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having the worst time atm sorry im mia x

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hi im not d3ad just sad x

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how is everyone feeling tonight 🎤

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slayyyyy girls i’ve had a migraine for 3 days now and honestly all i want is a pizza 🤭

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hey at least im a cheap date out right 🧍🏼‍♂️

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do not Perceive me .

i am just a tiny speck of dust

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i can’t stop crying 🤭 im so silly

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just because im ⭐️ving doesnt mean im not funny

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oOoOoOhhH look at me 🧍🏼‍♂️scared of food 🤨 get a grip

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thinking about sm@shing my head against a wall actually

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tw i want taco bell

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i probably shouldn’t of dropped my therapist because im purg!ng even when i haven’t eaten anything 🤭💅🏼

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today, i am angry.

as blissful as it feels to be so dazed and weak from only consuming water, EDs are not as pretty and soft and “oh i only eat 500cals a day so my boyfriend can lift me up without straining!” as some people make them out to be. it’s hunched over my toilet for so long that i’m convinced my back has frozen in that spot, or doing sit ups in the bath because my girlfriend won’t know that i’m poorly again, or not being able to physically get downstairs because my body is so weak that just breathing is giving me heart palpitations. it’s being extra hairy. it’s dry lips that flake off. it’s constant pain. it’s mind fog. it’s irritability. it’s pushing everyone away so they can’t comment on anything food related.

today, fuck my ED.

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People think Ana is about food.

But they don’t understand that it’s so much more than that. Yes, it’s about hating your body and yourself and wanting to feel OK with how you look for once in your life.

But it’s also about control. About trying to dull the pain through self destructive behavior. It’s about wanting to prove you can control something in your life when everything else is out of control: no matter what, at least you can control what you eat and how small you. At least you can prove that you have control over your behavior.

It’s about wanting to be so small you disappear. So small that no one can hurt you anymore.

Ana is about so much more than food.

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forgot how painful purg1ng is lol but i feel empty so it’s okay

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good morning i had a horrible night, cried myself to sleep and have woken up with a migraine 🤟