No Thanks, Im Not Hungry.

she/they⭐️Bi⭐️25y/o⭐️5’9” sw:250 cw:188 gw1:170 gw2:135 ☠️ugw:120☠️ 18+ only please. I do NOT advocate eating disorders just gotta have an outlet for my own bullshit, please block don’t report

[thewaveofmisfourtune7]

how to ⭐️ve yourself without tooth decay no glue no borax

[0hwyatt]

Sexy skinny is never my goal. I need to be horrible creature thin.

[coffeeandvapejuice]

Ate over my cal limit yesterday, and I was so convinced I would gain but this morning the scale says im down another lb??? Thank you gym 🙏

Not gonna test my luck tho, today we eat extra light AND go to the gym.

[coffeeandvapejuice]

Just 5 days into getting back with 4na and I've lost 7 lbs. I've been keeping to a higher cal limit, about 800, because I want to make this a little more sustainable than I have in the past. I'll probably drop that limit when I start to plateau but in the meantime im trying to be kind to myself.

Im hoping i can keep this pace of about 1.5 per day straight into my gw1, in which case it'll take me about 2 more weeks. Im doubtful ill be quite that successful but I gotta shoot for the stars.

I feel so huge im disgusted with myself for giving up on the dream and eating myself back to page 1. What's done is done, I just need to fix it, stay focused on the goal, and do it as sustainability as 4na will let me.

[coffeeandvapejuice]

Disordered? Who's disordered? Im just excited to go to a funeral because it means I'll miss dinner

[mizzpiggyz]

[bloodydeerskin3]

being disordered but HATING food waste is very tricky terrain ://

[coffeeandvapejuice]

Breakfast 💜

[coffeeandvapejuice]

Over 2 years of losing progress, im now at my highest weight since high school.

I've been feeling so terrible for so long, its time to take back control.

Im getting married in less than 2 years and I need to be at a GW within the year so I can get fitted for a wedding dress.

It's time to lock in.

[coffeeandvapejuice]

A friend sent me a video from 2 years ago and my legs were SO SMALL god damn if that’s not motivation to keep fasting idk what is. I will get there again. I have the control

[coffeeandvapejuice]

48 hours done ✅ I’m a little dizzy so I think I’ll break my fast with something small. It’s a small win, but I’ll take it after well over a year of eating without control

[coffeeandvapejuice]

Had a bit of pork and a salad, totaling about 225 cal. I fed a lot to my dog but I’m not sure how much so I’m just counting the whole meal:

1/2 a pork chop: 135

4 tbsp tzatziki: 70

Lettuce, spinach, half a small tomato, and 1/8 a bell pepper: 20

[coffeeandvapejuice]

48 hours done ✅ I’m a little dizzy so I think I’ll break my fast with something small. It’s a small win, but I’ll take it after well over a year of eating without control

[coffeeandvapejuice]

28 hours into my 48 hour fast, feelin like a million bucks, about to hit the gym. I feel unstoppable. Maybe I’ll push this fast to 72 hours, since I know I’m going to be expected to eat at dnd on Friday, and it’s all going to be homemade so I’ll have to guess on calories. We’ll see how I feel tomorrow afternoon.

[sh0uldntb3h3r3]

just bc i'm ⭐️ving doesn't mean i can't be silly

[coffeeandvapejuice]

Alright it’s official I can’t keep making myself fatter every day and calling it “recovery”. It’s been well over a year since I got serious about goal weights but that changes TODAY.

A little rant while I think out loud about how to attack this ~

Gonna post here regularly to hold myself accountable, I’ll be a bridesmaid at my brother’s wedding in less than 4 months, and I need to be, at MOST 135. Hopefully 125. This gives me about 14 weeks to lose 30+ lbs, that’s a little over 2 lbs a week, should be manageable.

My plan insofar is to fast tomorrow, maybe the next day as well if it doesn’t knock me on my ass, then stick to low restricting for a few days, 600 cal a day if I can swing it. I’m also going to double down on making time for the gym, I’ve gotten incredibly lazy the past few months.

I think my biggest hurdle will be liquid calories, I’ve developed an unfortunate addiction to sugary lattes and frappechinos, those are the first things that have to go, back to black coffees and redbull.

Special shout out to my boyfriend, for not so subtly calling me fat today when I mentioned I was going to the gym after work for the first time in a while, and he poked me in the love handle and said yea I can’t tell you haven’t been going. :) thanks for the jumpstart I needed, it’s gonna be so much more satisfying to break up with you when I’m 30 lbs lighter and 100 times hotter.

Anywho sorry for the rant, but I’m excited to finally take back control again, I’m so tired of feeling like a whale, I can’t wait to feel empty and fragile again.

[coffeeandvapejuice]

It just u and me against the world babe

-me talking to my emotional support jar of dill pickles

[coffeeandvapejuice]

Having to borrow my skinny friend’s clothes and actually fitting into them >>>>>>

Then her commenting that it’s so nice to have a friend her size so we can share clothes??? >>>>>>>>>>>>>>