always, worlds within worlds

Cly 31 nb lesbian they/them pls no minors don't post my shit to twitter this is my ao3

[calamitysong]

founding tenets:

- beware the moving image

- all actors should be burned at the stake

[nicolegendary]

sometimes. things that have a lot of kudos. are worse

[clytemnestraaa]

do you think shane is one of those people who just "doesn't listen to music"? (or at least doesn't really care what's on.) because related to him not caring about what happens in movies i kinda see that for him

i have given shane my own personal trait of auditory processing issues so i think part of the reason he doesn’t do music is when it’s playing out loud he can’t focus and can’t understand what the fuck everyone around him is saying. and then outside of a few comforting yuna favorite songs from childhood he doesn’t really like music with lyrics for the same reason. i have personally dealt with this by getting really into witchhouse and phonk but i don’t see shane taking that path. i think shane looooves a brown noise loop. he could probably do some kind of minimalist beat thing to work out to. he is definitely into like insane biohacking weird clicking noises that play at subaudible levels while he sleeps. but yeah shane doesn’t listen to music much.

[clytemnestraaa]

hello i love the little dog so much, please give kiss for me

just gave big smooch

[clytemnestraaa]

wait that’s so funny that you said that bc my friend and i were just saying the exact opposite, that ilya would love the horror genre but i guess we were just tying it to his fast cars, more impulsive behavior, as being someone who enjoys more thrill seeking/adrenaline rushes out of his entertainment. i hc that his learned to write better in english by reading stephen king books bc they’re on display at every american airport ever lol

i can see ilya being into campy stupid slashers and like giggling and squealing and kicking when people get chopped in half with a chainsaw but then i think if an animal dies he’s like fully sobbing and i think if you made him watch like an actually harrowing film he’s going to spend the next 48 hours floating around various rooms like a drowned ghost. like basically i think he’s really impacted by movies and tv shows and is really engaged. and then i think shane is one of those people who just doesn’t connect with fiction in the slightest. why would he care about something that didn’t happen.

[clytemnestraaa]

urgent update. fuckin wimdy

[weepingwidar]

Hayley Chiu (Chinese-Canadian, 2001) - Let Me Tell You Something About You (2023)

[arinewman7]

Nightmare at Noon

Marion Adnams

ca. 1945

[clytemnestraaa]

one of my big headcanons is that shane can watch literally any horrific disgusting movie and not react at all no matter what happens onscreen because “well it’s not real, ilya” and then ilya is like screaming crying throwing up the entire time

[clytemnestraaa]

Put the freak mirror away marly! You're scaring the hoesl is cannon to me

me too you can thank @iwrotemrtambourineman for that one i believe

[strawmanfallacy]

[strawmanfallacy]

[arte-artem-artibus]

Yayoi Kusama - The Flower (No. 2), 1953, gouache and pastel on paper, 35.8 x 30.7 cm

[twinkwolf]

i really think a lot of the long game conflict boils down to shane saying “hey i’m really scared” and ilya thinking “well i took a meat cleaver to MY life in order to have a chance at happiness and i survived it so why the fuck can’t you do the same for me??” while he grows paler and paler from blood loss and pointedly does NOT look at the ghost of his mother who appears in the rearview mirror of his porsche cayman gt4 and whispers for him to take his pregame cens v raiders nap in the garage with the engine running

[clytemnestraaa]

If Shane and Ilya hadn’t been caught at the cottage do you think they would have told the parents and if so when? What do you think it would have taken for Shane to hide that relationship even more ?

I can see a vision in which post summer honeymoon period has worn off a bit and Scott hunter is clearly having a hard time and Yuna makes an off handed comment about how ‘I would NOT want to be his manager’ - it puts Shane back in the closet for 500 years … what are your thoughts on this :)

i think the only thing that would hamper it would be if it impacted shane’s hockey, and i think the most significant and likely way it would do that is: if shane is with ilya, he has hours and days where he doesn’t think about hockey. when shane is with ilya, sometimes shane’s team loses and it’s not the end of the world, it’s not the worst thing that’s ever happened to anyone, shane doesn’t need to push himself beyond the breaking point in retribution, it’s alright. and it’s not alright with shane for him losing to be alright. he NEEDS failure to be unacceptable. he love to be earned. he doesn’t want it freely given. if it’s unconditional, shane is scared what he might do with it.

[clytemnestraaa]

bean bun

[clytemnestraaa]

you're very fun dw i see your whimsy. you gave us vampire marleau

thank you!! i am simply a goth at heart that is the truth of the matter. there is fun and whimsy but it also involves an evanescence soundtrack

[clytemnestraaa]

i really appreciate how you bring seriousness and real world consideration to this fandom space/ur blog in general. escapism is dangerous and can be counterproductive in this day and age!!!

i know this is sent as a compliment and i am genuinely glad you’re enjoying the blog and finding it grounded but 1) this is making me feel like werner herzog’s texting and driving documentary. i know how to have fun. i’ve had fun before in my life. i have done it. don’t let anyone tell you i’ve never done it, i have. 2) i don’t know how to explain that for decades now, taking fictional characters and writing about their gruesome and macabre needlessly complicated suicide attempts and the various ways they torment betray sabotage undermine and manipulate each other IS my escapism #makethatfakemanworse