dimension 20: fantasy high “My Green Heaven” at 1:13:18, Pok Gukgak says “Or she was trying to get you to come rescue me so that I would blow my cover.” I can’t stop thinking about this line and what Riz’s internal thought process might look like in reaction to that.
guys i’m insane im going insannneeee. riz gukgak angst opportunities are everywhere… they call to me at my every waking hour, and even in my dreams……
i don’t know how to explain it exactly but i’m going to try
- so basically i imagine riz gukgak as being someone who really really really focuses on the doing of things, the plan, the mystery, the facts, all of that. a pragmatic sort of guy. i imagine he really prides himself in his ability to do all of this. looking at the facts, figuring out the answers, knowing before anyone else knows.
- we also know that when Kalina appeared to him in Hell, Riz was super suspicious of her. Yet, he still had to get answers. He knew she had to be up to something, but he went anyway, because of course he did. it’s his dad. of course he did. anyone would.
- but then we find out that Pok was undercover. and then Pok says here that it’s very possible that Kalina tricked Riz, the rogue, the guy who prides himself on being difficult to trick, right?
- but he’s also still just. a kid. he’s just a kid. and that was his dad. in hell. how could he not investigate further?
- i just think there’s a lot of opportunity here to get into how genius and fucked up it was for Kalina to not only use Riz’s emotions against him but also his inability to let mysteries go. Like not only does he miss his dad, but his dad and his death and his relationship to Kalina and basically EVERYTHING is so unknown to Riz, and it’s itching at him, telling him he has some of the pieces but not enough to put the whole picture together, if he could just get more information…
- so like then Riz hearing his dad say this, that Kalina tricked Riz, like… I feel like that moment has huge angst opportunity. I think Riz’s inner thoughts here could be something along the lines of “she tricked me. i knew she was trying to trick me, I took every safety measure I could’ve possibly taken, but she still tricked me, she still won, and I didn’t see any of it, no matter how much I didn’t trust her I still fell into her trap.”
- and in the moment he’s still talking with his dad and they’re talking facts about the case, so of course he’s going to try to stay professional, or as professional as he can be by saying “she’s the worst!”. and then shortly after that he has to leave already and he only just got his dad back why does he have to go again? of course he knows why but it’s not fair. and he knows life isn’t fair but it’s just. not fair.
anyways i just think riz beating himself up about this mentally would be very in character for him plus very good angst and or hurt comfort material.
+ bonus angst: he hears rebuttals in his mind that sound suspiciously like his friend voices, telling him he couldn’t have known, kalina is literally some kind of god, it’s not his fault, anyone would’ve done the same thing, he couldn’t have possibly known. and in his mind he bites back at the kind voices with something like “*I* should have known. It’s literally what I do. It’s my whole purpose in the party, to be the sneaky one, the guy who figures out the mysteries.” and yadda yadda.
god i want to write something abt this but i also don’t rly want to tbh like i just want to spitball ideas about it i guess
but hey that’s partly what this blog is for so there we go problem solved B)
i fucking cooked with this post god im a genius
