Sardonyx Hellvile Lestrange

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A bit of a reintroduction, my name is Sardonyx Hellvile Lestrange. I am black, I am goth but most of all I am black, obviously. I love all things gothic and unique related. My account is a positive black queer space and I won’t tolerate any hatred whatsoever.

My style is equally as performative as it is personal. I’ve been within the goth community for nearly a decade.

With that being said, I don’t often see a ton of black representation or acknowledgement within the community. I have been told countless times that i should use the white foundation base for a lot of my makeup looks or that I should straighten my hair.

And while that’s not necessarily bad I often feel like it takes away from the uniqueness to my personal look. The Afro that I often have gives me a sense of power that I love. That and I get many compliments from little girls saying how much they like the look. And growing up being told that my hair looked ‘messy’ and ‘nappy’ in its natural state, hearing that warms my heart.

I unapologetically love my look and I hope to find more black alternative people in the future.

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JUST A REMINDER THAT THE GOTH SCENE WAS BUILT BY QUEER PEOPLE

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Yall ever look at your friends and just swoon? Like not in a sexual way or romantic way but it’s just like- holy fuck ur actually hot but in a respectful way.

Like good lord you’re actually so attractive and I could stare at you for hours and hours upon end. But like I love our friendship and don’t actually see myself with you intimately in the sense of dating or sex because our chemistry as friends is just so perfect that you’re practically family.

[megacoolkid]

Isn't that just having a squish on someone?

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A squish?

[megacoolkid]

Yeah, like a 'friend crush'.

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I did not know that was a term

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Yall ever look at your friends and just swoon? Like not in a sexual way or romantic way but it’s just like- holy fuck ur actually hot but in a respectful way.

Like good lord you’re actually so attractive and I could stare at you for hours and hours upon end. But like I love our friendship and don’t actually see myself with you intimately in the sense of dating or sex because our chemistry as friends is just so perfect that you’re practically family.

[megacoolkid]

Isn't that just having a squish on someone?

[sardonyxlestrange]

A squish?

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Yall ever look at your friends and just swoon? Like not in a sexual way or romantic way but it’s just like- holy fuck ur actually hot but in a respectful way.

Like good lord you’re actually so attractive and I could stare at you for hours and hours upon end. But like I love our friendship and don’t actually see myself with you intimately in the sense of dating or sex because our chemistry as friends is just so perfect that you’re practically family.

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After watching Iron Lung last night and seeing some project Hail Mary art (mostly Bloody Mary) I have come to this unbearable urge to watch a movie about Mouthwashing. Shitty fandom aside, A MOUTHWASHING MOVIE WOULD BE SO PEAK. But like in a gut wrenching psychologically fucked up way. Like I remember watching Jay play it and being so obsessed but so utterly horrified. Like the concept of everything in that game is just so beautiful yet so terrifying.

I wish people didn’t ruin the fandom as much as they did. With me being a writer that enjoys some psychological horror I’d love to try and come up with my own space based story but I think it’s one of those things where it’s about to be over saturated. Anyways I still would really like to see more on Mouthwashing, especially a cut sequence between pre crash curly and post crash. And the part with Daisuke would go so harddd.

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I die a little bit inside everytime someone assumes I’ve just been dressing cool all my life. When I first started out, i was still experimenting. I mainly had an idea of what I wanted to look like, but it definitely wasn’t perfect and definitely isn’t like how I am now lol. This version of me would probably faint if they knew I’d be a super kewl Afro baddie.

Meanwhile I’m looking back at it now and think “wow she was kind of a loser back then”

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Took me a while but I found an old prince costume photo from like..4th grade I think. It could’ve been 5th

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I die a little bit inside everytime someone assumes I’ve just been dressing cool all my life. When I first started out, i was still experimenting. I mainly had an idea of what I wanted to look like, but it definitely wasn’t perfect and definitely isn’t like how I am now lol. This version of me would probably faint if they knew I’d be a super kewl Afro baddie.

Meanwhile I’m looking back at it now and think “wow she was kind of a loser back then”

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I had seen a post about someone saying there aren’t enough goths that do music and I think I want to expand on that and say I think there aren’t enough goths that do art in general. Like, putting clothing pieces together is definitely an art form but I think a lot of goths have the potential to become musical and creative artists like painters and musicians. Someone could be the next Mugler or Peter Murphy.

I think a lot of us including myself, are afraid to put ourselves out there artistically. Or maybe don’t know how to.

I know it’s really tough out here with the prices of everything so I’m not really pressed, but for me personally I’d like to dabble in more things like maybe learn a new instrument or try and get into photography like I wanted.

I also wanted to get into designing clothes and stuff on a sort of professional level and maybe asking some of my goth friends to model for me. I’ve got tons of ideas but 😬whoever said diy isn’t expensive LIED.

Anyways, all this to say I think goths in particular have a true potential to become really intricate and unique artists. Specializing in all things dark and spooky. I’d definitely love to see more of it.

Also I did a bit of modeling for the first time the other day

Obviously there was more to post but i think enough people are tired of seeing me lol

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I haven’t had real motivation to write in so long and once I GENUINELY reach a flow state, I GET NERFED WITH A DAMN HEADACHE. Like what the ACTUAL bro what the ACTUAL.

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I am impressed and amazed at the end result of all the photographs I've seen of you.

Do you start with a vision for how you want things to end up and then shoot straight for it the whole way, or is it more that you start with vague ideas from assembled pieces, and the end result becomes clear little-by-little as you put them together?

I do a video and take a shit ton of screenshots 😭 and then hope that they come out decently. I find that it’s easier that way instead of taking a picture and then checking and then having to redo said picture if I don’t like it. So far as posing I have like..3 go to poses and I kind of don’t know why

I also learned that by taking screenshots it helps give extra space when posting on insta bc for some reason insta likes to crop photos to be shorter.

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Just some random photos I took today :p more vampire feels. I am absolutely DREADING this summer 😔I just KNOW it’s going to be ass melting hot.

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I hadn’t actually gone outside to chill in so long lol i usually do a bunch of errands then go home

I might as well become my town’s cryptid vampire with how I mainly come out at night, if I ever go out at all.

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(Spoilers for ppl who haven’t played)

When I was told to play red dead redemption 2 I didn’t think that..

1, the game would be so interesting and immersive. I had a rocky start getting used to the controls ( kept accidentally shooting ppl nd whatnot 😭 or running them over w my horse)but everything just drew you in

2, I didn’t think I’d be going through so many stages of grief. WGAT DO YOU MEAN SEAN, KIERAN, HOSEA, AAND MRS GRIMSHAW DIE??? I was HELLA upset they left Lenny, I was so sad for Kieran, I was angry at Molly for snitching but only to find out it was Micah’s bitch ass, I freaking loved Hosea, BUT MY GIRL SUSANNN😭😭 and then I was heartbroken that Arthur got diagnosed with tuberculosis like oh my god😭I was in denial for so long because i thought SURELY the main character wouldn’t die right? Had to have been a wrong diagnosis, right? Surely.

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HE DIES ON THE CLIFF WHILE BEING BETRAYED BY HIS FAMILY😭😭 I have never hated a character more than I hate Micah Bell. And people have the nerve to have him as a favorite character. Now for some reason I am iffy on Dutch. For some reason a part of my brain is like.. “if he knew it’d go down like this surely he wouldn’t have let the gang fall apart. Suuurely he’d have a little bit more faith in his son Arthur.” But logically he knew. He had to have. You could see the shift in who his “favorite son” was. And not only that but got Rains Fall involved and got his son killed.

When I first heard about RDR I was like eh just some random western type game. Literally one of the best games I’ve ever played. HOWEVER it was such an odd transition of seeing Arthur in his last moments to suddenly shoveling shit as John Marston😭 like FUCK not only is Arthur dead but now I have to watch horse shit be dumped into a wheelbarrow. I haven’t finished the epilogue but now I’m definitely willing to play the first game. My only real complaint is that I wish Arthur had more missions with Sadie. She is an absolute blast I love her so much

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So the other night this super nice and talented guy gave me a few of his art pieces for free and honestly it’s great

He even had some that glows in the dark. Pretty sick. He had a cool Frankenstein one at his stand but smb else copped that one 🙄I might ask if he does commissions but his name is Sigler.Joshua and has a lot of cool ones posted on his instagram and facebook

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Just had the best time at the paranormal cirque #4!!!! I go see them consistently whenever they are close to my town! The entirety of these groups are truly amazing and I love the energy of these people so much!

The show gives off such vampiric energy like the whole casts are just vampires

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I don’t know if it’s just the type of guys I attract but it’s like..I swear 9 times out of 10 after speaking to them for a little bit they all always say “oh you’re so small I bet I could overpower you and there’s just nothing you could do about it” or “I could just pick you up and you cant do anything about it” and I just..I cringe because I honestly take it as a threat. I do not like feeling helpless and even if it’s a “joke” I immediately feel insanely uncomfortable lol. And whenever I speak with anyone romantically I always tell them I have this weird thing with not wanting to be touched all the time and so to me that’s like basically telling me you’re going to assault me simply because I’m “tiny” and don’t like it 😭 props to anyone who is attracted to that kind of talk but it is definitely not for me.