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I am "don't ever put identifying information on the internet" old okay, fuck, I was born in the first 5 years after 1990. I seem to be part of the only generation who learned Internet safety (and computer skills), even though I disregard it regularly

[cloud-enigma-blog]

Hmm. I've been working for small businesses for 11 years now. My previous job, it was just me, I was basically salaried and could work whatever hours I wanted as long as I got everything done, but I had to be there to ship the products every morning except Sunday.

I'm working for a different small business now, bigger, 8 including me, and we're looking at temps. I still get the understanding and flexibility, but now I have benefits and paid days off? Paid vacation? Paid holidays? Regular lunches out at restaurants and regular catering? Free snacks? And several people, including me, have dealt with loss of a loved one since I've been hired, and the way they handle it is amazing? Bereavement leave for the unexpected loss of my pet?! A card signed by everyone too?

The boss called me in for a meeting, and I was worried I had fucked something up. No, we talked about how the current project is taking so long because I'm having to go in and clean up thousands of lines of data input by people unfamiliar with the process, and download documentation of my sources. I was told that I shouldn't have to be doing that and I need to report that to the main manager. He also offered his contacts' services to sell my house and find me a rent house, and help furnish it. And then he gave me a raise?! The meeting was great, he kept praising me for how much I've streamlined the processes in the office and that he couldn't have found a better person for my position, and how much relief I've given the other people in the office. My position is a new one in the company. I'm the one that adds all of the data to our specific program. When a new customer comes, I completely set them up in our system now.

So, like, the next day, I made a cheat sheet based on the training papers given to me, customized for the project, and opened myself up to questions from everybody in the office. I actually like it. I do enjoy teaching, but I could never do it all day. But also, walking the people who ask through my process means that I have far less to do on the other end.

Also, the other day, I literally taught the big manager how to use a function in our system. Like, I'm on par with my managers' and business owner's knowledge of the system we use.

The office people are impressed by the fact that I can fix every office machine and find all the tax documentation. It's because I look for it. I look for the machine manuals. I go through at least 4 legitimate looking sites trying to find the info I'm looking for. I was trained to fill in the blanks on the pre-formatted spreadsheet. So I find enough information to fill in the blanks.

[cloud-enigma-blog]

How easy would it be to kidnap a package pirate if you had a window-less van with the Amazon delivery sticker on the side? Those are the ones delivering in my area.

[cloud-enigma-blog]

In Sunrise on the Reaping, songs are so prevalent, especially "nonsense" kids songs. Just realized I sing a very simple, childish song when it rains inside my house. I will sing it over and over and get louder and louder as the rain gets heavier.

[hollowboobtheory]

"What if we find a way to keep fetuses alive outside the womb" that already exists, it's called the NICU and it took decades of advancements in medical science and technology. it takes an entire team equipped with state of the art technology to keep a fetus alive outside the womb. because it cannot perform basic life-supporting functions like breathing on its own. this isn't an anti-NICU post tbc. I'm actually considering the nicu as an option after going back to school because I really like fetuses and babies, I think they're neat. but the fact remains that it takes an entire team of doctors, nurses, respiratory therapists, and more to keep a micropreemie alive. and most abortions occur even before the point that it becomes possible at all. "viable" doesn't mean ready to be born. it means it is possible to keep it alive thanks to medical science developed by the same "abortionists" whose executions you're always calling for.

[hollowboobtheory]

also, it's not an "after birth abortion" when they "let" micropreemies die, it's fucking hospice care.

[borntomeowworldisafuck]

absolutely. and to add onto this, i was a nicu baby, and i was a late term abortion. when i was still in the womb i was dying inside my mother, so they had to induce her extremely prematurely to save our lives. there was a very high chance of me dying because they took me outside of the womb before they knew if i could survive on my own, but the chances of me and my mother dying if i stayed inside her were 100%.

the procedure to remove me is medically and legally a late term abortion. i was aborted, and it saved my life. if they hadn’t aborted me, my mother and i would both be dead, my siblings would have been left with a dead mother, and i would have never even gotten a chance to live a single day. and now, people are being denied this procedure and dying because it’s literally an abortion!! mothers and their babies are being killed because their doctors are not allowed to perform life-saving abortions.

on the same note, my sister was recently denied an abortion. which is to say, cleaning out the already dead fetus after she had a miscarriage from a wanted pregnancy. they refused treatment unless the DEAD fetus was actively killing her, because the procedure to remove it is medically and legally an abortion. they basically said to her “come back when you’re dying of an infection or sepsis or something, until then you just have to bleed out.” my sister could have died from this, people HAVE died from being denied abortions after having a miscarriage. if she was one of these people, my sister would have been dead, my mother would have to live the rest of her life without her daughter, and my nephew would have had to live the rest of his life without a mother.

sick and tired of people saying to me “yeah, but that’s different. you can’t really call those procedures an abortion, they’re not really an abortion.” yes it is. it’s an abortion. any procedure that entails unnaturally removing a fetus and/or baby from the womb before they’re sure it can survive outside of it is an abortion. if it wasn’t, people wouldn’t be being told that, sorry! we can’t do that! you’ll have to come back when you’re already dead. i was aborted, my mother had an abortion when she was pregnant with me, my sister needed an abortion after she had a miscarriage. all of these things are ABORTIONS! and now mothers and babies are being killed, murdered by these anti-abortionist fuckers and the laws they put in place to “save and protect poor, innocent lives!”

[gigglepuffpixie-pol]

the procedure to remove me is medically and legally a late term abortion

read it, now read it again.

this procedure is an abortion from a legal and medical standpoint. laws that target "abortion" include this and more.

miscarriages are abortions ffs

and Shirley Exemptions are no way to protect anything

abortion is healthcare

[hollowboobtheory]

thank you for bringing up the Shirley exceptions because i think people don't realize when they say "surely that would be an exception" what they're really saying is "surely the doctor would put their ass on the line and risk life in prison for me" which is a pretty bold thing to just assume

if there are going to be exceptions, the legislation needs to clearly lay them out, say which specific procedures are permissible in which specific circumstance. but that would require actually understanding the medical science related to pregnancy so we all know that's not happening

[kawaii-pigeon]

My cousin had a miscarriage and had sepsis. They wouldn't do shit for her in Texas, so she had to cross the board to get it done in Mexico so she yknow, wouldn't die.

They straight up do not care that people have, will, and continue to die. Especially the 'wrong' kinds of people.

And keep in mind the people signing these bills, rich mfs that they are? They'll always ALWAYS have access to getting their mistresses, daughters, anybody THEY want, to get an abortion.

Sickening.

[scififantasystuff]

One of my best friends works in an ER in a state where there hasn't been a ruling on abortion in almost 100 years, but because that law is anti-abortion unless the life of the mother is under *eminent threat* they cannot perform ANY abortion procedures until you are actively going under.

They had a woman come in maybe 2 months after Roe v Wade was overturned. She was a day or so post-miscarriage. It was her 2nd miscarriage. She and her husband had been trying for YEARS. They were paying THOUSANDS for fertility treatments and thought it would work this time. She was sobbing. Her husband was sobbing.

But more importantly... they came in because she had just collapsed and was having bouts of dizziness.

An ultrasound my friend performed confirmed 2 things:

She had had an incomplete natural evacuation. There was still a fair amount of tissue in her uterus, which would definitely be decomposing by that point (the uterus is not a sterile environment).

There was no heartbeat. None. Not a single contracting cell.

They called Legal, because they knew exactly what was going to happen. This woman, unless given an artificial evacuation (aka... an abortion), would become septic. Legal said, "You can't until her vitals drop. In the eyes of the law, if she could technically pass the tissue naturally until the moment before you intervene, you have performed a medically unnecessary abortion. Anyone who assists will be stripped of their medical credentials and put on trial for murder, and the hospital cannot defend you and will not be held responsible."

There was nothing the woman or the family could sign. There was no loophole. My friend went over the vitals collected by her nurse all night, but she hadn't crashed yet. Just slowly became more and more delirious from the infection spreading from the dead tissue. The only medications they could even give to ease her suffering were meds/doses approved for actively pregnant women.

Her husband could only sit there and watch.

When the woman's blood pressure suddenly dropped, they rushed her into the OR for the evacuation/abortion, which they'd had prepped for her. At that point, my friend's line of care was over. The doctors who took over the case said she was being recommended to internal surgery because her uterine tissue has started going necrotic as well, and would need to be removed.

This meant her chance to have her own baby would drop to almost nothing.

Before Roe v Wade was overturned, this would have been an upsetting in-and-out trip to the ER after a terrible, terrible day. My friend barely would have batted an eye after the 5 minutes of sympathy she could have afforded before moving to the next patient.

But because it happened after, this woman lost her baby, nearly lost her life, and permanently lost any ability to carry a child to term in one long, shitty, horrific weekend. Infections like that are extremely damaging to the body as well; she may have permanent side effects.

FOR DEAD TISSUE. Dead. The baby was dead already. It was already gone. It was so dead and gone that it was ROTTING inside her.

While much less damaging, my friend and her team were permanently scarred by this event. She'd been in this small town ER for almost a decade by that point, she went through the COVID shutdown in that hospital, she's seen UGLY, haunting things and told me the HIPPA versions with a completely straight face.

She could barely get the words out on this story. She choked on the guilt. She cried, and she'd never cried over a medical story to me before.

I told a Pro-Life woman this story once. I told her, "If your daughter has complications with her pregnancy, you have to get her to [state where abortion is legal] immediately, no matter what it costs. This is what is happening here."

She cried. She cried just hearing about it, third-hand. Because of course she did. It's horrifying. It's undeniably WRONG.

And when she claimed that this must have been some cruel twist of a law taken too far, some unfortunate, unforeseen side effect... I reminded her that this is what was happening before Roe v. Wade, and in living memory of the Supreme Court and sitting members of congress. Because Roe v Wade was ruled on in 1973. And those old fucks all remember 1972.

They just don't care about making exceptions, because exceptions mean loopholes to them, and what's the trauma of a few unknown nobodies to politicians when they have their pearls to clutch and votes to secure?

I think I changed her mind that day, but it's difficult to care when people are still dying for and/or having their lives turned upside-down over dead tissue.

[cloud-enigma-blog]

Paralives is $40 in terrible early access and they said they would charge more for the full release.

Yoho yoho a [redacted]'s life for me.

[cloud-enigma-blog]

Like...when you've raised your pet since she could eat solid food or before, you've raised a child. Parents will say it can't compare, but you raised that creature and have been their world for their entire life. That loss is real. They are my babies. They are my reason for living.

[cloud-enigma-blog]

My uncle's cat is in such bad shape. She's lost some weight, but she's still not grooming, and if she's losing weight while he's still feeding her the same amount of terrible diet, then we're getting there. I'm moving into town, 10-20 minutes away from him, asap. If I don't need rides from him, and his cat dies, he'll probably die shortly afterward. He's diabetic and his legs are already purple. I'm cleaning my house and packing. I'm the only reason he gets out of his house except for appointments and grocery shopping.

He has made me hate him, though. He had, AND LIVED WITH, his parents into his sixties and he didn't mow the fucking yard until his father was in hospice care. He still doesn't know how to use an oven, let alone a smart TV.

I literally got prescribed a beta blocker so I wouldn't stroke out in his truck due to his petty asshole behavior. Let's drive up alongside the car that's trying to merge onto the highway, almost forcing them off the road, even when the passing lane is wide the fuck open. Let's get up close enough to this person's ass so that you have to actually slow down to join the passing lane. Let's not slow down when a semi has to enter our passing lane because someone's trying to merge onto the goddamn freeway. Let's ride a person's ass so close that their license plate isn't visible in the passing lane at GODDAMN 75MPH. SO THAT IF THEY EVEN TAPPED THEIR BRAKE, WE WOULD HAVE CRASHED.

He parks so close to the handicapped spot that if an actual handicapped driver parked there, they wouldn't be able to open their door, and that's if he doesn't just park in the handicap spot, even though I can walk and need the exercise, and he has no placard or license plate or anything.

He committed a hit and run while I was in the car with him, and I totally threw him under the bus when the victim contacted me.

Moral of the story, he is so fucking reckless in his vehicle

[tuiskuh]

As a woman who is both gender non-conforming and who is planning a pregnancy in the near future AND who works with children, I am very invested in the conversation about the confines of femininity, the complexities of motherhood and the fascistic expectation of women to have children. I also often find it deeply frustrating.

I do not think it should need to be said, but unfortunately it absolutely is, that nobody should ever be forced to become pregnant, be a parent or carry a pregnancy to term. Ever. This requires both complete and total abortion rights & access but also the dismantling of the gendered expectation of women to want and need children. Remaining child free should not only be possible for women, it should also be normal and completely accepted. Anything else is oppressive.

However, I am deeply bothered by how many people who share these views talk about children. I have come across many posts describing children in cruel and dehumanizing ways, emphasizing how gross and terrible children are and how much of a burden they are to their parents. This, I think is also wrong.

Children are a particularly vulnerable population. They often have very little rights and autonomy and are at the whims of adults around them, which makes then particularly vulnerable to abuse. Children are real, fully realized people who have very specific needs and considerations. Constantly discussing how disgusting and terrible children are, means attacking people who have no power and cannot defend themselves, legally or otherwise. These views cannot be separated from calls to remove children from public life, like parks and transportation, the practice of which is both dehumanizing and oppressive. This goes hand in hand with the gendered oppression of women who are unfortunately still often the primary caregivers of children. Forcing children out of the public sphere means forcing mothers out of it too. And the right to not have children needs to go hand in hand with the right to have children. Women need abortion rights and access but they also need the right and access to give birth for free. They need robust childcare and child & family friendly infrastructure. Otherwise the only people who can afford to have children are wealthy elites.

The rights of women to not have children and the rights of children and mothers go hand in hand. They are not contradictory. Being a parent is a complex relationship, one wrought with a long history of violence and oppression of children and women. It is not easy to navigate, and nobody should be expected to do it. Simultaneously, the people who do decide to do it deserve help and support, not scorn or mockery. And most of all, children, all children, even the annoying, dirty and screaming ones deserve a safe loving world that sees their full humanity, respects their perspectives and their bodily autonomy. We are all a part of creating that world for them. Society should be about being good to each other, and that includes children too.

[cloud-enigma-blog]

My youngest coworker has a doppleganger in the haunted, century old building. She talked about somebody unseen duplicating her whistle exactly while she was in the stairwell. One day I'm off to break, waiting for the elevator, and she passes behind me, I assume, to the bathroom up a flight of stairs. I go down a floor in the elevator to get to the parking garage. She passes me, going into the building, with stuff in her hands. I haven't told anyone in real life of this. She's unmistakable and there is only one other office that opens into that corner where our door lets out. She's the only over 6' woman in the building with long black hair. And yet I saw her on the 4th floor and assumed she was going up the stairs to the bathroom, cause she smiled at me waiting for the elevator while she walked past, took the elevator to the 3rd floor connection to the parking garage, and she's coming into the building with a handful of decorations. Been freaked out since. Waiting for when I dream about this office and the things happening within.

[theconcealedweapon]

[maarvarq]

Always bear in mind that there is absolutely no legitimate evidence that Luigi was actually the one who killed the insurance company guy.

[theconcealedweapon]

Of course he wasn't. He was at a party with me that day.

[tiny-space-whale]

No but like literally, actually. All bits aside.

He didn't do it.

The cops very clearly planted evidence on him because they had to make an arrest because all eyes were on them and whoever actually did the deed was making them look stupid.

Why would the real killer hero have kept the weapon on his person and traveled two states over while carrying it and a manifesto in his bag, conveniently turning the crime into a federal matter? The same guy whose bag they found in a park, filled with monopoly money? Why did the police turn off their bodycams, take Luigi's stuff, drive a block away, turn their bodycams back on, go back into the restaurant, and then arrest him?

From the moment of his arrest, even left-of-center media has been presuming his guilt without examining anything (e.g. calling him "the killer" instead of "alleged" or "accused") and then when I say he didn't do it, the nearest person chimes in with some quip that tells me they think he did do it but should go free anyway. Don't get me wrong, I would have the same attitude if he had done it. But he didn't. It makes me feel like the only sane person in the world, even among my staunchly leftist friends.

[gnomebutch]

there’s no such thing as tmi. let’s overshare together ❤️

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Voting ended onMay 26

[cloud-enigma-blog]

Ano was rampant in my school. I was one of the very few girls who actually ate lunch, let alone breakfast. They advised me to stop eating and drinking water in order to lose weight. Meanwhile Mom is on weight watchers and Grandma is giving me adult portions every day and expecting me to clean my plate. Suffice to say I don't have a healthy relationship with food, along with like, what appears to be 87% of other women and girls.

[cloud-enigma-blog]

Hey, so my mental health prescriber has suddenly become concerned about the interactions with another prescription that I've been on for over a decade. She's saying they can't really treat me seriously because the medication is technically an antidepressant that's been around for decades. Even though I've been on this combo of meds for years at this point. Just ran out of meds because of a snow storm and bureaucracy. Suddenly I'm on a tenth of my anti and a third of my sleep med. Thank you sooooo much. I need to ask if these side effects affect lifespan or quality of life.

[cloud-enigma-blog]

I want a kitten with big paws that wants to be attached. S/he will be accustomed to sleeping on either my chest or my back. Weighted blankets are great, but nothing can compare to a ≥20lb cat purring over your spine.

[cloud-enigma-blog]

My senior cat has been way more active and talkative since the junior died. I stayed home the other day and she was up my ass. She's not doing anything destructive, except to my hair ties, but she's very different from when there were other cats in the house. Is she finally feeling free after 12 years? Just her in the house and she can do what she wants?

[cloud-enigma-blog]

Listened to creep cast, the voodoo clerk, and my wish would be that when I die, I go to the heaven I want to be true, not the doomed reality I believe to be true. The "Supernatural" heaven would be cool, as long as I could go out and meet the other souls I want to interact with.

Literally I'm just staying alive for my cat and for the business I work for. Guess I need to start making training documents.

[cloud-enigma-blog]

I can only hope that my senior cat will last through the cleanup of this house and the move to my next home, and then the adoption of a kitten or bonded pair. I have very little will to live and she's the basis of it. Literally my reason to live now is to have cats and take care of them. I don't think I can live without a cat, without another almost person to share my home with.

I have value at work, but they could find another neurotic person to do the research and data entry that I do. Surely I'm not the only person that will search for resources... And then I remember the spreadsheets I'm working on, and the amount of unfilled spaces or cells that say "NOT FOUND" and then I find them within 3 minutes. We're setting up a new client and the hold up is that I have to clean up every spreadsheet that anyone sets up. And not everyone puts an equal amount of effort into those spreadsheets. So I can spend hours cleaning up a sheet that I should just be able to plug and play. And when I clean the spreadsheet, and find out there's 50 other items on the county tax site, I have to set those up. Like, next day back, I'm asking if I can submit the county sites I've found to be added to our program, and I'm asking if we can remind people to take certain steps before they think a spreadsheet is done.