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CLEOpatra carpenter. 20. cello on.

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silmoon:

“My god,” he muttered under his breath as he sat up, nausea setting in his stomach. Silas had just returned to the school after a brief visit back home; it was cut short and the bruised chin and cut lip were enough the explain why. His father had blacked out, something him and his mother could easily identify in his father’s behavior when it happened. He never hit him, this was the first time. And nothing felt worse than the feeling the altercation left him with. Since arriving back to campus, he hid out in his room and replayed that moment in his mind; tears rolling from his eyes and down his cheeks. 

Finding himself unable to remain locked up in his room any longer, Silas left his dorm and made way for the school store. He was sporting a fitted white shirt and his grey joggers, a few pieces of hair sticking up in a messy way. His appearance never bothered the lad though. Besides, all he really wanted was some snacks before returning to his room to watch a movie or something else. With a small container of hot cocoa mix he rounded the corner for another aisle, immediately bumping into another. “You scared the hell out of me,” Silas stated and looked to the other with a small smile. “Sorry. The store was super quiet… thought I was the only one. You on a snack run too?”

The girl was too in her moods to even enjoy anything outside of the cello, she was too busy either sulking or snappy to even get into an actual conversation with another human. The thought of home always lingering in her mind as she missed it dearly but her grandparents being who they were, didn’t allow her return, the one place that reminded her of safety - which should’ve been an understated to her - has been taken away and she wasn’t in the mood or had the heart to be nice to anyone who crossed her path in those moments. She was in the school store for god knows what as she didn’t even live on campus anymore. Maybe to pass by her time but she was reading labels and running her fingers across whatever when she bumped into another, making her face him as she definitely did not see him. “Maybe watch your steps next time,” she snapped in a growl before rolling her eyes. “No, I am not.”

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musiciancarson:

“Yeah, I guess that is very true.. but I also feel like there’s passion deep down in every person.” she states with a soft smile. “Pleasures all mine.” 

“Maybe so. Maybe I’m just used to what I know and what I’ve seen.” She thought about all the kids back home, none dedicated, only using their parents money because they could, the only one who actually cared about her music. “I’ll allow that only because it’s actually nice talking music with another human who gets it.”

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srslyainsley:

“And I promise that I’ll be try and steer you wrong.” Ainsley tells her with a soft smile across her face. “Aw, c’mon now.” she replies while shaking her head a bit. 

“Oh, I trust you on that,” she chuckled, it felt nice to her being able to laugh and be relaxed for once around someone and she was happy it was with Ainsley. “Don’t want to lie to you, after all.” She continued the joke.

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musiciancarson:

“That is sad to think about.. everyone should be really passionate in what they really love.” he replies while nodding his head, grinning at the girl. “I’m Carson.” 

“That’s very true but some have to work harder than others to feel that passion and some don't have it in them,” she mused. “Pleasant to meet you, Carson.”

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srslyainsley:

“I’m happy that you do actually trust me..” Ainsley trails off while sending the girl a soft smile, it was nice knowing that she was able to gain another person’s trust that wasn’t in her family. “No need to thank me at all.” 

“Always, you haven’t steered me wrong,” Cleopatra spoke confidently. “I can’t make any promises.” She joked with a chuckle.

[chrishemsworht]

cheryl blossom in season two  ↳ chapter fourteen: a kiss before dying

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musiciancarson:

Carson smiles listening to what the girl said. “Yeah, exactly.. it’s a really strong powerful feeling and I’m happy to hear that someone else gets it and I’m not the only one who gets lost in my own music.” 

“You would expect for more people to feel that way with so many passionate people but the sad reality is that not everyone, no matter the passion gets that feeling,” she spoke softly before giving him a small smile, “Cleopatra.”

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srslyainsley:

“That’s a lot of belief you have in me.” Ainsley states while giving the girl a soft smile. “And I want the same for you.” 

“Growing up was... weird but I learned when to trust and put my faith into someone and I trust you,” Cleopatra admitted with a smile. “Thank you so much.”

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musiciancarson:

Carson listens to the girl before letting out a chuckle and shaking his head. “No need to apologize, it’s fine.. trust me if anyone understands getting lost into music, it’s me.. I’ve literally been so deep into music sometimes that I zone out people.” he admits. 

Hearing his words made her nod, she understood that well, doing it herself more than she was willing to admit to a stranger. “I think that’s when you realise that music is your true calling, when it makes you feel like the only person in the world while singing, writing, creating or performing it.”

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srslyainsley:

“And I sure hope that I don’t ever do so.” Ainsley says as she sends the girl a soft smile knowing that she wants nothing, but the best for her no matter what. “You’ll do that for me?” 

“I doubt you will,” Cleopatra told her hopefully -- something that was rare with the girl but she couldn’t help it. “Yeah, I want you healthy and happy.”

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musiciancarson:

Carson requested a room to write his music considering he could never write with his roommate in the room, he would never leave him alone and he was kinda glad that he was moving out soon. When he entered the room though, he still saw the person previously still in there causing him to rise an eyebrow. “Yeah, you did.” he replies while nodding his head, chuckling a bit. 

Cleopatra got up, holding her so it wouldn’t fall before grabbing her phone and pausing the music. “I just want to formally apologise for taking your time,” she told him as she pocketed her phone and put the cello in it’s case. “I got lost in my music which can be an extremely bad habit when someone is waiting on you,” she told him before looking at him. “I think I should stop talking now,” she huffed.

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srslyainsley:

“I’m happy to hear that you do trust my judgement and all.” she tells her friend with a soft smile growing upon her lips. She knew that her and Cleo had a special type of bonding and it was like no other and she appreciated the girl a whole lot. “That’s nice to know. Yeah.. I know, thank you.” 

“Well, you never steered me wrong before,” Cleopatra admitted even though they didn’t spend an ample amount of time together, but the time they did it never made her feel down only less alone. “If you ever need a doctor, I got you. It’s no problem at all, just a small reminder, okay?”

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@musiciancarson

Cleopatra dealt with the lonely and preferred it a bit more so when she was able to take time to herself in the music room with just her cello, she always did so. Of course, she could always take it home and do so but something always told her to do so in that room and she didn’t get why but it felt like magic each time, bringing a smile to her face as her mood lifted. It was easy for her to caught up in the piece she played as the official version played from her phone, it was almost shattering when she heard the door making her open her eyes, and pause the music. “I stayed too long, didn’t I?” She asked, remembering someone saying they would be using the room soon, but she wasn’t sure if it was the boy standing in the doorway or not.

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srslyainsley:

“They are beyond delicious, I promise you.” Ainsley tells the girl while sending her to a soft smile as she made eye contact with her once again. She enjoyed her friendship she had with the girl, she knew that neither of them would judge one another and that’s just how it went. “Oh, yikes.. well did you get medicine to make you feel better? I don’t know.. I guess I’m just having an off day?” 

“I trust your judgement.” She admitted which was rare for Cleopatra to admit something like that. She wasn’t one to really trust anyone but since that day, she worried for and trusted Ainsley. It was easy for Cleopatra to be more open than closed around her. “Yeah, my family actually have a doctor here so I did a house call. Just know, you are allowed to have off days, okay?”

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srslyainsley:

“Oh wow… I totally need to get you on the taco life because they’re more than delicious.” she tells the girl with a grin upon her face as she pulls her along. Sure it was weird that she never tried them before, but she wasn’t going to judge. “Yikes.. that sounds bad, what gave you food poisoning? Eh.. I’m okay, I guess you could say..” 

“I’ve only heard good things about them,” Cleo admitted as she followed behind Ainsley. She was happy about the fact Ainsley hasn't judged her for her confession as practically anyone else would have. “I did, I found out I do not know how to cook at all. What’s wrong?”

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You killed my best friend.