♡ the name is yuraa, but call me hexy if you know me from my main blog (@/unlovablelover)
♡ this sideblog is for tfc yapping, but i'll mainly talk about harlequin and share drawings of him from time to time. if you want to see my drawings, check out my tag #yr.yrxx
♡ oh, and i also have a couple of tfc ocs! mime is my oc who's a part of the circus, while yur is my oc who works in the cafe along with MC! if you're curious about them, just ask and i'll answer!
♡ feel free to strike a chat with me! i don't bite, that's harlequin's thing :}
♡ if you feel like talking to me, ask box is open and i'll answer whenever i can. be prepared for massive blocks of text or the silly doodles/pictures.
You're bringing over one of the troupe to your parents home to play the role of your fake "husband". Just in the hopes this will stop your family from pushing you into getting married finally.
Spin the wheel to find out who's your assigned fake "husband".
Do you think it'll go well?
For those who are already in a relationship with one, some or all of them. Just imagine this as a scenario before you became official. lol
I want to cry to Harlequin and have him wipe away my tears, whisper sweet nothings into my ear, and hold me to his chest, while not even trying to hide his raging fucking boner
I want to cry to Harlequin and have him wipe away my tears, whisper sweet nothings into my ear, and hold me to his chest, while not even trying to hide his raging fucking boner
I want to cry to Harlequin and have him wipe away my tears, whisper sweet nothings into my ear, and hold me to his chest, while not even trying to hide his raging fucking boner
When you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy! Then, send to the least ten people in your notifications (anonymously if possible). You never know who might benefit from spreading positivity! (no obligation; but this made me happy and maybe it’ll make you happy as well.)
Answering both to this and @stuckydrewx 's tag. Thanks for the ask, and the tag <3 let's try this out
My cats. No explation needed
Honwstly? My autism. It's been keeping me alive without me noticing for my entire life. And I'm always grateful for that
My safe spaces (some people, tumblr, my friends and cousins)
Hm... My music. Listening to anything I want and being able to resonate with it is amazing
Uhhhhh this is hard. My childlike positivity. My lover side. No matter how much I hate the world my positivity always keeps me grounded and happy
(this was hard and vaguely out of my comfort zone oof but it was nice)
Tagging luvs ♡
@alcedovoir @red-plutoo @mirrorballssatellite @cubyk107 @natashalierushmanovanoff got my give go to people
Thank u for tagging me! Let’s see if i can find things i actually enjoy no matter what lol. Keep in mind this is just five things i love in no particular order!
Fried chicken, specifically homemade by me or ordered from KFC
My friends! I keep everyone at a distance even if they don’t notice, but there are like three people that I genuinely enjoy talking to. One of them is my best friend, and the others are nice friends of mine that i interact with whenever the opportunity arises. Ngl I don’t consider people ‘friends’ unless I actually want an emotional bond with them, if I don’t then they are just people i know. Although i do try to be nic, since, in my eyes, even strangers deserve some degree of respect because they are human.
My taste in fashion and music!
The smell of rain and forests. I enjoy earthly smells.
My games~ love me a good game regardless of the kind. I will play genshin impact, minecraft, point blank, five nights at freddy’s snd stardew valley alley in the same day lol. Not even counting the ungodly amount of visual novels i enjoy
Uhhh i think this is it? Idk man lemme tag a few people
hmmmmm
1. i like drawing my landscapes and doing art for friends when i dont feel lazy
2. writing lore
3. i love to read books, mainly fictional fantasy adult ones
4. being alone and having my peaceful moments
5. cats are my favorites, i have about 17
some other moots i thought of
@xluniemooniex, @scarlet-loves-you @rockingost @leafofthelake @hillotheartisticchhameleon
I'm bored and also I kinda need to revive my blog so I'ma try to start a tag game thingy
Ok now put:
1: The name u go by online
2: Your most recent obsession
3: A fictional character (or multiple characters) that you desperately want to meet
4: Things that you could spend hours yapping about
Ok for me it's gotta be:
1: Vee
2: Epic The Musical (the songs from it are all that's stuck in my head helppp lol)
3: Nico Di Angelo and Ink Sans
4: Deltarune (theories, favorite characters and why, all that stuff), Undertale and Undertale aus, my ocs (if I can find the courage to tell people about them 💀)
3) The entire TFC cast and my moots' OCs 👉👈,, I'd love to meet Caine from TADC as well hhh
4) ... Razzle...
Who should I tag now errmmmmmmmmmmmz
@leafofthelake (FINALLY IIIII am the first to tag U >:))) @regularsrandomstuff (tagging u before leaf can WAHAHHAA ty for being my moot btw 🥺👉👈) @randirollz @mrsillyrime @b1mster @mulqyi @thecurliefrysbat @sleeplessnoodleoverlord (wait why are there so many of u this is scary /affectionate)
Warnings: Death(reader), gore, angst, abuse and sexual assault mention and implied.
You didn't plan to come to this thing...The people even before entering the carnival already gave you sour and uncomfortable vibes.
Yet you joined because your friend was persistent on wanting to see these supposed freaks up close. So you gave in and joined him.
Some of the monsters looked real...Beyond human comprehension...Some sent shivers down your spine. Some others...they made you feel...sorrow for them.
Then finally the final one was brought out.
Instantly the men in the tent went wild...There was rarely any women around but the few who were here showed disgust and displeasure...at the men...Not at the monster who was brought out.
The monster looked weak, fragile...Her eyes were bright pink, even from a distance that was clear. And then they locked with your eyes...Instantly making your heart skip a beat.
The next stuff that happened...Made the men go even more wild...If you thought men were dogs. Then you weren't wrong.
Even your friend joyed in on the fun...But you didn't. You wanted to leave. But same time, the more clear abuse you saw that monster go through...the more it bothered and enraged you.
You wanted to stop it.
It was a hour later, the show was over, and you were heading out of the circus with your friend. Then you halted in your tracks.
Your friend stopped as well, asking what's wrong. You came up with a lie, saying you must of dropped something back in the tent or along the way, and were going to go look for it.
He offered to help but you reassured him it was fine and he can head off on his own. So he shrugged and left, wishing you luck on finding that item...
Luck you will need, but not for the fake item you lost.
You were careful with your steps, sticking to the shadows, sneaking most of the way to not be heard or noticed.
Then your eyes locked onto a tent, and once you saw the coast was clear, your rushed into it.
You breathed heavily, hoping no one saw you. And realized how dark it was in here. You dug into your pocket, pulling out a match and lighting it, hardly it did much to light the place but it was better than nothing.
Then you proceeded forward, quiet in your steps as took sight of what looked like chains, traps, cages all around you...Clearly animals were kept here or brought here for a moment.
Then you paused and saw before you 5 large cages, and then someone or something in the dark sitting on the ground.
Before you could make a sound, they all locked sight onto you, different colored glowing eyes staring at you, and you instantly felt your life in danger.
Then your eyes locked onto the one on the ground, and slowly they tried to stand up but failed to. As the sound of the chains were heard, showing they were bound to the ground.
"It's you..." Her voice sounded soft, like a angel. Once again, that feeling from before in your heart was felt.
"You know this human?" One of the monsters spoke, he sounded tired and angry.
"Yes...They saw us perform...They were the only one to not show joy in our show..."
The other monsters grew quiet as they stared at you. As if trying to dig into your soul and mind.
"I...It was impossible to find joy over it when it was clear you were all being tortured." You finally mustered out.
The monster on the ground looked at you with wide eyes.
"This...This isn't right. Just because you're different doesn't mean you should be locked up and forced to perform for others like animals."
You stepped forward and instantly the monster on the ground moved back in fear. The others in the cages moved too, as if ready to break out and attack you.
"...I mean you no harm. I swear. I only wish to try to help."
"...You can't help us...You shouldn't be here."
"She's right. You don't belong here. Now leave."
"Run before you become our next feast."
Their words frighten you but you stood your ground. "Your words frighten me, but I know you only say that out of fear. So please...Let me try to help..."
They all grew quiet, and then finally you moved in closer to the monster on the ground and carefully reached out at the chains. Giving them a tug but it wasn't budging.
Then you offered to look at her hands, to see what was keeping them locked on her.
She was scared, as expected but slowly offered them to you and you saw the clear keyholes on them.
"I need a key..."
"We all need keys."
"The master always have them on hand..."
"You'll never get them."
"LEAVE."
"...The master? Oh...That guy." You recalled seeing that host of the show and hated everything about him. "If he always have them on hand. Then that means he sleeps with them correct?"
The monsters didn't respond.
"I'll be right back then. Just...Wait for me."
"We can't go anywhere even if we wished to...Foolish human."
"R-right...Apologies."
You were about to leave until you felt your hand grabbed. Then you looked back and down at the monster looking up at you with worried eyes.
"Please be careful..."
You smiled softly at her and nodded, then she let you go, as you carefully left the tent, on a mission now.
"...They are going to die..."
"We should of ate them to save them from what awaits them."
"But what if they succeed? What if we can finally be free?"
The idea made them all grow quiet...Quiet...and hopeful now for your return with their keys to freedom.
Hours passed and you didn't return, and the night grew darker and colder as time passed on.
"...They didn't return..."
"Either dead or lied and ran off."
The monster on the ground looked down in sorrow, then her body perked up at the sound of someone entering the tent. Then finally they saw you, with a grin on your face.
"Got them!" You didn't waste time to kneel down and try to unlock her chains. "There's a lot of keys so hopefully I can figure out which one it is."
"Y-you came back? You got them?" She looked at you with shock, they all did in fact. As the monsters stood up and grabbed at the bars of their cages in disbelief as they looked at you.
"Of course. I said I'd return."
The monster before you felt tears build up in her eyes at your words, at your kept promise.
Then finally one key fit perfectly into the keyhole. "Bingo! We'll get you out of here in--"
You didn't see or hear him show up. The monsters did however and they all froze in fear as their master raised up a heavy wooden mallet and instantly swung it at your head. Knocking you out and making you drop to the ground motionless and unresponsive.
"Damn fool..." The man reached down and grabbed the keys. "Get this trash out of here and get rid of 'em."
"N-NO!" The monster who you tried to free reached out for you, trying to both grab and protect you. But her strength was weak as the other men who arrived ripped you from out of her arms.
Helplessly all the monsters watched as you were dragged off, and for a moment, your eyes opened, as you saw yourself getting further and further away from them...Your eyes locked on to hers once more...Not knowing that would be the last thing you'll see.
The sun rose...All the monsters looked more hopeless and broken than before. The monster on the ground silently wept at what happened before. They all were surrounded by a heaviness not felt before.
They thought it was over however...That at least...They can put this chapter of their endless nightmare to rest.
Then the master arrived back with his men, all carrying buckets.
It was feeding time.
"I need you all at top shape for tonight's performance, so you better enjoy this." One by one they all received a bucket, seeing the obvious chopped pieces of a human in them.
Then the monster on the ground looked to see what was in her bucket. And her eyes widened in fear, shock and heartbreak to see your now decapitated head in it.
people pls never stop drawing ticket taker with his fuckass hands behind his back
make him act like a grandpa. he gets groceries with the basket behind his back (Where His Hands Are) and strolls along the aisle Just Like That for hours until he's done grocery shopping.
yes i know pierrot and harlequin gets them most of the time. but for the sake of the silly, just think about it.
i hope someone eventually asks him why he does that/how long he usually does that in one of the AMAs later
regarding the fools, this is what i understood about jester's hypnosis and how it works before the latest AMA was shared.
i could've worded it better but i remember being occupied with something else at the moment and this was just a comment i left on a passing post. basically, jester only heavily influences the fools to prioritize the circus first and foremost — whatever happens to them, happens, and they'll do whatever it takes to serve the circus.
Although we don’t know too much about Columbina, there’s been a couple of reoccurring themes in the stories told by Harlequin and Jester. Perhaps you could even call them two sides of the same coin: her kindness and her weakness.
Harlequin’s story refers to Columbina as an “angel.” In the story, she is called salvation, where in reality, she is called sacrifice.
“Our little miracle/Our little sacrifice.”
Columbina is portrayed within this duality: is she kind enough to sacrifice herself or is she weak enough to be forced to be their salvation?
In Harlequin’s story, by consuming her, the monsters “become human.” I think Columbina’s weakness, compared to the other monsters, is related to how she helped them “transform” that night. Columbina is not the weakest merely by coincidence, but perhaps because she is actually the most human-like species of monster of all of them.
Harlequin says: “She is the weakest of us.”
According to this post, there is one species of monster that is closer to human biology than the others. It seems very likely to me that this is the species Columbina was, as it explains why she is described as being so weak compared to the others.
For example, in Jester’s show, he emphasizes in almost every line how Columbina is two things: kind and weak.
He calls her: “A sweet little flower in a garden of black thorns.” Again, this sets her apart from the others, as delicate where they are dangerous.
Then, Jester returns to the imagery used by Harlequin, referencing Columbina as an angel:“Shaped like a gift from the heavens! Columbina.”
I find the next line particularly notable: Columbina is described as gentle, having no claws BUT having ‘almost no fangs,’ clearly indicating she is still a monster despite her otherwise human-like qualities. “Delicate, with no claws, almost no fangs./Just a gentle presence among the shadows, smiling warmly at the monsters.”
Disturbingly, this also aligns with the implications that Columbina was going to be taken in order to be exploited in other ways. If she is the most human-like, it would explain why the humans would be most interested in her compared to the other monsters (as well as the fact that she is the weakest and cannot defend herself).
Interestingly, I think Columbina’s traits of being weak but kind, as well as being generally more human-like than the other monsters, ultimately exist to parallel her to humanity, or more accurately, to one human: the MC.
The creator has said that the reason Pierrot fell in love with the MC is specifically because they were a human, and he would not have the same reaction to MC’s actions were they a monster.
Pierrot finds MC’s kindness notable because of the fact that humans have been nothing but cruel to him. He would expect another monster to not treat him poorly for the fact of being “strange” or such, but to have a human defy the odds of their species makes them stand out as a uniquely kind individual to Pierrot.
This makes me wonder if Columbina’s kindness stood out to him for some kind of similar reason. Although the accuracy of Jester’s story can certainly be questioned, it is worth noting the amount of times he sets Columbina apart from everyone else in the group because of her “softness/kindness.”
Certainly part of this is for narrative effect, but considering the trait that has consistently made Pierrot fall in love with someone is kindness, it would seem that Columbina was noticeably different to the rest of the circus members.
Thus, just as Pierrot may have fallen in love with Columbina because of her notable kindness amongst the group and circumstance he lived in:
“And it was for that tender warmth that He, the silent monster, lost himself./Every day he watched her, her light steps, her kind words./And the more kindness she gave, the closer he came.”
He may have also fallen in love with the MC for the same reason: showing exceptional kindness amongst the group for which they belong.
In the AMA, when asked what love means to him, Pierrot replies that it is a “warmth that spreads through my chest…” This clearly mirrors the language used by Jester to describe Pierrot falling in love with Columbina.
I want to note that I am NOT saying Pierrot thinks of MC as literally Columbina, but that he fell in love with them for very similar reasons. I think MC reminds him not literally of Columbina, but of the qualities he admired in her and the similar way she made him feel.
MC and Columbina are both people who decide to be kind in a decidedly cruel world, and that’s certainly something genuinely admirable, especially considering that neither of them are particularly strong, at least compared to monsters. It would take a lot of courage to do what MC did, to put oneself in danger for the sake of a stranger, when very likely they are stronger than you and could hurt you.
MC’s kindness is notable partially because they are physically weak (again in relation to Pierrot), and Columbina’s kindness may be notable for a similar reason. We don’t have any stories about Columbina’s specific actions, but I wouldn’t be surprised if she had put herself in a difficult situation and shown Pierrot her bravery and kindness at some time.
In another AMA, Pierrot mentions that he’s not very fond of people who are unkind. Thus, I think Pierrot gravitates toward kind people in general, romantic or otherwise (he just hasn’t encountered very many of them, it seems). Even if the other circus members care for him and each other, I wouldn’t describe any of them as notably kind, especially not to strangers whom they have no reason to be kind to.
Pierrot’s life has been very difficult, and I think he clings to bravery, kindness, and people who give him hope about the state of the world. The idea that not everything is pain and suffering, but that sometimes there is light in the form of love.
Furthermore, Pierrot has similar feelings about hiding his own darkness or danger from Columbina as he does from MC:
“And tried to hide his claws so she would not wound himself upon her skin.”
I think the fact that Jester previously says that Columbina has no claws, but then mentions Pierrot wanting to hide his own in order not to hurt her is both literal and symbolic.
Literal, for obvious reasons of hurting her. Pierrot is the strongest of the monsters, and is very capable of killing (although presumably he only does this to humans), whereas Columbina is the weakest. He goes on to consume her with the others, and even references this to the MC:
“My sweet angel/Don’t make me devour you too.”
However, I think this is also symbolic. Columbina and MC are both kind individuals who inspire hope in Pierrot, but the flip side of the kindness is their weakness. Pierrot, although he does not often instigate harm, often participates in it by being part of the circus. He has fears of hurting someone who is so weak in comparison, obviously heightened in relation to the MC since Pierrot lives with the guilt of having actually “hurt” Columbina.
It’s worth noting that most of what we know about Columbina is shown through the lens of Harlequin and Jester’s stories, who are clearly unreliable narrators. It’s perfectly possible that they exaggerated certain of Columbina’s traits in order to fit better with their stories (their personal emotional shields, perhaps). Maybe Columbina isn’t as weak and helpless as Jester says, or perhaps even as kind as he suggests.
I think another interesting possibility is the idea that Pierrot, himself, has a warped view of her. Although Pierrot was not “obsessed” with Columbina and seemed to be significantly less delusional about her than he is with MC, it does make me wonder whether Columbina was as perfect as she is presented in these stories, or whether Pierrot simply had rose-coloured glasses which now align with the same kinda of stories told by the others.
They all killed and ate her, after all. It would be interesting if this martyred her to them, erasing her flaws and leaving only kindness and weakness in their memories.
All that to say, I’m very interested to get more reveals about Columbina’s personality, and whether or not she is similar to the MC in reality rather than in mere story.
I adore characters who haunt the narrative, especially those whom are revealed to be extremely different in reality than in the memories of those they’ve left behind. I think it would be very interesting if Columbina was revealed to be a less passive, whether in a heroic way (as I’ve suggested in her parallels with MC), or even in a morally ambiguous way (being less kind and more nuanced, having her own convictions and flaws, etc.).
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