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Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

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So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

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Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

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They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭

[pinkreputations]

Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

[pinkreputations]

So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

[pinkreputations]

Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

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They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭

[pinkreputations]

Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

[pinkreputations]

So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

[pinkreputations]

Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

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They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭

[pinkreputations]

Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

[pinkreputations]

So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

[pinkreputations]

Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

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They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭

[pinkreputations]

Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

[pinkreputations]

So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

[pinkreputations]

Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

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They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭

[pinkreputations]

Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

[pinkreputations]

So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

[pinkreputations]

Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

[pinkreputations]

They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭

[pinkreputations]

Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

[pinkreputations]

So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

[pinkreputations]

Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

[pinkreputations]

They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭

[pinkreputations]

Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

[pinkreputations]

So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

[pinkreputations]

Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

[pinkreputations]

They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭

[pinkreputations]

Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

[pinkreputations]

So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

[pinkreputations]

Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

[pinkreputations]

They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭

[pinkreputations]

Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

[pinkreputations]

So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

[pinkreputations]

Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

[pinkreputations]

They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭

[pinkreputations]

Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

[pinkreputations]

So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

[pinkreputations]

Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

[pinkreputations]

They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭

[pinkreputations]

Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

[pinkreputations]

So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

[pinkreputations]

Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

[pinkreputations]

They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭

[pinkreputations]

Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

[pinkreputations]

So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

[pinkreputations]

Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

[pinkreputations]

They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭

[pinkreputations]

Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

[pinkreputations]

So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

[pinkreputations]

Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

[pinkreputations]

They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭

[pinkreputations]

Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

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So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

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Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

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They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭

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Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

[pinkreputations]

So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

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Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

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They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭

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Alright this is hella pathetic but I just need to vent for a second ..  So we have been on lockdown since March 11th, and so far we will be till the end of April (as of now).. I’m a waitress, so my workplace and job was among the first to get shut down, obviously.. I am (hopefully, though right not nothing is for sure) starting college this summer (after finally finding something I want to do with my life and something I’m passionate about and now it’s all possibly getting ruined and I’m so 😭), and I am therefore in the middle of planning to move across the country. I was scheduled to move within the next couple of months, however, now I’m completely fucked. Since I am without a job, I have had to crack open my savings to pay for rent and food (for myself and for my cat).. I was already living paycheck to paycheck, and had whatever little saved up to put down as a deposit next month, and now it’s all just approaching zero real fast and I don’t know what to do. I honestly for once felt like my life was finally coming together, and then this all happened. I am already dealing with bad anxiety, among other things, and life is just a lot right now. No, I don’t have family that can help me. My family is super small. I have no contact with my dad and my mom is struggling majorly herself and is living in a house that the owner just put up for sale, so she’s possibly going to be without a home in the very near future. I am not asking for anything.. I just really needed to empty my thoughts real quick. I am constantly crying and I don’t know what the fuck is going on in the world or what’s going to happen with me, my family or anyone else right now and it’s freaking me out. I feel so hopeless, helpless and pathetic and gofoeofoeo life is just a lot. I don’t know what else to say. I hope y’all are taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Please remember to stay inside and take care. Love 

[pinkreputations]

So yeah long story short basically when I’ve paid for my rent for April my bank is empty and all my savings are bye bye. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to move to where my future college is or how I’m gonna pay my rent here until I move. So life is very great right now.. very very great. And I’m really not one to complain online and again I’m not asking for help but my head is so filled with thoughts and I just need to let it out because I don’t know what to do.

[pinkreputations]

Update:

Okay here I am again because I felt like I needed to post an update. So my rent was paid a few days ago. I went out and got only a couple of things (like milk, and a bag of cat food) and this is what I have left in my account. You might be thinking “oh that number doesn’t look that bad”, but in US Dollars, this is only $37. As I already said, I was in the middle of finally moving to attend college, which right now, is very, very unlikely to happen. This is also all I have left for the rest of the month for.. everything.. including food, both for myself and for my kitty. And given that I have absolutely zero income right now, in a few weeks, and when May comes around, I will have nothing left. I suppose I am going to have to spend the next few weeks figuring out what I am gonna do. Perhaps I can move in with a friend (my mom is allergic to cats, so not an option. I also don’t have any other family around here. And I am not gonna abandon my cat.) I hate being vulnerable online, but I honestly can’t stop crying and stressing about this, and I don’t know what to do. I also know that so many people out there are affected too, which also makes me feel like I shouldn’t complain, even though I am in such deep sh*t myself. I hate asking for help and I hate being vulnerable, but if anyone ends up reading this and wants to help, I won’t say no. Cause honestly that’s where I am at right now. I think my DM’s are open (if I am tumblring correctly, lol..) Otherwise, this is my paypal link. And again.. Please stay inside. Please. Even if this is not affecting you, you going out is affecting others. Please be selfless and responsible. Please stay at home and take care. (P.s..The wording  in the screenshot looks a bit weird because I used the Google Translate extension to translate it so it would be in english.. just before people wanna say it looks weird lol.. )

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They just extended the lockdown till the end of May 😭