that night, fight night, was still a bit of a blur to her. she was just so furious, at the school, at herself, at willow. when she saw she was going up against the fae, the thought of injuring her wings wasn’t ever in her mind. tatiana knew the effect of damaging wings far too well, it was a subject she didn’t speak about. see, the blonde was part fae, and anyone who did some digging into maleficent’s past would find that out. but tatiana never really let anyone in on the trauma, the way her mother’s wings were ripped out of her back after she was drugged by stefan. it was what made her mom evil, which ultimately trickled down onto the way tatiana now functioned. when she was paired with willow, all she wanted to do was just beat the ever living fuck out of her for the way she treated her. the way she doubted just how big and bad she was. it was a long time coming, the wings got in her way, it was simple as that. a wrong move, an impulsive one, she didn’t set out to do that. it had just happened…
and she couldn’t take that back, it wasn’t possible, the damage was permanent and done and she had to live with it. but she hadn’t expected cleo to get this bad, to feel this deeply about the girl and the injury. hook, yeah, she saw that coming from miles away…but she really thought cleo would have not been as torn up about it. which only meant she really cared for willow, which almost made tatiana’s stomach turn. she would never understand that, how cleo would like someone who constantly ragged on her, not that she really cared it was just weird to process. “i know…” she murmured whenever cleo said it wasn’t like a broken leg, “you think i don’t know the damage i did? the minute it happened and the bell rung my win, i felt awful about it.” it was the truth, and she clenched her jaw as she looked down at her hands, tightness spreading throughout her chest.
she could feel her hands shaking before she balled them up, glancing back up at her friend, “i didn’t mean to do it, you know that right?” tatiana asked, eyes searching cleo’s face for something, anything, that showed she hadn’t given up on her. “i may hate that girl to bits, but you know i’d never take away someone’s wings like that. me of all people, my life, you know i wouldn’t do that. they got in the way in the middle of the fight and it happened, i can’t change that. and i know a lot of people might not believe me when i say it…..but you do, right?” tatiana’s voice had never taken this tone, so small, almost pleading to have the girl in front of her believe her and if it was anyone else, she wouldn’t have cared. but it was cleo, her cleo, the only person she had ever trusted or let in as much as she had. “i never, ever, wanted to hurt you. and you know that i don’t give a fuck about anyone, but i give a fuck about you. you’re…..all i have, cleo.”
after saying her piece she took a breath in. as if saying it out loud took a piece of her with the words. all of their lives they had been in sync. seemingly every thought. every plan. the people they disliked like and she strategically kept as friendly. they agreed on it all. but this. this was different. still, Cleo when her life long friend, her sister said her piece. blind rage was never something she understood. not from a personal viewpoint. all of her life she had controlled what she did. every step measured and calculated. her bluntness part of what she provided to the world. she didn’t play games. she didn’t leave room for misunderstandings. or she thought she didn’t. but she did know Tatiana had rage. even when they were young she would pull her friend from whatever ledge she had been at. whatever new thing set her off. they would talk it through. they would figure it out.
this was different. part of her wondered if it was her fault it had happened. they had been doing their own things. talking to their own people. figuring out their own lives. Cleo had been digging into school, into work, into the fashion world and wasn’t making as much time as she used to for Tati. hell, she was spending more time with Hook and Willow than her own best friend. maybe it would have been different if things had been different.
pushing the thought away, it didn’t due to dwell on the past. it couldn’t be changed. instead, she nodded her head if she believed her. a part of her did. truly did. she had seen the girl do things as if she had blacked out before. there was another part of her that knew she didn’t like the fae. never had. it would be easy to relay on previous behavior to cover it. “i believe you.” she added, willing herself to lead with that. focus on the part of her that trusted Tati not to lie to her. “accidents can be apologized for.” she continued as she leaned against her knees, towards the girl in front of her. the sound of her voice mirroring the one that asked for reassurance. “it won’t fix what happened but it’s something.”