Cloe had stared at the unpacked bag in the room she had stayed in inside the Staff Building. Her brows were furrowed and her lips were pressed together. She decided to stand up and go visit Bust inside the Biology Lab. The travel was long, probably more than ten minutes, and the moment she stepped into the floor of where the Laboratory was located, the school bell rang. Perfect. Then it was just a matter of second until the trainees would come out of the rooms. She then battled her way towards the room she was aiming to go to. People gave her space and she didn't know why since they usually just bump into her, and the looks that they were giving her was stranger that usual. It was so unusual. Everything about this was unusual.Â
"Why are you looking at me like that?" she glared at them--that was so not her, but she couldn't help it, she was easily irritated ever since that day she encountered Felicia and after that Jane. She hated them now. That was what it felt like anyways. She was angry at them and they probably were angrier to her, but she didn't care. She thought that maybe they really wouldn't remember her since just a few years they would leave Cromwell and she would be left here. Stuck there. She wanted to leave, she wished her father didn't left her here again. It was way more fun outside there in the world where Gods and Goddesses don't exist, monsters were people, the enemy were still the people, and not some real monsters they had to deal with. Being human and god at the same time was difficult. It didn't make her comfortable. It made her want to puke and scream.
"Cloe, did you dye your hair?" She heard Bust's voice. She was already inside the Laboratory and she didn't even notice. She looked up at saw how confused Bust looked like. "You're playing with the mist, you've got a strong grip on it."
"Huh?" she then sat on a table and sighed. "Can't Hecate kids only do that, or Iris kids, or I don't know what mumbo jumbo-- I just, I don't know..." she sighed and looked down at her hands. "Seshat can't do that, right, I mean she can, she's a goddess...but her children are not powerful. We don't possess any ability because she sucks balls."
Bust laughed and was about to ruffle her hair, but the man remembered how Cloe didn't like to get her hair ruined. "You don't sound like a daughter of Seshat, sometimes, y'know?"
"You're not even supposed to be that smart, you're just full of wisdom and stuff like that. Your Godly parent doesn't define you, Bust." she felt even down now, her hair turned darker, black, it was supposed to be brown, not black. Her skin turned paler, and her eyes bluer than before. "I don't want to be attached to it."
"You're more attached to it more than you ever imagined, Clo." he smiled and tucked a stray strand of the younger girl's hair behind her ear.
"You don't understand, Bust. All I've ever felt is confusion and sometimes I start to question my identity. Maybe my identity is truly defined by my Godly parent. Do you know the countless times I was asked if I was truly a daughter of Seshat? They expect me to be like Mr. Griffith, a man of words, a man of knowledge, a man whose tongue speak a hundred thousand knowledge. Supposedly I should be not attached to my emotions because emotions are hindrance to knowledge. Mr. Griffith doesn't show much emotion because he doesn't know to. Felicia is like that as well. And I'm here. You're seeing me control the mist. But I don't know how to. It's just swirling around me like it's attached to me. Seshat don't control it. Who am I, Bust?" she stared at the man, and she couldn't find the answer. But she somehow felt better.