Life Update
Life has been loud in some not great ways. Nothing majorly devastating but just very demanding. Work especially has been rough as we’re dealing with being incredibly understaffed and when you have people like me who are good at the job and dependable, it feels like we’re constantly bearing the brunt of it and getting pulled every which way.
For the past few months, it’s been work and come straight home and crash and wake up and do it all over. Still understaffed but things appear to be on the mend so here’s hoping for a little relief soon.
In better news, this has driven me to take some matters regarding my career into my own hands. I just started training for a certification that my employer is covering and with the support of my mentor. This can help me not only make a very good amount of money but would get me out of my current position which severely goes against my more introverted nature. Training is going well and I’m feeling very good about it.
Stress has been making me sick on and off so I hadn’t been able to see most of my family since Christmas since I was getting sick like every other weekend. Finally got out this weekend to hang out and though my family is far from perfect, I’m so thankful for them. There’s so much love and support there which I don’t take for granted.
I also had a birthday last weekend. I’m very anti-celebration for my own birthday and just like to use that day to relax and do as much or as little as I want. Getting to see another year is always a blessing.
Writing had to take a backseat to a lot just with how little time, energy, and mental bandwidth I’ve had. I’ve attempted to get some things done but haven’t been successful at getting more than a few sentences or paragraphs without my brain just shutting down. I even tried to do a one shot on my birthday to post as a gift but couldn’t get it done. So much of my mental energy is going towards trying to focus and get stuff done at work that the second I leave, my brain just sort of cuts off anything that isn’t basically directly contributing to moving around and keeping me alive which sucks tremendously.
I am, of course, not abandoning any of my works and should be able to get back to it soon once things lighten up a bit. My training for my certification is about 10 weeks and while I’m certain I’ll post updates while I’m training, I do want to be transparent that this is going to take priority. If I don’t do well, I have to pay my job back and it costs a pretty penny so I gotta make this a priority as much as possible.
As always, I appreciate you all and your patience during these periods of hiatus. I truly believe that once I’m out of my current role, these will be far more infrequent. I’ll have way more flexibility in my schedule and getting to work back office which will be infinitely better for me mentally.
The next time I post will be with updates so I appreciate you sticking with me just a little bit longer.
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