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decided that summer is over for me and i’m gonna focus on my fall aesthetic instead

#my favorite season is fall of the patriarchy #fall aesthetic #fall vibes #autumn

ON GLOW-UP CULTURE AND LOW SELF-ESTEEM

Do I have low self-esteem? Hell yes! I look in the mirror and most of the time I hate what l'm seeing. I hate my acne, I hate my chubby cheeks. I hate that my jawline isn’t pronounced enough. My confidence each day depends on the way my stomach looks and I wish I could find a solution to all

of that. There probably is one out there. Likely someone has experienced all ot this before, decided to end their misery, and found a solution. Perhaps I will too, one special day. Perhaps one day I will start taping my nose, get that upper eyelid surgically fixed, stick to a gym routine, clear my skin, and correct my posture. Perhaps the day I start trying is today. Sadly, I don't even need to buy anything. I've got it all at home. The gym clothes, the membership, the skin care products, and the access to the internet for any posture-fixing yoga class

I want. Perhaps today is another day, where I stick mу toe into the waters of glow-up culture once again. Just as I did when I was sad at 13. At 14. At 15. At 16. At 17. At 18. The reality of being a teenage girl is, that you'll always feel ugly. There will always be something you need to change about the way you look. And I don't even want to start about personality, because l firmly believe most everybody’s personality is garbage at that age. It's not even about being a bad human. I don't think I'm a bad human. But l also wouldn’t want to grow up to be the person l am right now forever.

Sincerely,

just another girl tired of it all

#hell is a teenage girl #diary of a teenage girl #teenage dirtbag #i hate it here #i hate this #i hate everything #i hate my existence #idk why #im sad and tired #tiktok comes up with shit every day #maybe i should delete it #i wish i was mentally healthy

abernathyvalois

Maybe all you need is to look at your social media accounts from when you were 14 and remember who you really are

coffeewithespresso

14 year old me was fucking insane. that bitch was at the desk studying 24/7 to get into an Ivy league college (why do you care about college in middle school???) and she’d be so disappointed if she could see that today I am a pre-law major at some mid college close to home and that I barely study anymore

the way i am not working on understand the material and just expect to get it right once i start actually practicing and studying for my exams

i swear formula 1 is destroying my life cause what do you mean i don't pay attention to my studies anymore and instead of working on cases i watch drive to survive

#it's really pathetic and i am very ashamed of it

it's not very academic overachiever of me to use my lectures scrolling through tumblr instead of paying attention

#dark academia #academic validation #academia aesthetic #law school #law studyblr

it’s 10:50 am, i had my second coffee and i’m still so fucking tired

like what is this life??

#coffee please #coffee #why am i this tired #this is not real

thinneristhewinner4

“I think u have a ed” god forbid a girl has a hobby

Sitting in the school hallway crying because I‘m not getting the academic validation that I want.

#school kills teenagers #i swear i take school serious #dark academia #high school #school #academic validation #academic aesthetic #i hate it here #i hate school #crying and throwing up #i am crying

honeytuesday

autumn is really like. i brought you some sunlight from when you were 10. didn't the world feel so bright to you then? i'll drench your hands in syrupy nostalgia, so everything you make is stained bittersweet. i'll ruffle your hair with an ice-kissed breeze--it'll be the kindest touch you've had in years. you finally feel like a part of something grander. i'm the last warm hand you hold before winter surrender.

Oh for love must be so sweet. Waking up with your eyes pinned to your lover so that you can adore everything from their curls to the redness on their cheeks, to these tiny little freckles on their nose and those lips you kissed last night that tasted like they were made in heaven. Love must be so sweet that the face of your lover looks to you like greater art than all the paintings of the world bore you to death if it‘s not your young loves face.

#love #love quotes #dark academia #academic #chaotic academia #poetry #poemsociety #writers and poets #poets on tumblr

i realized two things today:

first, my exchange teaches me a lot about myself and one of those things is that i‘m lost and that i‘m successful but these things don‘t contradict each other. It just means that my success looks not the way i expected it to be and i‘m learning how to deal with that right now

and the other thing i know is that stuff feels more real if you do things just for you and share them with the world not to brag but to spread ur happiness so it will affect others as well

#today i learned #chaotic academia #dark academia #study aesthetic #academia aesthetic #school kills teenagers #exchange

Be crazy, be wild. Find your vibe and if it includes to swirl coffee in a wine glass then go for it! You aren’t here to please your parents or teachers. You are on earth to do beautiful things and it’s on you to decide what is truly beautiful. It could be Arts, it could be Academics, it could be the shining moon or their deep blue eyes.

#quotes #quoteoftheday #life quote #love quotes #school kills teenagers #teenagers #teen #teenagers are so broken nowadays

i have a problem… i fell in fucking love with a girl pretty close to me, but i am going to leave my country and move to the US in pretty much a month for a whole 10 months like damn

#dark academia #real problems #problems #chaotic academia #love #lgbtq positivity #lgbtq #i am so stupid #but i want her #and i want to cuddle with her and buy her flowers

in context of the confirmation that Loki is not only gender fluid but also bi, a lot of people started to think Disney was trying to get “woke points” and criticized that. Here my thoughts on why this kind of criticism is a bit problematic:

The open representation of queer people (so roughly 10+% of the population) in the media is considered “woke points” while it’s actually just people and characters being themselves

if there is a queer character, the story doesn’t have to be about their queerness. Like we know Loki is gender fluid, but no one ever talked about this and we don’t have to, because thats what normalization is: we accept it and move on, knowing that for Loki we use they/them pronouns

same goes for other maybe queer characters like Bucky or Valkyrie: Marvel and Disney can just state they are bi/pan/lesbian and then we move on, knowing their sexuality and everything’s fine

it’s not woke, it’s normal and we should start treating it like normal

like i won’t come out as bi to my parents i figured out, because i have a pride flag above my bed and my mom even changed to use only “partner” in describing a relationship partner in context with me and i talk about lgbtqia+ rights all the time and i talk about girls and boys in the same adoring way and i guess if they don’t figure out and just move on, they’ll figure out when i bring someone home and then they have to be fine with it, because i am probably in love with that person

#lgbtq positivity #lbgt love #lbgtq #queer pride #pride 2021 #pride month #did you already come out as straight to your parents?#lgbtqiia+#loki #loki show #mcu #bucky barnes #valkyrie

i still need feminism, because my dad tells me, that even if it’s not okay for boys to touch me or rape me when wearing something skin-showing, he still believes that i am asking for it and that i should expect it.

He compared me, a girl, to a good looking car and said if you leave the car unlocked in the city someone will take it…

Dad, please understand, that i am a human, not an object and that me wearing a skirt is not a good comparison to a intentionally unlocked car. I am literally just a girl that felt cute in the skirt and wants men to please just not sexualize me immediately or if they do, then they please have enough self control to not show it to me. It’s called respecting someones boundaries and privacy.

when i wanted to tell him that he is objectifying me and all women and agrees with the people that think my clothing represents my consent he shout me down and said that he does not want to discuss on that kind of level with me. What level are you talking about? The low level where you don’t wanna talk to the group that actually experienced the bullcrap and that feels very uncomfortable around men, because she might disagree with you for actual reasons.

#why we need feminism #feminism #real feminism #feminismus #everyday feminism #we do our best helping the world even if it’s not always working #my parents are the worst #w t f is wrong with my dad