aren’t fucking together anymore. so why is what i do and who i do any of your fucking business, huh?” in one swift motion, he grabs your neck and his lips crash onto yours. his hands are all over you. gripping you with so much hate and hunger at the same time. you know it’s toxic. you know you shouldn’t be doing this. you know how much he’s hurt you… but why does it feel so good? you mutter in between kisses, “i fucking hate you s-seungmin.” he smiles, “i know baby, i know.”

he pulls you away from the wall and pushes you onto the bed. he breaks the kiss and takes his shirt off, throwing it somewhere in the cold room. he takes his hands and squeezes your boobs through your tight dress. you whine and moan at the sudden contact. “look at you. falling apart and i haven’t even taken your clothes off yet… such a fucking slut.” this makes you clit throb harder than it should’ve. he rips your dress right down the middle and throws the fabric on the floor. the cold air instantly hits your nipples, hardening them. seungmin leans down and takes your right nipple into his mouth. swirling his tongue around the bud and sucking hard enough to leave marks. he takes the left one into his fingers and rolls them around. your back arches up at the sensation. “mmgh s-shit… slow down t-too much!” he doesn’t listen. he switches nipples and looks up at you. focusing on your expression. head thrown back, mouth open, arching into his touch. he lets your nipple go with a loud *pop* and sits up. he looks down at you condescendingly while he unbuckles his pants… pulling them down just enough to free his hard, aching cock. your mouth waters at the sight, eager for what’s to come.

he leans back over you, legs on either side of your body. “listen.” he says sternly. “you take everything i give you like the slut you are, understood?” you look up at him… crossing your arms and rolling your eyes.“as if i’d fucking listen to you.” he laughs, “i thought you’d say that.” the sudden change in demeanor scared and excited you all at once. he pumped his dick a few times before slamming his cock into your mouth without warning. “when i tell you to do something, you fucking do it,” pushing his full length all the way down your throat. the sudden action makes you choke, making him even harder. he doesn’t give you time to adjust to the pace. he grabs a fist full of your hair, hips snapping as hard as they can. “look at you. choking on my dick like the slut you are.” you feel tears form at your eyes from the brutal pace. “aww, poor baby can’t talk shit when her mouth is full of cock. i like you better like this. quiet and slutted out for me.” it was very messy. spit running down your face onto your chest. seungmin’s moans and the sound of you gagging filled the room. “mmm fuck you’re so fucking good. only good for sucking dick.” seungmin speeds up the pace. “fffffuckkkk.. im gonna cum.”with one more snap of his hips, you feel ropes of cum slide down your throat. seungmin pulls out and leans back on the bed. you wipe your mouth as best you can, not knowing what else he has planned.

after he catches his breath, he leans back up. “legs up. now.” you roll your eyes & slowly lift up your legs. he pulls your panties down. a wet string connecting to the fabric and your clit pull away. seungmin licks his lips at the sight. “so wet and i haven’t even fucked you yet.” your cheeks feel hot with embarrassment. “s-shut up.” he laughs. “you’re so cute when your being bratty.” he leans in, ”too bad i can’t fucking stand you.” he pushes two of his slender fingers into your cunt without warning. you scream out and arch your back off the mattress instantly. seungmin looks down at you. “so fucking annoying.” you reach up and grab at his arms. “a-are you gonna fuck me or w-waste my time?” his lips curve up into a sly smirk, “say no more.”

he pulls his fingers out suddenly. you whine at the lost of contact. he leans up and lines up his cock with your entrance. he rubs his tip up and down your folds, painfully slow. you buck your hips up, searching for any more friction. seungmin pulls away completely. “w-wait no stop!” you cry out. “you’re a big girl. use your words, and you might get what you want.” he wants you to beg. he likes having power over you. you don’t wanna do it because you hate him, but you’re so pent up and need a release. he brings his cock back to your entrance and continues rubbing it up and down ur folds. you moan and tears spill out your eyes from the knot forming in your stomach. “i can’t hear anything… that must mean you don’t wa-” “WAIT! fuck wait.. seungmin please. just fuck me already.” he looks down at you pouting(he doesn’t really care)… “aww baby well since you asked so nicely.. i guess i’ll fuck you.”

he leans down and kisses the tears off your cheeks. in one motion, seungmin pushes his dick inside of you. you arch your back and cry out loudly. “mmgh- fuck!!” he starts out at a brutal pace, hips snapping into yours as hard as he can. “fuck. do you see how fucking mad you make me? how fucking hard i am?” you couldn’t even from a response. tears poured from your eyes. tears of pleasure… tears of anger… “i hate you so fucking much.” he continue his pace. at this point , your eyes are blurry from how hard you’re crying. “please. mmgh- fuck don’t stop.” seungmin leans down and latches onto your neck, sucking and biting. marking you even tho you aren’t his. (or are you?) “this is my fucking pussy.” he growls. “mine.” “f-fuck you.” he grins against your neck. your vision goes white and it’s getting harder for you to breathe. “ah- fuck- i’m so close minnie!” seungmin sits up and leans his head back in pleasure. “ah- shit.. such a slutty fucking pussy.. taking me in so well.” the room is filled with wet slapping and moaning. seungmin tightens his grip on ur waist, “i’m gonna breed this tight pretty pussy.” he takes his thumb and rubs your clit. “cum on this dick baby.” you lift your hips up, meeting him in the middle. chasing your releases together. with one final stroke, you both cum together. seungmin collapses on top of you and your breathing syncs up. for a moment, neither of you move. you lay there catching your breath, holding each other…. for a little TOO long…

seungmin leans up and pulls out suddenly, cum spilling from your cunt, leaving you feeling empty. he walks to the bathroom and comes back with a warm towel. he wipes in between your legs and wipes the spit that was on your chest and face. he was being.. nicer than usual? usually he was up and out of the room before you had even caught your breath. he sits you up and puts you under the covers. he doesn’t say a word and heads for the bedroom door. you start feeling sad… but why? this wasn’t your first rodeo… you had broken up a while ago and you were over it… right? before he could open the door, you sit up from the bed. “seungmin… wait!” he stops in his tracks and looks back. “what y/n? am i leaving something behind?” he says in his usual cocky, condescending tone. yes, he’s leaving you behind. your relationship, what could’ve been. “uh no i just… well i-…. can you stay.. please?” he had a puzzled look on his face. he laughed. “are you being serious?” you could feel tears forming at your eyes. “y-yes. i need you right now.” once he saw how vulnerable and serious you were, his eyes softened a bit. he walked over to you and sat next to you. on the bed. “y/n… what is it?” you didn’t know why you suddenly felt like this. why tonight’s hookup left you feeling different than usual… “i think…. i think i miss you…”

[clemaxident]

Idol By Day, Yours By Night

You and Hyunjin have been dating since before he debuted. As an idol, dating is frowned upon. So your relationship is in the dark for a long time…until Hyunjin decides that he’s done hiding. After his declaration, you two share a steamy, unforgettable night together.

paring: idol!hyunjin x blkfem!reader

genre: established relationship

rating: smut, angst(if you squint), profanity, mature 18+

warnings: p in v, no protection(don’t do this), oral sex, both receiving, riding hyunjin, pet names(love, baby, jagi, princess), reader calls hyunjin “hyune”, degrading(just a little), hyunjin calls the reader a slut a few times, reader is a brat, hyunjin is a sub-dom,(let me know if i missed anything pls!)

2840k words

୨୧ this is my first fanfic everrrrr so please be nice! i was tired of not seeing any blk reader x skz fics so i had to change that.

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You met Hyunjin during his pre-debut days. You both attended the same school, quickly became friends, and eventually started dating. Whenever Hyunjin told you he made it into JYPE as a trainee, you worried that it would put a strain on your relationship. There's an unhealthy obsession between idols and dating, so you both knew the risks of word getting out. 

As much as Hyunjin hated it, he had no choice but to keep your relationship in the dark. “Y/N ie, you know I love you and care about you, but we both know that if I get caught dating, the risks of me not debuting are high.” You knew he had developed a passion for performing, so you agreed to keep things on the down low. Although you both couldn't spend the same amount of time with each other like before, you both fought to make things work. 

You attended every concert, fanmeet, and even bought merch. This kind of thing is typical in the kpop world, so no one suspected you to be his girlfriend. 

Hyunjin could spot you in any crowd. During songs and ments, he'd steal glances and wink at you. After shows, he'd sneak you into his hotel room. “You looked so pretty baby.” He cooed. “My number one fan always.” It sucked that you and your own boyfriend couldn't even be seen in public together, but a part of you enjoyed the thrill of you two having your own dirty little secret.

It was late.

Hyunjin had just gotten back from the dominate:celebrate encore concert. He had a small break before it was time to prepare for Stray Kids’s new comeback that had just been released. 

You both sat on the plush couch in your apartment. Legs intertwined, with a drama playing faintly in the background, your normal routine whenever he’s not busy. Hyunjin had a soft, but possessive grip on your waist. It had been so long since the both of you had time to properly cuddle due to his demanding schedule. “Hyune,” you whined. “Hm love?” “How busy do you think you’ll be during this next album promos?” “To be honest, it's looking like it’ll be two months.” You sighed at his answer. Hyunjin looked down at you with a soft look on his face. Man did he know your weaknesses well. “Y/N ie. We had a meeting with the company earlier and after these promos are over, we have a month break. How about we take a trip, hm?” This excited you. You and Hyunjin had never hung out somewhere so publicly before. “It sounds so fun but what about STAY? What if we’re spotted together and the company finds out? You know what that could mean for your futur-.” Hyunjin stops your ranting by pulling you into a soft and reassuring kiss. “Baby listen, you’ve been there for me since we were 17. I’d give you everything you've ever wanted on this earth if it meant that I could call you mine. I don’t care if people find out about us. It's only ever been us. I'm sorry for not making this clear sooner.” You feel your throat tightening and tears welling up in your eyes. “Hyune….. Do you really mean that?” Hyunjin leans in closer and kisses you again. “Of course I mean it. If I have you, I feel like I have the whole wide world in my hands.” He wipes your tears gently and grabs you by your waist, quickly pulling you onto his lap to face him. All you both could do was smile sweetly at each other and giggle. You wrap your arms around his neck while his hands rest gently on your waist.

The dark lightning in your living room, mixed with Hyunjin's possessive eyes turned you on. You felt yourself getting wetter and decided to make the first move. You start by teasing him, rocking your hips back and forth on his clothed member. Just enough for him to feel the tension, but not too much to where it was obvious. “Y/N ie, What are you doing?” You look at him with a slight grin, knowing that your plan was quickly being put in motion. “Nothing…. I just missed you sooo…sooo much.” You talk low and sensually. Dragging out each and every word. The slow grinding pattern you started kicks up a bit, now making it obvious what your intentions are. “Ahshit… jagi don’t tease…” You look down at Hyunjin's clothed member, now hardening beneath you. “Awww babyyy.. Whats the matter?” You say in a teasing voice. Hyunjin looks up at you, trying hard to keep his composure. “Mmh fuck…. D-don’t start something you can’t finish.” You tilt your head at him. “You’re so pretty when you’re under me. So submissive.” Oh this sent him over the edge. A small whimper left his lips. “T-thats it. You wanna be a brat, fine.” 

Hyunjin moves swiftly. He ruts his hips up without warning, earning a gasp from you. “Get up.” He says sternly. The sweet look in his eyes quickly turned lustful. As you get up, Hyunjin stands up before you, towering over you. “Take them off.” He motions to the loose gray sweats he’s wearing. You look up at him, then back down to the waistband of the sweatpants. Your hand trembles as you fumble with the knot tied into them. “You’re shaking jagi… something wrong?” He says teasingly. “N-no… It's just a really uh… tight knot.” Hyunjin makes a noise somewhere between a scoff and laugh. “Someone gave up that cocky act quick, hmm?” You look back down and focus on the task at hand.

After untying the knot, you begin to pull his sweatpants down. The sight makes your clit wetter and your mouth water. Hyunjin grabs your wrist suddenly. “Aht aht, slower. You don’t get to be a brat and then rush into things.” You look up at him pouting, and now sexually frustrated. You resume pulling his sweats down, slower this time. “Now the underwear.” Hands trembling once again, you reach for the waistband of his underwear, pulling at it slightly, maintaining eye contact with Hyunjin. Revealing his hard member. Tip already licking with precum. “Good girl” he coos. 

“On your knees.” He demands. Your body listens before your mind can even process what he said. Hyunjin grabs your face and lifts it up until your eyes meet his. “One tap means you’re fine, two mean slow down, three mean you tap out, understood?” He reminded you of the system that you guys almost never used during sex. Looking up at him, you nod embarrassingly fast. “Use your words, jagi.” “Yes….” It came out quicker than anticipated. Hyunjin laughs. “So needy… go ahead, touch me.” You waste no time as you take his tip into your mouth, cleaning up the salty precum. Your hand strokes his member as you bob your head up and down, taking in more of his length each time. “Ahhhfuck, you feel so fucking good princess.” The praise makes you wetter, clenching around nothing and moaning on his dick. The vibrations send shockwaves up his body, causing his hips to rut forward, his length now hitting the back of your throat. You hold back tears and hollow your cheeks in attempts to take more of him. “Mhm just like that baby, so slutty for me. Choke on this dick.” The praises make you more eager. Your head bobs up and down faster to meet the pace of his hips. “Shittt baby, so desperate for this cock? You want me to fuck your face till I cum down your throat?” You nod your head eagerly. “Such a slut.” Hyunjin laughs. Hyunjin grabs the back of your head and moves his hips at a fast pace. The length and speed are too much for you to handle, but you try to hold out. “Mmmfuck….m’gonna cum. Just a little longer jagi.” Hearing that he was close motivated you to keep it up. 

You look up at Hyunjin. His face glistened with sweat, long hair sticking to his forehead. Eyes rolling back, Mouth hung open from the overwhelming pleasure. A few more seconds pass by and you feel Hyunjin's hips sputter. His warm cum shooting into your throat. “Swallow.” He demanded. You obey him and shiver a little as you feel it go down. He bends down to match your level. “Open” You open your mouth to show him that not a drop of his cum was left behind. “Good girl” he cooed.

He grabs your neck and pulls you into a kiss. Not nearly as sweet and innocent as it was previously. Your tongues glide together, spit mixing. Hyunjin breaks the kiss and rubs his thumb over your now swollen lips. “Now it's my turn.” He says with low, possessive eyes. In one swift motion, he picks you up and rests your back on the couch. He takes off his shirt, exposing his hard and glistening abs. Getting even wetter at the sight, you close your legs, seeking any friction you could get. Hyunjin quickly stops you, opening your legs even wider than before. “Patience, Jagi.” You whine at his words.

Hyunjin makes his way up to your neck. Kissing and marking you and he makes his way down. He lifts your white tank over your head, discarding it somewhere in your living room. He takes his hands and plays with your tits over your bra. You squirm under him. “Hyune please….m’sorry, ill never be a brat again just please… I need you.” Hyunjin looks down at you, almost condescendingly. “Oh my poor baby… but you see, it's just not that easy. You were being a brat, so I'm punishing you.” Hyunjin rips your bra down the middle. Taking both your nipples and rolling them in between his fingers. “Shi-fuck Hyune don’t stop…” Still squirming, he holds your legs down. “Be a good girl f’me and sit still yea?” You nod quickly. “Words, Jagi.” “Y-yes just don’t stop.” He takes one of your nipples into his mouth. Licking and sucking at it harshly. “Mmmh fuck hyune…” Your back now arching off the couch. He switches to the other nipple, sucking and letting it go with a loud pop. 

He leaves kisses down your stomach until he reaches the top of your shorts. He pulls them down painfully slowly, grinning cockily up at you. You whine in response. He laughs, pulling your shorts all the way off, revealing the wet spot in your panties, rubbing his thumb in circles over your clothed clit. “You’re fucking soaked…. All for me princess?” You moan in response to his words and touch. He lands a firm smack on one of your thighs rubbing his palm over it after. “I asked you a question, jagi… all wet for me hm?” You whine. “F-fuck yes baby, m’all yours.” Hyunjin smirks, “Just the answer I was looking for.” Hyunjin pulls your panties off and spreads your legs as far as possible. He starts with long, slow licks in between your folds. Your hips jerk up at the sudden action. Hyunjin holds you down again. “Move again, and I stop… understood?” ‘N-no don’t stop… fuck m’sorry hyune please.” “Ah jinja… so fucking pathetic.” He spits out. He continues the slow licks for a few more seconds before taking your whole clit into his mouth and sucking hard. “Mmhh fuck, its too much!” You try to pull away, but Hyunjin locks your legs in place, biceps flexing at the action. “Nuh uh, no running. You’re a big girl, you can take it jagi.” Tears well up in your eyes from the overwhelming pleasure. He continues on with his fast pace, 2 fingers slowly entering you. At this point, you're a moaning, crying mess. And Hyunjin loves every bit of it. “You look so fucking pretty like this Y/N ie. Coming all apart from just my tongue. Cmon baby, don’t hold back. Make a mess on my tongue.” Those words were all you needed to hear. The knot forming in your stomach came crashing down all over the couch, your thighs, and Hyunjin's face. He sucks up all of your release like he hasn't drank in days. “You taste so fucking good baby… could eat you out forvever.” 

Hyunjin notices the braids that have fallen on your face and quickly uses the black hair tie on his wrist to secure your hair back. “Better jagi?” “Mhm, thank you Hyune.” “Good… cause m’not done with you just yet. Stand up.” He demands. Legs shaking from previous events, you stand up. Hyunjin sits down on the couch and spreads his legs. “Cmon baby, sit.” He says, patting his lap. Your heart is beating fast, wondering if you have another one in you. I mean, bro has your legs shaking just by him eating you out. “Ah dont get shy on me now jagi.” You walk slowly towards him. Straddling his lap. “So since you talked all that shit earlier, let's see if you can back it up. M’ not helping you cum again.” You frowned at this. “Hyune please…. Don't be mean… my legs are alrea- he stops you by bringing two fingers into your mouth. You instantly suck down. “Listen closely… either you make yourself cum on my dick, or you use your weak ass fingers… your choice.” Hyunjin is your sweetheart of a boyfriend. But when you're bratty towards him, something in him snaps. The duality of this man is insane… He snatches his fingers out of your mouth. You moan from the loss of contact. “Answer me jagi… ill make you sit here watch me jack off.” “N-no! No Hyune ill fuck myself on your cock please..” A few tears fall from your eyes. “Awwww, Y/N ie isnt that brave afterall hm? Fucking pathetic.” 

You sit up a little, lining the tip of his cock with your entrance. You sink down slowly. The first stretch is slow, but painful. “Mmh-fuck Hyune… I-i can’t, shit.” Your eyes flutter closed. Hyunjin taps your leg. “Uht uh…. Let me see you. Eyes on me Y/n ie.” You open your eyes and brace yourself on his shoulders. After sitting on his cock for a few seconds, you finally begin to move up and down. Tits bouncing in his face. You start slow, controlled. “Ah-shit that's it jagi… use my dick. So fucking pretty.” “Hyune, shit-ah!” “I know baby I know… you can handle it.” Sounds of moaning and wet slapping fill the room as you speed up the pace. “M’gonna cum hyune….mmmfuck.” “Let go baby, cum all over my dick. Let everybody know who’s it is jagi.” Hyunjin grabs your waist, pulling you down on his cock even harder. Your head is spinning, your eyes are blurry from all the tears, and you feel the knot in your stomach forming again. You cum first, hard…all over Hyunjin’s dick. “Such a good fucking girl… m’gonna fill you up.” He meets you halfway by rutting his hips up, pushing his dick deeper inside you. “Ahh fuck baby, you’re so fucking tight.” Hyunjin’s head falls back as he cums inside of you. 

You both sit there for a minute, still holding each other. Hyunjin’s cock still lying inside of you. He eventually helps you up off his lap, a combination of your cum and his running down your thighs. He lays your back on the couch. “Don’t move, ill be right back jagi.” He comes back with a wet washcloth. He opens your legs slowly and cleans you up. You flinch, still being sensitive. “Mmm Hyune wait!” “ m’ sorry Y/N ie, did I hurt you? I'll be more gentle.” He finishes cleaning you up, and then wipes himself off. “Are you okay baby? You did so well f’me.” “I'm okay just…. Tired, and hungry.” He giggles, “Ahhh kiyowo. I’ll order some takeout.” He leans down, placing a kiss on your forehead. He lets you lay there for a bit while he plays with your long braids. 

“Cmon baby, we gotta get cleaned up forreal.” He picks you up bridal style, earning giggles from you. “Hyune wait- seriously if you drop me ill kill you.” “Aish jinja relax.” You both laugh. He sets you down in the bathroom and starts the water for the shower. He steps inside, motioning you to join him. You both get in the shower and admire one another. You pull Hyunjin down by the back of his neck and kiss him. He kisses back eagerly. “Chill jagi… unless you wanna go again?” A mischievous grin forms on your face as you turn around and bend over in front of him. Hyunjin’s eyes grow wide. He lands a firm smack on your ass. You laugh in response. “You don’t know the things you to do me…”