always, worlds within worlds

Cly 31 nb lesbian they/them pls no minors don't post my shit to twitter this is my ao3

[calamitysong]

founding tenets:

- beware the moving image

- all actors should be burned at the stake

[exhuastedpigeon]

The first rule of fandom is have fun. The second rule of fandom is find an enabler and become an enabler. Yes you should write that fic. What if it was even hornier? What if it was angstier? What if you wrote it just for me?

[theprincessandthepie]

maybe one day. (yt)

[godsbestvictim]

[clytemnestraaa]

what period post-irina death is like blank space in ilya’s memories like he fully can’t recall what happened in that time or alternately he has only specific details from that period of time like the weather at her funeral and what he ate for breakfast that day but he can’t remember the rites or if he cried or not

i will not write it bc i'm lazy but i had this idea for a fic where ilya finds a picture of irina with shorter hair, taken a few months before she died. and he's so confused, because he remembers finding her body, how he thought she was sleeping, her long hair all splayed out across the pillow, lying there like some fairytale princess. and he mentions it to svetlana and sveta goes ??? no, your mother's hair was short when she died, she cut it a few months before.

but that can't be true, ilya remembers her on the bed so clearly. she loved having long hair. she loved braiding her hair and she loved singing in the house and she loved baking, she was always baking cookies. she baked so many cookies. funny story he just remembered, one time when he was 4 that was all she did for two weeks, bake cookies, and all he had to eat for weeks was cookies. he forgot that until now. isn't that funny? isn't it? it's funny, right? she used to sing at the top of her lungs. she used to--sing, right? so loud the neighbors would complain, sometimes locked in the bathroom, sometimes in the middle of the night in the bedroom with grigori, she would--

why does she have short hair in the picture? that's not what happened. that's not what it was like. the picture has to be wrong. there's been some kind of mistake. something isn't true. her hair was long. he knows her hair was long.

why does she have short hair in the picture?

[enchantedbook]

Art by Shigeru Mizuki

[clytemnestraaa]

the last time i got high was last year and i hadn't smoked for a decade because i hate smoking but i was like well what if i grew out of that? and then i got WAY WAY too high and got trapped in the demon dimension and had a panic attack. but i was too high to move, and i wasn't sure if anything was real or not, or if the world really existed, or maybe it was just me alone forever and all of reality was a hallucination. and what saved me and anchored me to existence was remembering destiel. because i was like, there is no way i just whole-cloth invented destiel. i did not come up with that one by myself. there is simply no way that my mind alone conjured that up.

[clytemnestraaa]

when you get into something new and want to follow people on tumblr you gotta find the person who’s DEEP in it. you gotta find the person who’s insane about it. you gotta find someone who has dreams about the character every night but critically tears them apart because the dream version of the characters are out of character. and that’s why I started following you

you know, i never actually have fandom dreams.... won't deny that i am deep in the mines though

[clytemnestraaa]

can i be honest i don't think shane would like being high all that much i think he would be like oh my god They Know. what do they know? and who is they? that doesn't matter. They All Know. also all his socks feel wrong but his bare feet feel wrong too. he's locking himself in the linen closet in the fetal position.

[clytemnestraaa]

followed for jackie Le fey and tvm and stayed for character analysis + morgana. like what other blog is as dedicated to my two wildly different hyperfixations as you

it all goes back to morgana. she didnt even make it to the fandom misogyny tournament..... the injustice never ends........

[clytemnestraaa]

did you read the one where ilya takes a golf club to Shane’s car during landrygate i cannot remember if I found that through your bookmarks or not

NO can you link it..... my firetruck.....

[vintagewildlife]

California sea lions By: Cordell Hicks From: The Fascinating Secrets of Oceans & Islands 1972

[clytemnestraaa]

honestly to write good penis-related smut you do have to accept that ejaculation is an absolutely insane dr seuss type biological mechanism. proliferating via goo cannon.

[weepingchoir]

Has anyone written a queer romantasy retelling/homage of a classic piece of literature yet? You could advertise it on tumblr with a pull quote that remixes the most quotable line from the original work into something unbearably dumb. I don’t know why no one’s tried this, seems like free money.

[clytemnestraaa]

also toddler ilya had a stuffed bear or rabbit or dog that he was perpetually sucking on to self-soothe at bedtime and that thing was fully absolutely vile. completely soggy with spit 24/7. he kept it hidden somewhere for far longer than was socially acceptable to take out at night, until at 5-6 he started getting sick and throwing up frequently and alexei finally snitched on him and an adult found it and it was moldy as hell and they threw it away and ilya cried and his parents got in a fight about irina being a negligent mother.

[clytemnestraaa]

ilya was a gap-toothed child i feel it in my heart

[bitcrusherr]