Tell me why

I am lost

[myladyofmercyy]

asking for a friend how do i know if i have adhd or if its the anxiety messing everything up

[adhd-community]

[vulpetrope]

Star-crossed

[dafancyuhinspiration]

[pinetree-thetooka]

[colorofsound]

I am interesting eyes in an unfortunate face

[piecesofapuzzle]

i feel like i'm both too much and not enough

[colorofsound]

Anyone else having daydreams of biting a bullet in front of their parent? No? Just me? Well I'll be damned...

[mhbcr]

give me a hug, im tired and drained

[eldritchbauble]

You're just a mammal. Let yourself act like it. Your brain needs enrichment. Your body needs rest. You feel hunger and grow hair. You need to pack bond with other sentient things so you don't become unsocialized and neurotic. You are biologically inclined to seek dopamine and become sick when chronically stressed. "Hedonism" is made up to place moral value on taking pleasure in sensory experiences. I am telling you that if you don't let yourself be a fucking mammal, as you were made, you will suffer and go insane. No grindset no diets no trying to be above your drive for connection. Pursue what makes you feel good and practice radial rejection of the constructs meant to turn you into a machine. You're a mammal.

[eldritchbauble]

I am so serious about the way people are taught to view themselves as separate from and above any other animal being the root cause of a lot of problems. You're not better than a beast.

[eldritchbauble]

This post has really made the rounds so I have to say - this mentality changed me overnight. I had this realization that all of the fumbling over self love I did for years just needed... this. Once I internalized that I'm just a creature, it got so much easier to take care of myself.

I've started treating myself like I would a dog that's going to chew through the house when it's bored. I walk myself. I seek activities that make my brain feel less like depressed sludge. I ask my body what it needs; I rest, I enjoy rest. I don't see it as a waste or unproductive. I see it as allowing my body to do its job of working better. I lean into appreciating my natural features. I'm a hunk of flesh. I can be ugly. I can decide that ugly is appealing. I can not care. Whatever. I started emphasizing little things that nourish my relationship(s), shelving distractions more, so I can relish the time I have with loved ones. I specifically pursue pleasure--dopamine--not just quick hits from scrolling social media but getting off my ass. Engaging. Cooking myself nice meals and making fucking art, man. Things that make my spirit feel more alive than I have for years. I ask myself what it is I want rather than only doing what I'm supposed to be doing. And it doesn't mean shirk every responsibility, it means recognizing you're one of your fucking responsibilities. It's reordering. I realized I'm going to die happy or unhappy and either way I'm just as dead in a given amount of years, and I choose to die happy and fulfilled.

Everything else can get fucked ad infinitum.

Call me a hedonist, I'm saving my own life.

[colorofsound]

It's like chewing and swallowing poison sometimes

Caught in a trap like

The way I shrink, quiet, a mouse in a corner

As your heavy footsteps echo in the room.

Protection and predation

What I love that might just kill me

And if I speak

I don't know who will find me

You, the guardian,

The caregiver.

Or you

The woman starved of hope and future

And desperately in need of a meal

[colorofsound]

I'm not too young to die

[colorofsound]

I am far too young

And getting much too old

And in one corner

My mother screams

'It's like you have your own life now'

Like separating is death

Like the shackles are comfortable

And in another corner

I'm screaming

' I love you, let me go'

Like it means something

[waningliebling]

it's always the terrible, nerve-wracking, utterly sickening feeling of alienation once you realize how dumb you've become after doing nothing but get by your days, and the shocking realization that everyone but you seems to have figured themselves out by now. oh but i used to be so smart! then how come it's so easy to belittle you now? how come you can't even memorize and intellectualize everything the way you used to in your prime?

[april]

ⓘ Tip If you feel unfulfilled by how you spent your time today, you can stay up late to try to combat the sense of dissatisfaction. This will ensure that you feel even worse tomorrow.

[colorofsound]

Maybe you just...gave me back the emotion I needed in order to feel alive.

[colorofsound]

You've turned me into this rabid thing, starved for affection, I might hate you for it.

[8nin]

can i sell my feelings on ebay i don’t want them anymore