Ice Cream therapy// Chucelle & SmytheAdams
cleomchellewilson:
Cleo raised her eyebrows. “Tell me about it. I made a so big mess that I even messed up my relationship with Chuck.” She pouted. “He is worthy. But… I’m afraid we won’t… Go back being… Us. Not the old us, because I know that’s impossible. But… Just us.” She said. “I thought about it and I did say we were done. But… Deep down I didn’t want it, so… I feel like I cheated. And for Chuck, I think it hurts even more because it was Tony. He told me he thought Tony had feelings for me.” Cleo sighed. “No… Not really. I had a small glimpse of interest when we first met, but then I got to know him and it became a friendship. Maybe I just felt like I needed to be more experienced and Chuck had told me Tony liked me and I knew Tony. That is why I went to him.” Cleo giggled. “I know he didn’t mean to pressure me. And I was okay thinking about it, but after the fake pregnancy… How I felt about the baby… I realized I’m not ready to even think about it. Not now.” She shook her head. “Sometimes I feel like he is holding it in… That he’s not telling me all he feels about all this. Because he is too understanding. It’s the first time I have no clue what is in Chuck’s head and it scares me.” She sighed deeply. “Enough of sad talking.” She said and looked at Iris. “She doesn’t… Do much noise, does she?”
“I’ve been messing up all my relationships, up until Julian. And the last one ended because of Julian, so it doesn’t count much”, she shrugged. “Although, there was some fault on the guy’s part for sure”, she said. “No couple returns to what they used to be after a big change. Because both of you change and you change as a couple, as well. I believe I’ve changed after the pregnancy and after the birth, even more. So, is Julian”, she nodded at that. She rolled her eyes subtly at that. “I don’t think you’re that person, but all leads to the fact that you did it on purpose”, she pouted. “Deep down it’s on purpose”. “So, don’t think about it-it’s that simple”, she blinked. “He just needs time, you know”, she said and tapped her hand, taking her phone in her hand, so that she could text Julian the adress of the college building she is gonna be in, so that he’d meet her there and go to their house together. She looked at Iris that was half-sleeping. “Right now…yeah. In general, she’s a pretty demanding lady”, she changed her voice a little, and rearranged her blanket on the stroller.
Cleo sighed. "I'm used to boys messing up the relationship." She said. "That is why I said 'not the old us'. But... We were closer. And the change started with me. I didn't feel comfortable telling him about the sex stuff that I was thinking after we had our first time. And now I think there is an unspoken... Statement that there are things we can't talk to each other. And there shouldn't be." Cleo windened her eyes. Cleo pouted as well. "It is not simple. I didn't do it contiously on purpose. What I told you is what I have thought and concluded since it happened. But when it happened, it wasn't on purpose. It was me, going to a friend after breaking up with my boyfriend and letting things go to far." She said. "There is still something missing. Like... Why would I want, in any level, even deep down, do that? I haven't found a reason why yet, but I'll get there. And maybe if I understand it, I can fix it." She said. Cleo sighed again. "I know. And I'll give to him as much time as he needs." She smile lightly. Cleo saw Alli on her phone and raised her eyebrows. "Should I text Chuck to pick me up?" She asked and then glanced at Iris. "If you're saying so... I believe it."
