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The Many Wonderings of Clouds: Beauty & Proportion

Just this morning, I cannot help but wonder why I never was given a chance to choose how I would like. There are so much beauty in this world but I cannot be in it because I never had a picture taken once all the time I have to take it many times. I struggle on having to find the best lighting, the best angle and the best pose so I would look decent in a picture. It seems like every time I take a picture of nature, I spoil it because I am beautiful enough. The frown lines, the eyebrows, the eye bags, the big nose, the pale lips & the list goes on. When I smile, I have to be careful so my awkward looking gums won't show and that my blank spaces on my teeth won't show as well. Not only that, I guess life thought it would even be more exciting by giving me a blemish prone face. I always have to turn on the smoothening feature of my phone so I'll be pleasant to look at. Now that I'm 33, I am having a hard time losing weight. So in pictures if you take my whole body you will see that everything is not in proportion. My upper body seems longer & bigger than my lower. I have short legs & because of that I really look ugly in pictures. My upper arms are big. My ankles are muscular. My legs aren't straight. Well you see I don't want to be negative but life has been really unfair with me lately that I can't help but ask the question WHY? Why wasn't I one of those with less effort when it comes to how they look. Was I Cleopatra in my past life? Was I really beautiful in the past that's why I have all these flaws now? I really don't know. The answer will remain a mystery. Cherry-

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Why is it taking so long?

I hate waiting; especially if you are waiting for something uncertain. It's been 2 years 5 months since I left my country and moved to New Zealand with hopes of greener pastures. I can say that within those years, I have experienced a lot of frustrations, disappointments, hardships and at the same time happiness and success. But I cannot really entirely be happy without knowing that I am just a few distance away from my family. This past week I was very happy because finally I could see my resident visa application moving. I can feel it is getting closer and I can't help but get too excited and that it's becoming frustrating already. Everyday this new feature of Facebook where they show you pictures/posts from a year/years ago is not really helping. I see a lot of pictures of my kids whom are as of writing still in the Philippines. I miss them especially my younger daughter because I left for NZ when she was only 10 months old. I hear stories about her and although sometimes I am scared that I might not be able to handle her when we meet but the longing of a mother is greater that I really don't care about the hows, I only care about being with them. Everytime I see her I just want to cuddle her and make her feel loved and that I can put up with whatever weirdness she has as I am a weird person as well. Everytime I hear her talking back to his dad, I laugh inside because she reminds me of myself a lot and because of that I know that I will be able to deal with her personality. This feeling inside me is very strong that If I only have a magic power now I will bring them her with me. I know God is still preparing me for that big day. That's why its taking this long. He wants me to learn certain skills and develop self discipline in important aspects that I will be dealing with when they are already here. I also want to be prepared. But sometimes it's not wrong to fantasize about how that day will fell. I hope I can fast forward time to the day when I open my gmail account & see that there is an email from Immigration for me. As I open it, I am wondering of what I would feel. Will I be scared, will I be excited? What day is it? What time it will be. What am I wearing. What month? Haay.. the struggle of waiting is real.. The struggle of life is real. But, the heck .. I have waited so long for this and now that I know its coming I should be happy right? For the first time in my life I feel like I have achieved an ultimate goal. So waiting really is worth it. I am waiting for that day when I will be meeting them at the airport. What will they be wearing. I can just imagine the look they will have on their faces, the same look I had 2 1/2 years ago. Will I have a car by that time? I guess I will have one by then since I am already a citizen. I wanna speed up time so I can finally see my family once again and start a new beginning here in New Zealand. It's not gonna be that long now. A few days from now I am finally a resident of New Zealand.

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Makes me miss Matamata

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Unplanned buying of this new bag... Love it but will have to do less spending after this impulsive buy..

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Simply Rotorua... 2nd day and last day...

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Itadakimas.. if that's how you say it. 2nd day in Rotorua and this is our brunch.. Yumyum Beef Noodles.. Only $11.90

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This is the MANA BALL EXPERIENCE I had. I was supposed to stand up and run but couldn't..

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Someday I'll break free from the rat race and fly like a bird...

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Lakefront Rotorua Pedal Boating $15NZD with Mana Ball Experience.. Random activity with travel buddy.

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I love exploring nature. Everytime I go someplace new, I become a better person. Here I was in Rotorua New Zealand. Behind me is geothermal steam coming from the ground. Cool!

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Hoping to land that perfect job soon

I pray that time will come when I will sleep on Sunday and wake up Monday excited and looking forward to a great day. This feeling doesn’t help anymore. Makes me wonder if it will ever be possible to have a great job that doesn’t have to be stressful or stressful but is worth it. I pray Oh Lord..

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📂💻📃trying to be organized with this filing system.. see the word that stands out...😁

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starting to train myself to a new system.. hopefully this will help me become more consistent & focused....

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#fauxdoricharm

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My very own “Midori Inspired” Traveller’s Notebook/Planner… one personal one for work.. #yeyforcreations #celebratingweekends

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My very own "Midori Inspired" Traveller's Notebook/Planner... one personal one for work.. #yeyforcreations #celebratingweekends

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How to eliminate darkness? According to Sri Chinmoy we can think of it as a mother’s love to her child and a child’s love to her/his mother. A mother will never see the negative aspects of her child as for her, her child is perfect. If the child makes mistakes she will attend to him/her with an understanding heart and will always believe that they will change because goodness is innate in their child. Same as a child’s perception of their mother. That their mother is perfect and the best. When we start seeing people this way then we can live a better life everyday. Which I totally agree. I will try my best to see people this way from now on. Of course, it is not going to be very easy but one step at a time is better than not doing anything at all.