Collin Jennings

My name is Collin Jennings and this is my life. I'm not necessarily here to amuse you or anyone else. I'm here to write.

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[colloquiallycollin]

U love someone ?

I do.

[colloquiallycollin]

Why don't you take your fake blog and take it down before i do what i did to jenna. :) Your Welcome.

I understand that being safe behind the screen of a computer gives some people confidence, but that doesn't give you the right to try and make people feel bad about themselves.

[askjennahamilton-blog]

PSA:

As of currently, Jenna is finishing out her junior year of high school.

I may or may not have said she was a senior this year, but I’m changing that.

JENNA IS A JUNIOR UNTIL THE BEGINNING OF NEXT SCHOOL YEAR HERE IN THE USA.

Yep, that’s all.

-Megan

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PS. Oh, and Collin is still a senior. He's graduating this year like I am.

I have not decided what I'm doing with him yet, but I'm debating whether or not to stop coming on this blog.

[colloquiallycollin]

How bad are your allergies? like do you go into shock??

No, nothing like that. I'm lucky that I'm only allergic to pollen. It's a pain, but it's a lot better than some other allergies I could've had.

[jenna--hamilton]

I would say that’s a likely excuse, but I’m almost positive that you’d be expecting it of me by now. Where’s the fun in saying it if you’re already betting on it all falling into place?

[colloquiallycollin]

Yeah, predictability is boring. I've always been a sucker for a good surprise.

[colloquiallycollin]

jenna--hamilton answered your question: I'm curious.

It’s nice to know that it’s not only *my* work you make a habit of critiquing.

Hey, I'm only trying to help. Peer reviewing helps both the criticizer and the critiqued. I become more conscious of problems when I write, and I help you become aware of any problems.

[colloquiallycollin]

I'm curious.

If I did book reviews, would any of you read them? I've made a list of a few I'd probably do.

The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky

Divergent by Veronica Roth

The Book Thief by Markus Zusak

Struck By Lightning by Chris Colfer

City of Bones by Cassandra Clare

...and whatever else I pick up from the store or library.

Opinions?

-Collin

PS. Obligatory question mark: ?

[dictionaryofobscuresorrows]

onism

n. the frustration of being stuck in just one body, that inhabits only one place at a time, which is like standing in front of the departures screen at an airport, flickering over with strange place names like other people’s passwords, each representing one more thing you’ll never get to see before you die—and all because, as the arrow on the map helpfully points out, you are here.

[colloquiallycollin]

//I've made my decision on how I'll play Collin. Collin is not, nor will he do any kind of drug. It's a touchy subject for me personally because of Cory. And if you've ever liked Glee, it probably is for you too.

I'm still going to follow the canon-storyline though.

Spoilers under the cut, in case any of you aren't up to date with Collenna.

Her friends won't show up to the barbecue for the same reasons as in the episode. She'll yell at them and they'll be enemies.

Collin and Jenna will probably get pulled over for DUI and possession of alcohol. And for that will only add more disdain to Jenna's friends' opinions on Collin.

But she'll still stay with Collin. They'll be cute and fluffy for a while, then Jenna will begin to feel the effects of not having her friends' support.

She'll get angry about that After School Special and lie to Valerie to get out of it. Then she'll get suspended for being intoxicated on campus. (Like, probably a hangover. Idk it happened in Glee, so I'm making it happen here.) Then she'll get mad at Valerie and write that essay.

Then, at the club when they're supposed to get high, they'll probably get really drunk. Collin won't understand or remember that he's not with Angelique and his brain will be confused on who he should be kissing. Jenna will get angry and ask Matty to pick her up, and then the fallout begins.

Jenna will avoid Collin and Collin will tell her that he's sorry (AND NOT SAY THE ASSHOLE-ISH THINGS HE DID IN CANON JFC) but she'll put him on probation. While in that stage, Collin will somehow end up hanging out with Angelique again (and possibly almost cheat on Jenna, but Ange will stop him), and Jenna will still be pining for Matty.

Then they'll probably break up for real. Jenna will be upset that Collin almost or possibly did cheat on her, and she'll avoid him. Then, she'll try to right her wrongs.

This is the outline for what I have planned, but it's a little subject to change.

[colloquiallycollin]

My 'Oh-So Wonderful' account of the holiday season.

Christmas was the same as always. Put up the tree, bake cookies, watch cliché holiday movies. My mom's family came over to our place so we could all celebrate together. I hung around with my favorite cousins since they stayed at our house.

We all pretty much got what we wanted. I got all the books I asked for, so I think I might start a new segment of this blog. Book reviews. That is, if I have the time for it. I guess we'll see.

I admit, Christmas was great. But it wasn't any different than the years previous. I mean, my aunts and uncles asked about Angelique, but all I told them was that we weren't seeing each other anymore. They didn't ask why, and I didn't tell them why. They don't need to know.

Other than that, nothing truly special or extraordinary happened for Christmas.

New Year's, however, is a different story. Xan hosted a party for New Year's at his place. His parents were in Hawaii on their second honeymoon. (Or was it the fourth? I can't remember.) So of course, he threw a party.

During the lag between Christmas and New Year's, I talked to Jenna. I just wanted to check up on her, since I knew she was feeling pretty down on herself. So we talked for a little, even though she and I both knew she really didn't want to.

But I told her that if she wanted to, she could come to the party. It would get her mind off of things, and maybe she could start the New Year on the right foot.

Well, let me tell you, that was quite a start to the New Year. She did show up around ten, so I hung out with her. We sat around and drank and just talked for most of the evening. It was good to catch up with her. Cathartic, almost.

Not to mention that it was nice to not actively avoid Angelique all evening.

During the countdown, I felt strangely calm, yet excited. I blamed it on the alcohol I'd had, but really, I still have no idea why I felt that way.

All I know is, Jenna kissed me and I am immensely glad she did.

Here's to starting off the New Year on the right foot.

[askjennahamilton-blog]

//Jenna kept me awake so I could write this down for her. adkjfhakdsjfhaldkfj ;-;

[relentlessandimperfect]

Grace (read it forward, then backward line by line.)

I have no place in this life

So you can’t tell me

I am important, worthy, and beautiful.

I know what I am:

I am ugly, useless, and broken.

I used to believe that

A God exists who loves me.

But now I have realized that

I deserve to die.

But grace turns it all around.

(read in reverse)

[relentlessandimperfect]

Wow you guys. I never expected to get this many notes on a poem of mine. I’m amazed it has touched so many people!

[colloquiallycollin]

We must have the stubbornness to accept our gladness in the ruthless furnace of this world.

From "A Brief for the Defense" by Jack Gilbert

[colloquiallycollin]

omfg you are soooo hot

Thanks, gray-face.

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Recap on the current state of my life.

I haven't had the motivation to blog in a while. And honestly, I still don't. But I guess I should get you up to speed.

1) Finished NaNoWriMo. Nowhere near done with the first draft of the plot.

2) Jenna and all of her friends found out about us. On her birthday. I can't even sugarcoat it--it was terrible. I kept trying to end whatever it was that we had, but somehow I ended up kissing her in her house. Her mom has been trying for years to throw her a surprise party. Needless to say, everyone was pretty surprised.

3) I don't know where to go with my relationship with Jenna. She and I were never serious, but now... maybe we could be. I'm not going to push her.

I guess I'll keep you updated as life goes on.

[colloquiallycollin]

//yeah no i'm changing some of this storyline. i am nOT DOWN WITH THIS.