Untitled @cloud-enigma-blog - Tumblr Blog

Posts

Hey, uh, so I recently actually *read* "I Have No Mouth And I Must Scream", instead of engaging with adaptations or secondhand accounts of it.

The casual misogyny? Multiple men, one woman, trapped in eternity? And, "she allows them in turns,"? She's beaten for crying while she watches one of those men being tortured and mutilated because he sought escape? But you want me to feel sorry for the man who was turned into slime? A man who would kick a woman *because* she was crying?

Misogyny is not new. What is new, however, is that more women don't have to put up with it to survive. A man's paycheck no longer earns him a house and reproductive slave around here. Women are feeling lonely, but doing okay. Men are feeling lonely and crashing the *fuck* out because they don't have a woman to be mommy/bangmaid/therapist like their fathers and grandfathers told em about.

Sooooo...very...not sorry. Our grandmothers and mothers warned us about you. They told us to make our own money so we could run away if we had to. They told us the red flags, even if they didn't realize they were doing it at the time.

The birth rate is declining because fewer teenage girls are getting pregnant by adult males, and adult women are choosing to have fewer or no children. Because of men. BECAUSE OF MEN.

"Haha. Your body my choice!"

"Repeal the 19th!"

"Get back in the kitchen and make me a sandwich!"

Also, males, the "logical" sex, generally want to have their dick sucked. They generally want to have sex with women. However! If a woman sucks a dick, or has sex with a man, she is now dirty! Filthy! She should be punished! Humiliated! While the males continue to jerk off to her.

It really sucks when you want to talk about, or just name what's going on, but you can't actually say it to anyone because they'd overreact because no one believes that it's been here for about 2 decades at this point, but you're still here. But now you're "at the age where certain mental illnesses start to show". And so now you can't even say it to people you said it to before. Otherwise there's a mandatory vacation and you lose everything that was going great in life.

I've had extended periods of wishing my existence was erased since I was 6 or 7. I've researched and made actual plans since I was 13 or 14. This past year I've been researching local fosters and the process of rehoming a cat.

But now I've become attached to the small business I now work for, and I would feel guilty if I didn't train a replacement.

I just have conditions that have to be met.

Honestly, I should really just kill myself before this process is set into motion

A lot of "trans" kids act that way because their parents are very restrictive and uphold gender roles in their house.("I'd rather have a straight son than a lesbian daughter" typa shit) If that kid could've dressed how they wanted, and played with the toys/video games they wanted, and taken up the extracurriculars they wanted, there would be no distress in the child from this angle, and no need for them to seek escape into another identity

Yeah! Yeah, sure, I'd be a fucking great parent. In between all the times I took the baby to the nearest safe haven or did whatever else worse when I snap.

I'm only so good at my job now because I was neurotic in school. Great studier, great test taker, great at answering any question that concerned the subject. At my job, I have been given a giant, open "book", fill in the blanks test. The book is the records of taxes available on the internet. And with this job, I've learned more about how to manipulate search engines, and new (to me) functions of Excel. I lost an entire spreadsheet that I had spent a couple hours on the previous day, but, next day, it took me a half hour to get it back to where it started, and another half hour to do the work needed to clean the sheet and get it ready. I'm developing Excel formulas to deal with all the different account number formats

I really feel like I should suggest that my job hire another person for my position. It requires neurodivergence and OCD, a desire to learn, and a desire to fill in the blanks with an open book test. Then, when they've got someone as good as me...I will just clock out permanently. My father figure has decided to check out of medical treatment

Things I would love to share on Facebook:

So excited to rent because I can just report the problem I'm having. No run around with a bank that doesn't accept death certificates and heir affidavits to give you access to the financial records of the accounts, or let you file an insurance claim, and, btw, they won't even tell me if she had a safe deposit box, when I know she had one, and I'm pretty sure the actual will was in it. But Wells Fargo is shit and uncooperative.

And anybody renting to me should see that I have low standards if they come into my house. I will explain to them that I've mostly always taken better care of other people's stuff than mine. I could tell them the trauma that happens when your only parent dies and you are never taught anything financially, or home care wise, and the rest of the family just fucking drops you. I will never forget that I was the last person in the hall where Mom's funeral/memorial took place. Literally everyone left me behind while I was clutching her urn and a yellow rose.

Didn't have a license or car, so I legit would've been stuck at the funeral home.

I am not meant for this goddamned world!! The future is the brightest it's ever been for me! And I hate it! The people around me are dragging me kicking and screaming to a better life! WTF is wrong with me?!

Is it not sketchy that my employer is working with his buddy to only give me enough money to pay off my mortgage that I never really signed anything on, and a stipulation on that agreement is that I rent from the buddy?

And also, all of the managers and owners are planning it as a surprise for me. I don't like surprises unless they're on special dates. I DO NOT like life changing surprises.

Okay, they're gonna furnish it for me too, but then it will be new for both me and my senior cat at the same time.

I'm not mad about them doing this. I just wish they would ask me my preferences for a space I plan to be living in for as long as possible.

Super great that I'm, like, best friends with my boss's husband. I overheard something the other day that had been been stressing me out. I heard the big boss say, "excessive bathroom breaks," as I was walking past. I assumed it was about me, cause I've been having a pretty bad time since they changed my antidepressant, some days I have to go for a cumulative 40 minutes a day, outside of scheduled breaks. I've been preparing arguments and rebuttals for my employers *and* my doctor(to get ADA paperwork) for like 3 days. Message her husband that I feel like we're gonna have a meeting about bathroom breaks, or they're gonna talk to me specifically...5 minutes later and I was told it wasn't about me. Fantastic! I will continue on with my behavior, and use my same prepared arguments if it ever becomes an issue in the future. Like, I've been at this job, and sourcing my own food, for about a year now. My GI tract was the most predictable and controllable when I was eating ramen for every meal. Now that I'm eating prepped meals that consist of the same ingredients you can find in the store, and trying to get fiber, vitamins, and minerals into every meal, with fruit, bread, and butter, since I spilt those deli meals into two, my bowels are not predictable.

Anyone else have multiple sets of earbuds? Like, I spend ~$30 per set. I have my noise cancelling set that fits in-ear, that I use when I use machinery. I have my open earbuds that I use every day. And then I use either super soft wired buds, or a sleep mask that has bluetooth speakers in it when the sun is still up and I'm trying to sleep. I just had to replace my everyday ones, and I figure 8 hours a day/6 days a week, $25, lasted two years with that much use.... I got my money out of it. I'm quite happy that I was actually able to find the same model, but I'm trying others so I can adapt. Also, controls are important to earbuds. I couldn't change the volume with the most recent earbuds that were delivered, and it ruined my day. I had to carry my phone around because the playlist I had switched between extremes of volume. I guess that's what I get for a $10 wireless earbud. Found a new interesting style in my favorite color and I'm trying it now. It's good. Volume is normal and controllable, but the controls are on the backside of my ear. Super different from everything else.

Someone I know is preggers in the worst possible situation for everyone involved. The grandma wants to talk to me tomorrow with all the details.

When I was doing temp work, I signed on to build all of the shelves that would go in a store. I got reported for yelling/shouting at a woman(because I wanted to be heard over the fucking jackhammers in the store) while I was trying to tell her that she was stripping the screw and damaging the drill bit. But, she had had 4 kids, which negated all of the decades of experience I'd gained with my own life, which involved actually using and taking care of power tools, and doing carpentry, but she knew everything about everything, because she had multiple kids, and had a problem with me making my voice audible while the other side of the store was still being constructed, with industrial construction tools. And I got reprimanded by the temp agency. AFTER I had actually gotten a ride specifically to deliver her paycheck for the job.

The contractor on site would've hired me if I'd had a driver's license.

I will never deny that I yelled, but industrial power tools were being used. It was fucking loud. And she didn't respond the first couple of times. While I'm looking at the screw and bit and seeing peeling. I'm yelling at her to apply more pressure, lean into it, because the bit is the right size. The other women got pissed, told me to do it, and I finished everything in less time than they took to not finish the first task.

Like, no, sorry, changing diapers for a decade because you couldn't figure out birth control does not make you an expert in any field. Someone who was taught how to use power tools, starting at age 6 and working up to the more dangerous stuff, should be listened to. Like, I used my first drill at age 6. You don't even know what the different buttons on the drill are for. You don't know how to change a bit. But I should listen to you because you changed diapers for your 5 kids? From different baby daddies?

I never mentioned race, but who do you picture doing this?

I will only ever date or marry a guy like my previous boss. Yeah, he gets blow jobs on the side cause she doesn't really want anything to do with him sexually anymore. Menopause and other health issues between the two. But he still does the laundry and dishes, takes out the trash, cooks multiple times a week for her, runs all sorts of errands, basically does whatever she wants or needs immediately. Still does all the little things that made her fall in love with him. You're telling me I get all the benefits of a partner, and I don't have to be on my knees, ever? Like, the only concern would be to make sure he wears protection every time. But I understand the appeal now. Like, go! We can have an open relationship and we'll see how many 19 yr olds are into you, versus the 20 somethings that are into me.

Used all the alarms that my phone offers, had to download an app to make more alarms.

If I were to ever have children, I would be the first to call CPS to come take them away

Okay, so the hybrid and electric cars sound like ghosts. They sound like tortured spirits when they pass by me in the parking garage. Cars should sound like the creatures they are. They need maintenance, regular intake of fluids. The EVs just spread their wail.

Trending Blogs

Recently Viewed Blogs

Untitled