i want to say, I AM NOT TRANS. i will NEVER understand the trans experience from the point of view of a trans person, that is not my life nor my struggle, nor do i claim to struggle with gender dysphoria related issues either. i was born lucky in that my gender matches my assigned sex at birth.
however i WILL say that it's really difficult to like trans women given the social climate of today. i also live in a red state. please understand that when i use the term 'chaser' I AM BEING MEAN TO MYSELF. can i please be allowed to disparage my disgusting cisness.
i don't want to say shit about my personal life, this is neither the time nor the place, but i will say, it does actually hurt my feelings personally when people are mean to someone that I love. never as much as it hurts the feelings of the person i love, but on a human decency, empathetic level, it sucks to know that my sexual and romantic preference is not allowed to exist in a context outside of hate. I AM REMINDED OF THIS ALL THE TIME. I AM SO PAINFULLY AWARE THAT TRANS PEOPLE ARE DISPARAGED AS SOMEONE WHO GENUINELY LOVES THEM.
i literally looked it up. there is no other word to describe a cis individual who likes trans women. granted, i didn't look that far, because this topic makes me want to cry, but still. maybe i should just look further, but honestly, just let me call myself a chaser.
if you hate me, that is the meanest possible thing you could do to me anyways, let me disparage my own self because i recognize that i, as a cis person, suck.
i wish that i could just like trans women and have it not be something people hold over me constantly. people have tried to "fix" me before, usually cis, and that DOES actually hurt my feelings personally, even if you made the argument that i shouldn't be allowed to feel sad when people tell my girlfriend that it was right of her to have killed herself (because people have, yesterday i cried because someone told me that. what kind of heartless monster says that i shouldnt MOURN MY GODDAMN GIRLFRIEND'S LIFE because im cis and didn't understand her.). it ALSO sucks that i've had cis men go up to me and say shit like "if you just like dick why don't you date me hurrr" IT DOES NOT WORK LIKE THAT.
i like the GIRL part, fuckssake. I AM JUST A LESBIAN.
also i literally have posts where i drool over post op pussy. IT IS NOT A GENITALIA THING FOR ME. dick or not i care about the person and their lived experiences. i dont fucking care if there's a gock or not, i've LITERALLY FUCKED A POST OP GIRL BEFORE AND IT WAS FANTASTIC. ID DO IT AGAIN TEN THOUSAND TIMES OVER.
given the choice between a cis person and a trans person, ID CHOOSE THE TRANS PERSON REGARDLESS OF WHATEVER BECAUSE IT IS JUST A SEXUAL ORIENTATION. fuck
what i like about trans people is this:
TO BE TRANS MEANS YOU HAVE TO BE SELF REFLECTIVE ENOUGH TO COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT YOUR GENDER DOES NOT MATCH YOUR ASSIGNED SEX. my love of trans women is a psychological thing because i'm schizophrenic and i value the human condition above all else and being trans is a particularly beautiful human experience to me.
is it so wrong to find a person being trans beautiful for existing? ARE TRANS WOMEN BEAUTIFUL OR NOT. personally I THINK THEYRE BEAUTIFUL BY DEFAULT.
that whole self reflection thing, at the behest of all of society's ills even, all in an effort to JUST BE YOURSELF AND BE HAPPY AND RECLAIM SOMETHING YOU SHOULD HAVE HAD THE WHOLE TIME is a mindset that I LOOK UP TO as someone who fucking hates themselves.
can i just not like cis people, i don't even like myself goddamn.
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