What Brought You Here?

It's the ramblings of a madman...

[collecting-thoughts]

May 16th, 2022

We've been really quiet here. That's okay, I guess. College has had us down, for a while. We're mostly going to stop tagging our posts, unless whoever is fronting decides to. We'll use dates for titles. Whoever is posting is whoever they decide to be, signatures or not. There's too many thoughts inside to keep them all cooped up.

If you find us after this, hello; If you decide to stay, you're welcome to. Maybe it's your sign that, you're really not alone. It may be something you see or hear everyday- a common response of comfort, turned over into something most may be skeptic of due to how common it can be. But maybe we help give a little hope that it's true.

This blog isn't meant for any specific purpose beyond serving as a place to empty our brain. But, we can offer something, at least. If you ever wish to dump out some thoughts using a mask, you may use our asks. We have anons on, and even if you don't want to use that, you can ask for it to stay a secret- It'll either be saved to drafts or left in our inbox- or even that it simply be deleted after being read.

This Doesn't Mean You're Free To Be Cruel- We Will Be Reading These- But to those who really do just want to get something off your mind, we welcome you.

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May 18, 2022

genshin impact go brrr

Also, saving up money to buy an Oculus headset.

Not very many legible thoughts today, sorry.

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WOO its been a bit SORRY been planning some stuff for a

COOL NEW ASKBLOG

That features character who were based on the 10 COLORS OF WORMS ON STRINGS that I bought a few days ago.

Go keep an eye out for @wormbox to start!

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When you get an amazing new desk, a book of writing tips, a copy of a crime fiction spy book first published decades ago (Ashenden) AND multiple journals, plus you find the PERFECT pen to write with, and already came up with a great line to start a story with.

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Fairly ok day!

Started a new wattpad account for a fresh start for the books we're writing. @/Cyber_City if anyone's interested!

We also author @cybers-synthetic-stories so if you would like to ask us to write something, you can! Currently only have a single ask, and I'm working on it right now, so hopefully you'll see it soon!

Besides that... just tired. Playing Genshin recently too, and man,, Starbucks is a fun character.

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It was a bad day.

That's all I can say.

[cybers-synthetic-stories]

Hey camper,

Hayze was... visibly distressed. They could tell something didn't feel right here, and the overly friendly host of the show only made that feeling worse...

Etion grinned at his campers. He looked to a clipboard he had, then decides plans are dumb and tosses it into the water.

Hey Campers! Welcome to Camp Eternity, the best and most secluded Island Wilderness resort! The name's Etion, and I do hope you're all prepared for everything that has been waiting for you to arrive!

They didn't know what they should say, and neither did anyone else around them, but the bouncy figure made of what appeared to be clouds was all too happy to fill every silence, chattering away. Perhaps they're overreacting, this is just a camp after all!

He noticed some nervous faces and immediately set upon helping his campers with jokes and the like. After all, things were about to get interesting, he couldn't have them all freezing up with the challenges they were about to face!

They made eye contact, only once, but it was enough that Hayze shrunk back. This man had a look that wasn't exactly comforting, but there was no back out now.... because the boat had already begun to leave.

[ORIGINAL CHARACTERS!]

Etion belongs to @sometimesilikeeatingrawcorn.

Hayze belongs to Elbee. [Me!]

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Also the writing blog was made, and I'm sure Elbee would appreciate it so very much if anyone who pays attention to us could hop over to that blog, and hopefully leave a sentence or even a short quote for them to write from.

Though, its up to you.

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Sorry for the late post.

I was working on college stuff. I haven't fronted in a while either, didn't know what our alarm was referring to until now.

Landed ourselves in Phi Theta Kappa, but that may not last long. We'll see.

Also have to figure out some courses to replace the sign language ones we planned to take originally, due to moving out of state. But we'll figure that out some other night.

Logged back onto Twitter for one of the others to access our old scp OC Twitter, so there's that.

Otherwise. Just exhausted.

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Had a stressful day today. Had to turn in a rough draft for a paper we hadn't even started. Still have to do our part on a group project. At least we got to watch our friend play part of chapter 2 deltarune.

Goodnight now.

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The meeting to discuss the project went well, and we're feeling a lot more confident in our ability to do this project together! Plus its more like each participant took a piece to work on, and we're going to send it to one person to do the editing and graphic design work so it all looks alright.

In other news, we purchased Black Mesa because it was on sale at 5 dollars, and it led us to realize that our computer is extremely powerful. Default graphics settings (most of which are at their highest) run between the 29 to 60ish range fps.

Not bad for an unmodded 2017 Walmart HP for 300.

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Stressed out because our college classmates only now started contacting each other, when our work is due tomorrow. I don't even know what I'm supposed to be doing and the teacher said things were pushed back because weather?

Either way guess I'm gonna stay up tonight and try to hunt down the task they're talking about. Because I wasn't aware that it was an individually done group project or whatever is happening.

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It turns out its only the framework of who does what. I couldn't care less about what I do I just need to know what it is.

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Stressed out because our college classmates only now started contacting each other, when our work is due tomorrow. I don't even know what I'm supposed to be doing and the teacher said things were pushed back because weather?

Either way guess I'm gonna stay up tonight and try to hunt down the task they're talking about. Because I wasn't aware that it was an individually done group project or whatever is happening.

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Playing Wizard101 with some friends right now, so it's going to be short.

Today was rather easy and calm. We received the copy of Drawn To Life we had ordered. I realized I was frontstuck, but thats fine. Currently playing my very first wizard- ice, in case y'all were wondering- I've played before but on a shared character of the systems.

Not much to speak of tbh. But good overall.

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We finally managed to add this blog to mobile, so we have that going for us.

Now we can post even when we're not at home, so updates should- maybe- become more common.

I and a few others were also thinking of opening a writing miniblog, where people can submit prompts and we can write as much as we can think of for it. We need the writing practice anyway and it would help us get used to the keyboard on our new phone. Would that be something people are interested in?

It would pair nicely with the positivity and aesthetic blogs we already have. If anyone is interested in those also, we can share those at some point.

In other news, things have been working out well. We're currently doing our best to get a count of how many we are, now that our situation has calmed down. It would've been like counting rocks in an earthquake, as a friend of ours put it, to try and keep count while in an ongoing, constantly stressful situation.

So, yeah. There's some of our latest updates!

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Talking To The Air

Slept in late today, after sitting on call with my friends until 4 in the morning. We did some fun stuff, like playing Among Us and Pretend You're Xyzzy in character. It was a great time, all in all!

I feel.... more comfortable, around this group. It honestly seems like it was for the best for the old group to split up. I feel... more at ease, now. Like things are.... working themselves out.

Also, to talk more about this blog.

I know I may not be very relatable or whatever, but. This blog isn't to be relatable. This is for me. I can talk about things here, and it feels.... easier, to do. I'm working on building a schedule for updating this blog, so I have like, a post a day, at least. I may get to a point where I'll stop using the queue, even, but we'll see.

To anyone who might end up following me? I'm not sure why, but thank you!

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Calm

Today was quiet, hanging out with a good group of friends that I still have. After looking back some, I realized that the old group wasn't very good, honestly. They were always saying that everyone was equal in the situations in RPs, but they clearly had characters that were favored more, and people got ignored. It was an unfair situation for so many people, and honestly, now I'm somewhat glad they left.

While I can wish that the events never happened- I can also appreciate what the events gave to me, in the end: a group of good people, who I can honestly call my friends.

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Whole

Imagine this. You meet someone, you don't think much at first. Then, you realize that you've fallen for them, even though they're outside the usual group of people you fall for. You also realize, thanks to their kindness and your love for them, that you aren't you yet. So you finally get to step into who you are, with them.

You think it'll be different, because of all this that you've been through with them. You work up the courage to confess that you like them. They say they aren't ready to date, you're like, ok, I'll wait until you are.

Then, after a few months, they suddenly ghost you. You ask if you did something wrong, they come back only to reassure you that you didn't. Then a couple months after that, they block you. No explanation.

What the fuck am I supposed to learn from this?